Eileen thinks Im a big heartbreaking bitch. :( Today I went to school, came home,KRISTIN AND LIZ CALLED AND TOLD ME THEY GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!! YAY!I met Kevin at Kamiakin and had another interesting time with him. I would talk about it but..
Kevin: "yea dont tell anyone that acident happend"
so umm..its a secret.
I went to curves after I hung out with him and got yelled at by Eileen for being MEAN and uncaring, and blahblah...then I came home and changed for soccer and went to soccer practice. I was thinking a lot about what happened during soccer and Im so fucking confused. whatever. Soccer was fun, we got a new guy and he was wearing the exact same outfit as another guy on the team lol. I came home and talked online and now I gota do homework for Ryan John Michaela and I...makin money to pay off my tickets!
ohh and I started my blog the other day talking about how I wont get used. HA. I think I was wrong...so I gota put a stop to that..I gota put some song lyrics in here...maybe they mean something maybe not..Im just in a really fucked up mood right now. I need sleep maybe? too much working out today? I duno..shit
*~Hillary~*


I cant stop thinking about yesterday
we were long lasting for such a short short time
thinking about yesterday
seeing our fear of the future
how we knew then it wouldnt last
thinking about yesterday
we tried to ignore the awesome truth
that tore us worlds apart
thinking about yesterday
there is so much more I wanted to say
nothing more I can tell him live
words spoken now are blank
insignificant and hollow
so thinking about yesterday
I forgive and forget

every night its the same
I hear you calling my name
youre lyin next to me
I give in to your trust
you dissappear in my arms
I realize its just a dream
desperately I long to feel your touch
you left me all alone in love
shake the sleep from my head try to crawl out of bed
today is just another day
I make the coffee for one
turn the radio on
pretend that everything is ok
theres no reason to smile its gona take me a while
cuz I still love you desperately
I still love you
I still want you
I still love you desperately

GOD DAMN PEOPLE IM IN SUCH A BAD MOOD STOP asking me to do your damn homework SHIT