I wish I would have written in here like half an hour ago because it would be a WAY happier entry then..but no...
Today was really good till then. I went to school and had a science test...I dont know how I did on that..I was second to last to finish, 2 minutes before the bell..I think thats bad news. Especially considering my final project grade..in fourth period I had the most embarrassing moment I think Ill ever have in that class..I was doing leg extensions with the girls, and I had my legs in those little pad things..and when I finished I stood up to walk away..and then I realized that I had forgotten to take my legs outa the restraints, so I started squirming and I fell over flat on my face. haha...wow great times..ditzy me! on my way to Rebtime, I walked past the office and there was this guy in there..he was looking at me walk by. Then I went to my class..and the wall of my class is a window that u can see inside the office thru, and the guy stood at the window of the office STARING at me for like 10 minutes..so Kat shut the blinds..then the guy came outside and walked to the other window and looked at me..and I was getting scared..then I had to go to the office to pick up my science thing that my mom had dropped off..and the guy was walking away when i went out, but then his friend turned around and looked at me and was like HOLLA!! and I was like whoa..and kinda ignored him, but then the guy turned around and waved at me..and I waved back and he yelled holla too haha..it was wierd/funny/embarrassing...yea. Lunch was ..kinda boring cuz Liz and Kristin and I just tried to figure out math stuff..pretty lame. In LA class, Ryan sat next to me, and laughed at me all period..god I wonder how many entries I have that say that he has spent a day laughing at me..but yeah so today I was just like um why dont u ever NOT laugh at something I say? and he said because everything I say is so funny...and stupid. what an ass. w.e. After school caitlin and chantel came over and we just kicked it till 4 30 when chantel had an eyebrow waxing..lol..then I did chores and stuff and talked to Harrison .... and I think he asked me to a movie..but he is like 39 so Im going to just pretend I never heard him say anything..he said he will get 'lit' with me too! HAHA. Today is my sisters birthday, so she came over and we had a family dinner thing. (salad and encheladas) yumm. Lexi called me and we talked for a while and then Kevin called..and we talked for a while and then my mom threw a hella random bitch fit and yelled at me to get off the phone...so I told Kevin I had to go and then I got yelled at more..I NEEED TO WORK OUT shit. I think Ima go do that...because other wise...Ill cry!

Lyrics for today:
all my bags are packed Im ready to go
Im standing here outside ur door
I hate to wake u up to say goodbye
but the dawn is breaking its early morn
the taxis waiting blowing his horn
Im ready Im so lonesome I could die
so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that ull wait for me
hold me like youll never let me go
cuz im leaving on a jet plane
i dont know when Ill be back again
one more time let me kiss you
close ur eyes and Ill be on my way..

*Giggins*


I am leaving in 7 days!

Today...was really wierd and uncool..I left my comp on last night when I went to bed so I could listen to music while I fell asleep, but I didnt realize it would keep me from getting a good sleep..It played from when I went to sleep until 6 AM when I got up and like threw the damn speaker at the wall (no I never thought to turn it off during the night). I was really awake then, so I took a shower and got ready for school. I was thinking that the day was going to be really good. It was really warm outside and so that was good. At school second period I got my test back...wow...20/50 :( not cool. Another SUCKY thing about that class was that I think I found out who my crush likes :'( that was Sad SAd SAD! Third period, I got my project back......... SEVENTY TWO out of TWOHUNDRED AND FIFTY possible points..that is SUCH shit. I should be totally ashamed of myself but for some reason I just dont give a fuck anymore, its like all my teachers dont like me anymore or think Im retarded all the sudden..so my grades have gone from As and B+s to Bs and B-s. 4th period, Kristin got a call from her mom tellin her some really bad news that I shouldnt say, so that sucked a lot, and her and Liz were sad for the rest of the day and I felt really bad for them. At rebtime, I got my registration sticker thing, then went to A lunch cuz my teachers awesome and he let me go. It was sooo sunny outside, I went out to sit with Eileen and Lauren and them and it was so nice! At B lunch, Stacey was really bummed out and ended up crying..that was really sad. 5th period was stupid, me and Max and bryan laughed at Mrs Britsova all period, then 6th period we played chess. Bryan played me and beat me twice. fucker. APPARENTLY im not good enough to play Max..but Ima whoop him in the tournament! Ryan was saying a lot of stupid shit in SS and pissing me off. I think he called me a dumb bitch to Max. I was hella pissed off after that..and when he talked to me I just glared at him. He was like "damn you dont gota look like u wana sock me shit" ....that just made the whole day unworthwhile even tho it already was I just hadnt realized. I went with Cait and Chantel to caits and we did 8 min abs and 8 min buns..and talked and watched Maury. It was funny. Eileen and her mom came and picked me up and Eileen and I went to curves and worked out. Tonight I gota study hard for science so I can bring up my grade..eight days. whoo...? Its hard to be enthusiastic right now..but I am excited

*hillary*

shitty day

I think I am going through work out withdrawels. :( I didnt work out yesterday barely at all..besides sit ups. Today I did some sit ups and butt work outs..but shit..I need to do more cuz I am leaving in 9 days!!! ah well, Ill do stuff tonight and then tomarrow Ill have weight training and go to curves then Ill run..then before bed Ill do my sit ups and ball work outs. Ill be back in the routine!! yay! Today was so boring..I got up at 10 30 and saw that I had missed 3 calls in the middle of the night..so I called the number back and haha heres the convo:
..ringring..
other end: (scruffy)hello?
me: hey, who is this?
other end: whos this?
me: Hillary...whos this?
other end: oh hey, call me back later ok?
me: umm..no? who is this?
other end: If you would like to leave a numeric page, press one, otherwise leave a message after the tone...*beeeeep*
haha, I had a conversation that made complete sence with an answering machine..it took me a while to understand what happened tho...turns out it was James..
I made some berry pancakes for bfast but I only ate one cuz they were BIG..and then Harrison came over (dans friend..dan wasnt home) and was drunk or high or SOMETHING and he was like "hey girrrrrl whats happenin?" and I was like "uhh nuthin how are u?" (I thought this guy was married cuz he has brought a woman over before and talked about their kids..) and he said "NOT MUCH! I can do whatever the fuck I want! Im single now!!" and I just looked at him..he thought it was so cool and I was like "uhmm...yeah thats...sorry?" lol it was so akward cuz I felt bad for him but he was trying to make it sound all good...oh well. Then I cleaned and folded laundry and ate some frozen berries. Cait and I planned out a little..get together..for over spring break that I dont get to go to :( that sucks cuz I really wana go. :'( oh well Ill make an appearance over the phone for 10 dollars a minute from bermuda! haha just for a lucky someone!
We went out to dinner AGAIN tonight..I think my mom is on some major drugs..because we have never ever ever gone out for dinner 2 nights in a row except on vacations..we went to skippers tonight and I drove :D and there was this really really nice asian guy waitin on us and I wanted to tip him a lot cuz he was funny and SOO nice...Ive never met a nicer waiter. then I drove home :D I should do homework..but I probably wont..
Last night I had the most messed up dreams! I dreampt that the lesbians that stole my cat were moving, and we were fighting over who Casper (my cat) was gona stay with..
then I dreampt that I asked *edit* to play chess with me and he said no and I felt totally rejected..lol then I kept trying to get him to play with me and he was trying to think of ways to nicely tell me no. :'( that was not cool..
Its so annoying that I like this guy soo much and I think about him all day, then I go to sleep thinking that I will have a cool dream and forget about him, but I end up dreaming about him too....ever since I first saw this guy (september) Ive been dreamin bout him..damn one needs to just come true already!!
ohhhhhhhhhhhh man I want him.........

:'(
Ima go think about him and work out and ...dream about him..then SEE HIM in the morning!!! yay

**Boobie Cookie Pants**
(my new nickname dan gave me from some email thing lol)


Im officially worried shitless for Rhys..:'(

Today was prettttty awesome!!! I got up and talked to Liz on the phone, and we decided we werent gona be able to kick it today :( that sucked, but then Eileen called and she came and got me and her uncle bought us starbucks *chocolate brownie frapuccino*. We went to Juanita to watch her brothers KINCO wrestling thing, and we were there from 1-7. it was pretty disturbing to see all these hundreds of guys in spandex, I mean seriously...there were soo many wrong things going on there. One guy held another guy around the waist and grabbed his outfit where the other guys dick was and lifted him up..it was like a backwards wedgie...IN SPANDEX! EW..but there WERE some hot boys there..like...5 :D it was cool, NO not the spandexed ones, the older brothers lol. Evan won 1st place in state I think or district or something.. I went to the pool and hung out with my sister and Owen for about an hour, it was fun. Owens really cool, and funny! lol..My sis and I went to get gas and then picked up Dan, and we went to the Lynnwood BUCCA DE BEPPO! and it was sooo bomb! there were **Kode Says Hi** these five drunk people walkin out, and they dominoed down the stairs it was soo funny, they had to grab on to all these people to get up! Breann and Carolyn and Brandon came with us and we had a big dinner.. yummmm ceaser salad!! then Shalia and I came home in her car and now Im just sittin on the dock of the bay...bouta do some sit ups/squats/arm work outs and get my ass to bed cuz im TIRED
10 days!!!!

~*Cuntsweila*~
(Cuntswaylow LOL girls)

havent written in a while and I just wrote a hella long thing about the last few days, but then my internet fucked up..peice of shit. Wednesday I went to codys for a while then he took me to lexis to get cruise clothes. thursday I did my biology project ALL day from 2 45 till 2 AM. that sucked. Today we had a calamari fry in biology and it was really fun. and we disected squids..ewwy but I wrote my name with the ink sac ink! that was cool. I got whooped by Bryan at chess in 6th period...twice...damn him. Cait came over after school, we went and helped lauren pick out a new hair style :D and then we went to BINGO! omg it was SO fun! I love bingo sooo much!!!! I have to go again soon!! anyone wana take me on a cheap date that I will love a lot, take me to bingo!

I think I am going to die if *edit* doesnt start liking me soon..I cant handle it!


night
Hillary(enese)!!*lol Troy*

by the way, Im going to suffer terrible withdrawels...because the Newlyweds arent coming out with any new episodes until JUNE! :'( I cried when I heard that..no joke, sept I was already crying cuz nick said the cutest thing to jess and it was ....awwww!

Today I got all my signatures for classes next year..and Im going to die!
I am taking honors chemistry, AP english and social studies, Algebra 2, Spanish 2 and law and justice and health. CRAZY 3 honors classes.....Ive NEVER had more than 1 honors class. Im so scared..Mr Crowder said Im an airhead tho :( I gave him my sheet to sign, and he goes "HONORS CHEMISTRY FOR AN AIRHEAD LIKE YOU!?!" lol..oh well he signed it neways. Ryan made fun of me alllllll fifth period. literally..the entire class. Sometimes people make me feel really dumb and I am sick of it. damn. ok neways, I went to the bathroom between 5th and 6th today and I almost cried! I couldnt beleive how bad I looked all day, cuz I hadnt seen myself..and I wasnt wearing ne make up..I do that sometimes when Im lazy in the morning, but its never bad like today. man that sucked..so I went to 6th period and tried to hide behind my hair for the whole hour. 3 people called me Bazooka Joe today cuz I had my bazooka tee shirt on..but I didnt know what Joe meant till I asked someone after school...so that was lame lol. I went to work out with Lauren and Eileen at 5 30 and someone was there with all this jewelry and purses and I couldnt concentrate on working out cuz I was lookin at all the stuff..damn them! I came home and Lex came over and then left cuz my mom was being a whore and wouldnt let me leave..then I drove to the school (soccer game)and met up with Lex, Cait, Kristin, Liz, Chantel, Rachel, Natanya, Allison and other peoples and we all were kickin it. Liz and I both had red eyes, it was wierd, so Chantel squirted some eye drops in my eye :D lol it was scary. We were all singin this one song "I dont wana lose your love tonight, I just wana use ur love tonight" or something ha and we were fagish..but oh well. Allison was sitting down, and the benches were all wet and nasty from all the rain, so Chantel sat on allisons lap, Kristin sat on chantels, and I sat on Kristins. lol it was interesting. Lexi got me the CUTEST shit from Minnesota! Its a white tank with 2 cherries on the midboobsection and red outlining and then a pair of (booty) shorts that have cherries all over them! OMG I love em lol Im wearin em right now :D thanks babe! I came home and did homework, and worked out !! I did a lot tonight, I did 75 striaght sit ups, 50 on each side, 25 flat out ones (legs flat), 50 lift things from 8 min abs lol, some squats ouch, 50 leg spread things that hurt, 25 flys with weights and 50 lower ab (work out ball) things. I feeel goood! whoo! Tomarrow Im goin to lexis after school and takin some clothes for the cruise that I leave for IN 13 days!!!!!!!! ITS GONA BE SO FUN!
also..even tho its like 21 weeks away, Chelan is going to be the shit this year(!!!!), I really cant wait..Me Chantel Cait and Lex ( maybe Kris and Liz) are gona have THE FUCKING TIME OF OUR LIVES! *till the next year*
I love my friends! They are so awesome

*~Lily~*

me: Im sooo happy now its crazy
me: everyone thinks im a crack head
Kevin: yea when iam out of ur life
me: ur still in my life
Kevin: iam the one that made u pissed everyday
Kevin: not like that
me: well..you didnt make me pissed everyday , I just worried about if you liked me
Kevin: o well
me: it was hard cuz I knew that u liked someone else the whole time we were together

I NEVER wanted to EVER have that conversation. It doesnt seem so bad..but it was sooo not cool to have to think of what to say to that first thing he said..I didnt want to lie..or make him feel bad. god damn..oh well at least he didnt see the photo journal lol

today is a little less awesome since that happened...Im going to work out and try and forget that now..night

:D Life is great (for me) right now! Sunday I got up and did chores and stuff, then I walked over to Chantel's house and we hung out at her place alll day!! Her fam was havin a barbeque and they invited me..so I stayed for dinner. I met her grandma and grandpa for the first time, and of course embarrassed myself to death in our first conversation.
Gpa- soo who was that rapper guy who got killed? 2 pops and a cop?
Chantel- NO Grandpa hahaha, his names 2pac!
Gma- what did he say it was?
me- He said two pops and a COCK!
I DID not mean to say that, thank god they laughed because I felt like dying.
Dan came and got me from Chantels at like 8 I think, and then I came home and did homework.
Today I went to school. after school I went to Caits, and we hung out till 5ish. it was fun :D and then Eileen and Lauren picked me up, and we went to Eileens. OMG we had the funniest time tryin shit on for the cruise..haha..she got some cute shorts tho and Ima wear em on the trip! Then we left and went to work out, and it was so funny, the lady who had lost her tooth on my lap last time was working out right next to lauren!! I came home and ate an apple and some chicken strips and now Im just chillen listenin to usher and lil jon! I love this song!
take that rewind it back lil jon got the beat to make ur booty go CLAP!-out-
**Hillary!*
15 days!!

Today was pretty damn good! I got up at 10ish, and ...well Amanda and my mom and I took a trip to the hospital. Thats about all I can say about that. Then we went by the DMV and I got a new drivers permit! whoo hoo! I drove home, and then did chores for my mom. She (for some wierd ass reason) felt nice, and pulled out a shopping bag from her closet..and she gave me 2 shirts she had bought me!! One was a pink sweaterish boatneck that has a cowboy boot on it. It was NEW! that was the amazing part, and also she had bought me a new white tank top undershirt. I was excited! I came online for a minute at like 2 30, and Herrick and Kevin said that they were gona come over and get me in 10 mins so I could go to bingo with em and so I could be Kevins good luck for ollying the wall. So I went over there, but on my way these 3 really creepy mexican guys were driving right next to me as slow as I was walking, and all of them were staring at me like they were bouta get some...it was so nasty..they followed me all the way to bingo till they saw Kev and Herrick :'( scary! Kevin ollied the wall and I tried to skate and it was not workin out..so I stopped..but yeah I was good luck :D. 2 cop cars pulled into my condos while we were at bingo, so I called my mom and asked her what was up and she said that she had called them because the neighbors were fighting and banging on the walls and shit..the lady neighbor came to our house and used the phone and talked to the cops, but then when they showed up, the guy pulled her in the house and they pretended like they werent home. lol. Kevin Herrick and I came to my house and I showed them my work out ball, and we all played with it for a while, then we watched TV, talked, flashed eachother (wow..that sounds wrong..not like that..), laughed, and wrestled/argued over the remote till 6 15. Kevins fam came and picked em up at 6 15. I watched What Women Want and some other shit, and worked out with my ball..and now Im bored and tired and thinking too much for my own good. now Herrick and I are discussing it..lol...here is a smarter side of me than you have ever seen! ::
me:Im thinking myself to death
H: haha
H: about what?
me: thinking
H: ?
me: because I was watching wat women want..and then I was thinking that you cant read someones mind because there are different levels of thinking...
H: *uh huh
me: so then I had to write down my FINDINGS
me: haha
me: and then I was like..damn..my mind is complex! and then I was thinking if Im a wierdo for thinking too much
H: haha
H: wow
me: haha
me: THEN I was thinking about marriages
H: yeah i think too much also
H: marriages?
me: and how dads always tell their daughters that all men want is sex
H: ahaha
me: so if all men want is sex, how does a marriage work? because if men arent capable of loving someone more than for sex, it would just all fall apart
me: and since all dads say it, I dont think they are lying, I just think women are in denial
me: and that sucks
H: dads say that to their daughters to make them more careful
me: well they shouldnt say it
H: haha
me: because I dont have a dad even and I beleive it
H: i think its 50-60% true
me: yeah thats messed up
me: men suck
me: no offence
H: haha no worries
H: well i dunno
me: well damn...I dont want to have to be a lesbian..I really love dick
H: i think women are controling and evil, but still...
me: haha
H: hahahha
me: some of us are
H: yeah some to most...
H: haha
me: yeah actually, Ill admit that we all are
me: in our own ways
H: oh well pussy still very persuading
me: see DAMNIT you guys get the good fucking end of the deal
H: haha
H: we got to put up with the controlingness
me: I would be OK with a guy loving me unconditionally, and then using wierdo persuasion methods..as long as he didnt look at other women
H: haha
me: as long as I was gettin some dick
me: or...love
me: :D
H: hahah
me: lol
H: that is how i feel
me: so SEE you guys get the damn good part
H: a girl can control so long as i get some pussy out of it!
me: women have to love unconditionally...get put down by fat slobby men..not look at other men for fear of a bar fight or something..and then give pussy to a man who is checkin out and talkin about other chicks all the time whos beer belly swallows up his dick neways
H: no?
H: haha
me: its true isnt it
H: i dunno im confused

A little in denial of your future huh hairy dick?? lol


*!Youngen!*

Today was seriously THE BEST DAY IVE HAD IN A LONG TIME! I love today. I got up at 10 50 and went to work out with Eileen and Lauren. That was fun stuff! I came home and got ready and then the twins and Chantel came and got me (hehe). We went to blockbusters and got 2 movies and then went to Kristin and Lizs house. Liz made her and I tuna sandwiches with calentro or something wierd in it that Ive never had while Kristin Chantel and I tried to put together the trampoline. It was so funny, I wish someone woulda been videotaping that. We got out the poles and net and stuff, and then Kristin and I tried to put the bars together but we got really confused because they didnt fit together, they connected on one side but then they were like 6 inches away from reaching the other side of the rounded thing...so after we tried to bend the huge metal bars so they would fit..I went to ask Liz about it..and when I came back out Chantel was laughing..and she told us that we were doing it backwards and showed us how to do it. I felt really dumb because it was really obvious after that. then we had to put all the springs on with the net thing...I tried to crawl under the trampoline bar thing but a spring got stuck to my head and it ripped out a lot of hair. Then we tried to stretch the net cuz it wasnt big enough to go around..and Liz got a bright idea ("when I bent over it looked like my ass had an idea" HAHA)to get a rope so we could pull the net..lol...So Chantel ties the rope around and it works for a while, but then one time, she pulled really hard and the rope snapped and she flew back onto her ass. Liz and I got on to test out the tramp..and it worked so we all got on and jumped around for SOO long! They taught me how to do a flip, and Kristin and I tried to flip Liz over our arms..but uhhh haha...that didnt really work at all. Then Chantel doublejumped me sooo high I almost pissed my pants..and then I tried to do it back to her...but I jumped wierd so I backfired from one end of the tramp ALL the way to the other end on the springs..I almost flew off! it was so scary but fun! I felt like a rocket. I havent laughed that hard for a long long time..wow..actually I laughed that hard last night (oh yeah..last night got way better, I went to eileens with chantel and lauren and we laughed our asses off at eileen and I doing a work out video :D)..but neways..Liz Chantel Kris and I went inside and watched a movie, something like dickie richards or w/e. It was funny lol..Then Liz called her step dad and went in the other room..and I heard HILLARY so I thought she was calling me ..so I said YEA?? and then she goes HILLLLARY!! so I was like WHAT!?!?!? and she said it again so Kristin Chantel and I go back to her room and she was just standing there yelling my name at her dad cuz he couldnt understand what she was saying lol. We went back out onto the tramp and ate these ice cream things that had swirley colors on em, and Chantel said something about licking along the lines..so we were sitting there amazed at how the colors changed if u licked it a diff way..loser style. I came home at 6 and did chores and then after like an hour of cancelling plans, Chantel and Cait and Lynn came and picked me up and we went to safeway and then to Chantels. We ate soooo much food...I had a peice of pizza, some salt and vinegar chips and some artichoke. plus 2 cups of pop :( Im sooo full! we talked and laughed and sang the goldfish song..and argued about how the song goes.. and then looked it up and it says Gone Gold Fishing! not got goldfishes Chantel lol. we went into chantels room and piled on her bed and watched A view from the top. It was a funny movie because of how seriously the actors took it lol. I love all my girl friends..Im so glad I hang out with the people I do now, they are so awesome. I know that I can go talk to any of them when Im sad, and come home with a huge smile on my face Then Dan came to pick me up and now Im here.. I LOVED TODAY!
Song lyrics of the day-
mista big stuff who do you think you are? you're never gona get my love. not because you wear all those fancy clothes and have a big fine car oh yes you do now, do you think I can afford to give you my love? you think you're higher than every star above. Id rather give my love to a good guy and have a love thats true than to be fooled around with and get hurt by you cuz when I give my love I want love in return. mista big stuff you're never gona break my heart you're never gona make me cry.
*Hiwawee*

Today was annoying. so many things are pissing me off. Lex Bryn and I went out to bfast at Dennys this morning. Then in second period Jess asked Bryn who she went to eat with..and she said "Lexi" !! wtf I was sitting right there! Third period I asked Michaela something about batting averages and Mr crowder told me that if Im ignorant about the game, I shouldnt open my mouth. wtf#2 ..I was ASKING so I would know..fuck. this next thing sounds so messed up like bad gossip..but work with me. Herrick came up to me today and told me that denny told him that stacey told denny that kristin told her that she does like Herrick she is just scared that I and some other people would make fun of her if she went out with him. wtf#3! Why the hell would I make fun of anyone for going out with Herrick? jesus. then I asked Kris and she said she never even said that. Ryan is the biggest bad part of today. this morning, Lex told me that she was talking to him yesterday about how Clint was sayin he would fuck me or something, and Ryan was like "yeah thats all clint..I duno" and lex said that she knew he wanted me too and he goes "I coulda hit that if I wanted to and I didnt" WTF#4 I fucking wouldnt let him do shit with me when he was trying to and standin there fuckin naked while I had all my damn clothes on. so I went up to him and asked him bout it and he was like "no i never said that Lexis lying" so w/e. Then in 5th period he didnt say shit to me at all..not even hi. Then on the way to 6th, I was walkin down the hall and Javon goes :HILLARY!: and i turned around and he was standing with Ryan, he pointed at Ryan (ryan was smiling and shaking his head no) and he started doing a jack off motion. I just gave them a mean look and walked away. WTF#5!! Im not a fucking slut shit. Ryan came into 6th, and didnt say shit to me then either. I think he was looking at me for a while but Im not sure cuz I didnt look at him I was too pissed off. I came home from school..and slept for a couple hours. I might be kickin it with Chantel tonight..or Eileen or something..I need to do something fun before I fucking go crazy cuz today....SUCKS
Hillary

today was good !!!! ..mostly..got up, went to school, Kristin was wearing a HELLA cute skirt oh man I was jealous! In first period we presented some stupid posters, bryn and michaela were in my group and it was ...fun? Math...wow...ms lewis sang a song and danced in front of the class and tried to get us to sing along. wtf. science I pushed Jon because he stole and lost my damn expensive pens that fucker, and then he pushed me back and I got launched into a bookshelf pretty much. that hurt a lot.. weight training was ..cool..and then LA and SS were fun, I sat next to max and bryan and ryan in 5th. fun times..I need to get my grade up in there hella bad, Ryan is only 4 percent lower than me in the class...and he has a D. shit. Lexi ditched me after school and that was pretty fucked up..but w/e. I went and worked out and then came home. I just had the most retarded convo ever recorded in history with Eileen...here it is:

H: i am gettin jamba juice tomarrow for shizzle nizzle
E: for shizzle nizzle dizzle?
H: frizzle
H: pop
E: frizzle pop eh?
H: yes, snap crackle pop and watch out because my bacons smelly fine and newlyweds are gona whoop some ass tonight
E: well then i cant top that
H: lol I know theres no topping jessica simpson
E: nick is ON TOP of jessica simpson;-)
E: haha im hilarious
H: actually..your right damn u
E: hah!
H: well I know how to top that all
E: i am alwayz rite, how?
H: me.
E: haha
H: just kdding lol hang on I have a theory
E: u on top of both of them?!
H: (edit)...kissing me.... (edit)falling in love with me...(edit) fucking me with his (edit) inch cock...me gettting extremely thin !pronto!...us going on the cruise and meeting dudes and being pimpstresses like none before...me getting shitfaced sometime soon..and making out with (edit) or (edit) OR (edit).....getting extra crispy style tan, swimming with sea turtles and working out in a fucking nice ass gym for 11 days. HOW DO YOU TOP THAT SERIOUSLY..oh ya...and some bomb ass food! and bomb ASS GUYS!
E: geez
H: really I hope to death that ur mom doesnt like read this convo some how
E: well we got like half of that haha
H: you would never get to kick it with me
H: yeah I KNOW!
H: lets see what I get
E: WE ARE SWIMMING WIT SEA TRUTLES? when was i told this?
H: (edit)...kissing me .(edit) fucking me with his (edit) inch cock (if I want..he said Im bomb and asked if Id like to fuck him! :D) us going on the cruise and meeting dudes (that better happen) making out with (edit)(been there done that..wana do it again for sure diddy) getting extra crispy style tan, swimming with sea turtles and working out in a fucking nice ass gym for 11 days. bomb ass food! and bomb ASS GUYS!
H: its a shore excursion I TOLD YOU WOMAN lol like 4 times
H: damn we actually get most of that list of things, we are lucky bitches
E: SHORT TERM MEMORY LOSS
H: yeah lol seriously
E: that is soo cool do i get to touch them?
H: u should see 50 first dates
H: do you get to touch my (edit) or (edit) or (edit)? HELL NO
E: hahah
H: haha just kidding yeah u geta touch em..they will be swimming right next to u
E: wait have u seen it???and the turtles
E: OMG CAN I RIDE ONE?
H: prolly
E: REALLY!?!??! HAHAH THAT IS SOO COOL...wut if they bite me?>
H: yeah my mom said they will teach us when we get there
E: but htey could bite me. my toes! i like all my toes!
H: then u kick it in the soft spot..DOWN TURTLE DOWN
E: with my 4 toed foot hahah!
H: no with ur other foot
E: wut if that foot is all teh way gone? up to the ankel
H: but dont say down turtle down or you will choke on water and drown then the thing will eat ur whole body and the last thing on your (eaten) mind will be ur lost toe
E: omg@ im gonna die.. if turtles do eat me...will u make up a cooler story to tell everyone?
H: my mom said that they wont let people go into a pool with snipping turtles
H: haha that IS a cool story shit
E: a turtle>???! NO
H: Id like to be eaten by humungous sea-stoner turtles (finding nemo)
E: change it to like a shark or a 80 foot octopus that reached on the boat and grabbed u and i pulled u out of the tentacles but it was mad and grabbed me
H: I love (edit) and apple pie
E: and (edit)
E: who more?
H: who more?
H:who else? or any more?
H: you cant mix them missy
E: who more? who do u like more missy
H: who more..OH..haha
E: omg allisons mom calls me sweetbaby
E: its either sweet baby, sweet pea, or honey
E: it makes me want to retch
H: lol retch
H: thats a fucked up word
E: haha yup
H: what does it mean?
E: hmm yeah
H: throw up?
E: barf hurl yak etc
H: yak is fucked up too
E: y?
H: Im on a retched yak.. because isnt that a boat too
E: im on a throwed up throw up? thats a raft
H: no Im on a fucked up boat
E: retched yak?
H: yeah
E: does not mean fucked up boat hmmm no
H: yes..
E: beached yak
H: retched means gross
E: beached raft? a gross raft?
H: is it a yak? or a yakima
E: or yak
H: I forgot the word
E: yak, yakima does not mean barf
H: its supposed to be a longer word tho I thought that was an abbreviation
E: hmmm
H: no the boat
E: no, oo the boat
H: yaks
E: its a raft
H: no there are canoes and yakisomethings
E: yaks? hmmmm maybe
H: now I have to find out what the shit are they called
E: yaks, rafts/
H: NOO
E: retched?
H: YAKS they are
E: a yak is an animal that eats bread
H: OHHHH KIYAKS
E: haah! YEAH!
H: man its obvious that Im the smart one here
E: that was possibly one of the stupidest conversations i have ever had
H: haha yeah that was confusing as hell
E: yeha but WE MADE IT THRU and now i have to go
H: alright haha
E: so have funn wit jessica simpson
H: talk to u toamrrow or later tonight u better watch newlyweds or ur a retched yak
E: haha
H: hey btw...thats a yam that is the animal
E: no yam is afood
H: yes
E: yak is an animal look it up
H: yeah from an animal
E: yam is a food
H: yak cant be THREE diff things
E: u eat it on thanksgiving
H: yeah its gross
E: yak is a barf and a buffolo animal yams are a fruit
H: and a raft they are not they are animal
E: that u put marshmallows on NO
H: candied yams I know
E: i WILLBET U 5 dollars
H: no they arent a fruit tho maybe they are a vegie
E: wel ltherye a vegetable
H: a pink veggie
E: but theya re not an animal
H: its a ram then
E: yaks are animals
H: not a yak
E: o yeah tehres a yak too
H: that must be one fucked up animal
E: y?
H: if they classified it as throw up
E: A wild, shaggy-haired ox (Bos grunniens) of the mountains of central Asia.
H: yuck it looks like throw up. whats an ox?
E: no it looks like a buffolo
H: is that a bull?
E: another buffolo thing
H: buffalo is a kinda bull tho
E: they pull oregon trails
H: no they dont ! oregon trail stays in oregon
E: OXen pull oregon trail cars
H: oh
E: on the game
H: yeah
E: yeah?
H: you buy them
E: yeah
H: and they look like buffalo?
E: and they pull ur caravan, i think so
H: they do not pull caravans
H: dodge pulls caravans
E: umm trailer?
E: hahah!
H: ?
E: well fuck they pull ur trailer? WAGON
H: oh :D ok
E: they pull ur covered wagon
H: you better go Im retarded
well Im out! TIME FOR NEWLYWEDS!! YAY!!!
Hillarizzle Giggins

saturday was such a fun day! Lauren and I went to work out, and got traumatized when a woman said something to me, and the crown flew off her tooth and into my lap. what the hell. thats so sick..but not as bad as when this woman walked in with a tightascanbe white see thru shirt on...lookin like she should be bobby nixons older dikeish sister and black nipples pokin thru. I almost cried. I went home and Rachel and Chantel came over. We hung out here and stuff then walked over to Rachels and kicked it there for a while. Then Chantel and I walked down to her house..it was so cold cuz I had a skirt on..brrr! We came back to my house and I took a shower while chantel listened to britney spears and tried to figure out the lyrics for us..lol. We went to dinner at Olive Garden and then Kris and Liz called, and we told em to meeet us in the parking lot of bartells so our moms could meet and so we could show em where I live. It was funny when they pulled up cuz we ALL got outa the cars..two black cars..two moms and 4 chicks and we all stood in a circle and talked for like 2 mins, then we all got back into the cars and drove away haha. We came to my house and hung out and watched movies and tv and had very ....intellegent...LOL...conversations..hahah wow I had so much fun! We went to bed at like 3 something and in the morning, Liz asked me if I talk in my sleep..and I said yes, and she told me she thought I did it that night cuz she heard something lol. oh well! we had a big fam breakfast at like...12 30 and then we came into my room and kris liz chantel and I drew on my windows. it was fun :D at 2 the twins left and chantel and I hung out for a bit, then she went home. I got ready and Tava, Jakobe my mom dan and I went to see 50 first dates. it was good, but unreal. we ate 2 of those HUGE things of popcorn and 4 huge pops. my lord. lol. I came home and did homework I think. then I worked out and almost killed myself with my work out ball..Its hard to explain the accident, but I ended up with my whole body in the shape of a scorpions tail balanced on my cheeck..it was damn painful..Monday Ryan looked..damn fine. holy shit I cant even explain. wow. anyways after school cait and chantel came over and we went to bartells to get makeup..and there were seriously 4 people that work there standing next to us watching us to make sure we didnt steal shit. wtf. Then we walked to caits and did 8 min buns and 8 min abs. haha it was great fun. we tried on clothes and then Eileen picked me up for Curves. we went and worked out and then I came home and did some ball exercises. holy shit that sounds so wrong. HAHA. its a big blow up work out ball..then I talked to people online and hung out with Tava and Jakobe and Dan and my mom..we had a huge chicken dinner cuz my mom bough a 25 pound bag of chicken..lol we had literally 6 diff kinds of chicken with veggie kabobs. yum! Today we had registration stuff for next year and it was confusing because of credits and crap..but I think Im going to take summer school in order to be able to take biotechnology next year. that is shit. I need a car too..and my lisence. Im out I gota plan my schedule
Giggins (my new name from Kevin that mixes Figgins and giggle)

heyyy..today (Friday) was great! I got up, went to school, and got back my spanish test. 9/16 (shitty) went to second period and we had such and easy class...but oh well..lol no complaints here. 3rd period was in the library and I actually KINDA got some work done..but the damn guy that stole my pens yesterday lost/broke/ wont give them back. Im gona cry or kill him I cant decide. at lunch, allyson was SO hyper I thought she was on crack, I really wanted to strap her down and tape her mouth shut..but I knew that wouldnt be very sweet of me..(or convenient lol) she took Herricks camera, and took 20something pics on it. and they were such stupid pics, they were of Kevins face and my face. so retarded. then she was tryin to hit on Kevin by takin his keys and tryin to touch him. that as pretty funny. It was taco salad day so Stacey and I shared one. yumm! weight training was so funny, Kristin and I were tryin to figure out these one lifts called like dumbbell press or something, haha and we ended up doing like 5 different work outs with the dumbbells, and THEN after we thought we had finally figured it out (we were layin on benches doin the lifts) Mr. P came up and was like uhh what are u doing? and we both were like oH GOD we better not be doin it wrong...we were! WAY wrong lol we were supposed to be standing up and lifting. funny stuff..then we tried to do this thing with the long stick...barbell? and every time I lifted it, my mouth twitched. it was hillaryous. Kevin and Hairy dick walked to mcdonalds while kristin and I were in weight training and got us shakes. :D that was awesome, sept I couldnt drink it all so I gave it to lexi after I had a couple sucks hehe. fifth and sixth period were in the library. fun times...then after school, I came home and Tava and Jakobe were here..so I hung out with them till 6. Tava and I went to blockbuster and got the guys some video games, and then came back and watched em play. I seriously do not understand men..how the hell can you be entertained by running around on a screen with a machine gun and shootin people? I ended up falling asleep watching..but only for like 10 mins cuz my damn cat jumped on my back and thought it was a bed..plus I did one of those little snores that wakes u up >LOL< cait and chantel came over and we sat and talked for a while. then we came in my room and listened to usher and lil jon and had a fun dancing party. LOL (caitlin straddeling me while chantel gave cait a lap dance. interesting scene.) also, chantel and I realized that we cant do the limbo and thats not cool. but I got the booty shake down so its all good :D Cait is sick, so we thought we could invent some cool remedy for her..and we tried but we all ended up with a mix of hot water, tea, sugar, honey, lemon juice, milk (and butter) haha jk bout the butter..but almost. actually Caits was hella good..but mine made me make this hella wierdo noise when I drank it..and that reminded chantel and I of a funny story so we couldnt stop laughing and I thought I was going to choke to death. we were all bent over gasping for air..wow...I really love those girls. Then we watched 101 reasons the 90s rocked. haha, caitlin tried to kick me out of my own house because I said that paris hiltons purse was ugly (it REALLY WAS!) then we talked bout guys (lol Chantel-"he was my first kiss! but hes a man whore..." Cait-"Hes a child molester!" me-"did you look at him changin thru the window with binoculars?" Cait-"I WOULD!" me-"damn...me too!....it wasnt because he had a big dick...BELEIVE ME!") took them home, and now Im off to bed..cuz tomarrows a big ass day. Im gettin up and goin to work out at curves with Lauren, then comin home and going running 2 miles in woodinville with my mom and tava, and then hangin out with chantel and cait maybe goin to bingo ! *YAY*, and then chantel and I and a bunch of fam friends are goin to olive garden for dindin! then when we get home, Kristin and Liz are gona come over and spend the night with me and Chantel. Its gona be fun! Im outthe one and only, lovely:
*HiLlErAnCe* AKA Cuntswailoe haha

today was awesome!..mostly. I wore my black corduroy(sp?) skirt with Lexis cute shirt cuz it was sunny! but then it was still hella cold outside :( I had a test in math that I did really good on I think, and then my 3rd 5th and 6th period were ALL in the library. funn....? at lunch it was just Kristin Stacey Allyson Kevin and I..that was cool tho, we were laughing a lot. I saw Russel TWICE today! lol it was cool..and I said he to him both times! amazing..wieght training was fun as always, Lex and I talked about how her mom is being a bitch lately (sorry babe) and we did this cool lower ab work out that I love a lot..even tho u gota stick ur head in between someones legs and grab their ankles..HAHA its still great fun. we got talked to by this salesman about class rings today, it was cool but I just couldnt get over the fact that the school was allowing sales men into the class....oh well. Bryan is hella funny, theres this couple in our class that are so nasty and ew (my history with the girl makes it even worse because Ive known her since 4th grade and she is soo gross and thinks shes a warewolf) and Bryan got this camera phone, so we spend the whole 5th 6th period tryin to get pics of them touchin eachother *THEY DO ALL DAY* (barf). We went to the library today, and Max took the phone and was taking hella pics of himself lol it was funny cuz he did all these pimp daddy poses and u can totally tell that HE took the pic. Then he took one of me and that was no good haha. Sixth period we went back into the lab, and Ryan sat 2 rows behind me..and so Im sittin there doin my shit on the comp (lookin up jessica simpson :D) and all the sudden somethin hits me in the head..so I turn around and nobody is lookin, but I saw ryan so Im like uhh ok..and he is tryin to look all innocent by talkin to Chris..so I just stared for a minute. Then hes like WHY ARE U STARIN AT ME (all smilin and shit) and yeah..so I turned back around and keep lookin stuff up..and another thing hits me..I turn around and Ryan is lookin at his screen like nothin happened...then he SLOWLY leans to the side and looks at me with one eye HAHA and I started bustin up...then on the third time he threw somethin, he totally missed and hit the guy sitting next to me..and the guy turned around to the person in between my row and ryans row and goes WOW YOURE COOL. and me and ryan are just pretendin we dont hear..then Peter (the guy next to me) picks up the paper and CHUCKS it in the guys face!! Ryan and I started laughing sooo hard omg. and the poor guy who got the paper thrown at him (ethan..a very confused guy to begin with) had no idea what he had done to get yelled at or hit by wadded up paper. that was the best part of my day! after school, Cait Chantel Eileen and I went to Caits and did the 8 min abs and 8 min buns work outs..wow...hard shit Im telling u! we ate broccoli with ranch dressing, and then I walked home. I watched the newlyweds that I missed last night (I fell asleep last night:'() and then Eileen came over and I did chores, and we went to work out at Curves. Breann from chelan called me to tell me that she had seen Kevin lol..that was interestin. I was talkin to this lady at curves about shopping, and she said she doesnt like shopping that much, and I said I love it, and she laughed and told me "you are beautiful, I would love to shop too if I looked like you" I was like awwww...thanks? lol it was really sweet tho! OH when we were walkin to curves, there were these HELLA bomb guys standin outside the ice arena playing hacky sack..holy shit I almost had to die of orgasmness...then Jason and Daniel were outside of Save on, so I talked to them for a while..I havent seen Jason for a while so that was cool :) This weekend is tolo. I dont think Im gonna to go..actually I know Im not. I might go out to dinner with Lex and Bryn and Daniel, but my mom says she doesnt trust me. whore. I might have Kristin and Liz and Chantel spend the night sat tho. that will be fun :D Im out
**H-i-L-L-a-r-Y**
she asked for one more dance and Im like
YEAH HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO LEAVE?!?!
we want a lady on the street, but a FREAK in the bed!! yea~

too...much....exercise....gona......die
I will jump for joy if Jessica is moving though

some people at school are fuckin retarded...seriously. Jessica is apparently talking all this shit about me. I cant beleive that she would totally disregard any friendship we may have rekindled just to fit in at school. Im so pissed theres no describing it, I dont know if I hate her, want to kill her, dont care (I care..), ...whatever...I never tried to be a bitch to her since the summer. I dont know if any of you know what happened..but after our initial 'fight' I felt really bad for sayin the shit that I did to her..and Ive tried to be really nice ever since then. to my face she is all smiles and fucking fake ass niceness..but then last weekend she called me bitching because I gave our old friend her cell phone number..and she was seriously BITCHING about it..and all the sudden there are like 13 rumors about me going at school and every single one Ive heard, the person who told me said that jess told em. people that ive never even met know all these BAD THINGS about me that arent even true
anyways, Im so sore, Ive been working out hella hard core lately! today I had weight training, then I went to curves with Eileen and worked out, then we went to kamiakin and ran a mile (non stop we are awesome!) haha when we finished these three guys were hoooting at us..pretty funny..and then we played soccer for 40 mins :) fun times..now Im about to pass the fuck out from all that stuff! but tomarrow will be worse so I gota brace myself..tomarrow I have weight training 4th period, then after school Im making up a work out for an hour with lex, then Im going home for an hour, going to curves and working out for another hour..and then going to kamiakin and running with eileen. Im going to die. not to mention that I do situps before bed!! :) time to get in shape!!! the cruise is in like 29 days!!! yay...? I went to Liz's after school today with Lex..it was pretty GOOD times!!! lol you know what I mean Lex..and Liz hehe..welll good times after we figured out what was happening and getting our almost-free starbucks!!
I think Im getting a cold :(
Im out
~*Hillary*~

today was shit. I got up, went and worked out, came home..stayed home for a long time..and then went to Lexis after being told by the twitching eyed whore 'NO DRUGS OR ALCOHOL!' thanks bitch, now die. Im too tired to write about what happened..but theres lots of fucked up stupid ass rumors about me at my school.
just in case you've heard of some of them....they arent true.
I realized today that after a relationship ends, if you look back on it and can see how it changed you in a positive way, then the person was a good influence on your life. if not..they werent. I guess its kinda obvious, but I just realized today. I looked back on the two most important relationships in my life, one with Jessica, and one with Kevin, and I saw that Jessica made no good influence on me at all. She was just there, someone to have fun with..but she didnt make a difference in my life in the long run. Kevin changed me for the better. A woman at curves today told me that I look 'great' !! it was so cool I was happy bout that...but still pissed about everything else.
Lexis favorite phrase fits the day perfectly:
Fuck the bullshit!!!this is the most depressed day Ive had since Kevin and I broke upwhat shit today was
Hill-a-fuckin-ry

Well this week is boring so far..nothing cool has happened at all. Ryan looked hellla bomb today..but thats about it. OH WAIT a lot happened last night..apparently Kode is a big...fraud. Thats about all I can say..but he has a girlfriend and he thought that that wasnt necesary for me to know when he asked me on a date..and to his tolo...big drama last night
tomarrow is block periods, friday is halfday and Im goin to the mall with Chantel and Eileen I HOPE if the mom isnt a bitch...and saturday Im kickin it with Natanya and Rachey during the day, and at night Chris and Nick wana kick it..so we will prolly go kik it at Lexis and Ill spend the night there...and Sunday night Im going to dinner with Michaelas fam for her bday that was yesterday.
oh yeah, my moms bday was yesterday. 44..whoooopie!
so if I dont write for a while, you know what better things Im doin~!

I want to go running

and Im out
HILLARY