Today was pretty OK..I went to school and did the WASL..when we were walking out of class..I said hey to Michaela and Ryan turned around and said Whats crackin.....like I was gona talk to him..and I just looked at him and looked back at michaela and was like umm wtf..? after school...this is what happened..
michaela came home with me,we walked to kamiakin and talked to even ryan johnson max kraig and this other guy then we walked from there to herricks and kicked it with kevin herrick and chris then we walked back to kamiakin and amanda called me so I walked to john muir and kicked it with her and danny and brandy and dylan then I walked home and Lexi came over then I walked to curves and worked out with Eileen. whew one long sentence! sorry Kode if thats kinda de ja vu..but I didnt wana write it again so I just took it outa our convo from earlier and put it here lol. working out the funniest thing EVER happened..I dont know why it was soo damn funny but I was seriously bent over a machine cuz I was laughing so hard I couldnt stand straight. I was talkin to eileen about body shapes, and I said that there is apple pear spoon and hourglass and she said that they are all fruits, not utinsils..so I asked her what my body shape is in a fruit..and she looked like she was thinking so I said "a banana pinched in the middle?" and she goes "I was thinking more like a squeezed orange.." oh my god. I dont know why it was soo funny but we were both gasping for air..anyways. I wana wear a skirt tomarrow but Im not sure..I talked to Ryan tonight and told him how I feel and shit..kinda..and I think we bitched at eachtoher and we are OK now maybe..he said he didnt call me a bitch but he thinks im a ditz and some other shit I dont even know..Kevin said I should just ignore it cuz ryan is just trying to annoy me and he's wasting my time..maybe K's right. we will see..so I told Lex that i was talkin to Ryan and I was all depressed style about some other shit that we had talked about (haha male jiggalo is better than him! {I think I really wana do it tho Lex})and then we decided that we are going to go out for jamba juice tomarrow!!!! IM SO EXCITED! I loveee lexi! we are wearin skirts tomarrow I think..my st thomas skirt whoooo hoo its gona be a high of 72F~~~ omg Im soo excited! I think Im off to pick out my outfit for tomarrow and shave my legs :D time to show off the 'tan' lol


crazy bitch....crazy bitch...crazy bitch......stupidass bitch...loco bitch...dumbass bitch...a bitches bitch...old dumbass bitch...just a bitch!....dumbass bitch

ok heres some song lyrics that are hella good..and mean a lot to me:
I need to tell you something
my emotions they confuse
Im not used to them
everything I ever said to you was the truth
Its not that I cant love, its that they dont compare to you
I need some time in right frame of mind
do you remember all the tears we have been through
I was trying to help you but in reality I needed that help for me
I loved you but now Im through no longer love you baby
I know you're listening to me
I always had an empty heart but then you filled it
its my own insecurities that killed it
the message is real and all the feelings they were heart felt
how would you feel if you exposed yourself not even thinking of the damage
or thinking you couldnt have it
I think of the love only hoping that you'll take me back
like if we love again you might love me back
we couldve loved like a fairytale
I could make you cry but not smile anymore
the worst feeling anyone has been in is loving someone but you cant even reach them
the times that we spent made me forget that I had problems
how come we fought so much? we even stressed love
when you test love it be the best love
but I dismissed love with fake hugs I ripped up your heart
Its my fault and thats why it hurts me the most
I dont know anymore so take your love back
I hope your heart will heal up
Ill see you when I see ya
I loved you but now Im through no longer love you baby


HILLARY!