Im sitting on the couch doing my math homework tonight, and my mom comes out and stands there staring at me for like 2 minutes. I look up at her to see what her problem is, expecting her to tell me to go and do the catbox 'RIGHT NOW', she asks if she is bothering me. I say yes and ask what she wants. She says she just wanted to tell me she loves me. I look back at my work and ask her why she wanted to tell me now. She says:"Sometimes I feel like Im too busy and I dont let you know"I say " It doesnt matter" and she walks away

If you beat your child up emotionally every day of their life for 17 years, you cant say I love you once in a blue moon and expect it to take any of the built up hatred away.

It makes me really mad that she would even say that she loves me when its such a crock of shit, and then stand there expecting me to say it back. Im not going to lie to her to make her feel better, when has she done anything like that for me? I know Celeste always says that I charted to have my mom before I was even born, but I cant imagine wanting anybody to go through the shit she has done to me, let alone myself. I cant wait until I have enough money to move out so I can get away from this crazy fucking woman I have lived with my whole life.

Hillary

Umm I dont remember what I last wrote in here. I think it was on the last day of finals..but anyways
Friday:
Rhys and I went to Seattle for lunch with her dad. It was my first time at Pike Place market, and it was a good time. I am so suprised that Ive never been there while Ive lived less than 30 minutes away my whole life. Rhys and I walked and walked and walked- like 3 hours worth. I am still sore and its Sunday lol> there are so many hills its unbeleivable! I came home and got ready, then Kevin came to pick me up for dinner. We went to The Melting Pot. :)!! yummmy! We got Cheddar and Flaming turtle fondue. it was SOOOO good!! And then after that we rented a movie and went to his place to watch it. Hmm..I still havent returned that movie.I should probably go do that tonight.. Anyways, I came home from his house at 11 30, and then went to bed
Saturday:
I worked from 5-8 ish. I think Im getting ANOTHER crush on a third person there. But its OK cuz one of my other crushes is pretty much gone :). After work, I went to Lexi's new house to spend the night. I parked my car on the hill outside her driveway, and it was SO steep. I almost started crying cuz I felt like I was in a spaceship facing the sky. I was positive that when I came back out to leave this morning my car was NOT going to be there, it would be at the bottom of the hill. Anyways, I got yelled at for New Years eve..and then had the most random night in the world. Seriously RANDOM. Lexi's parents were having a few drinks and stuff..and so Lex and I went downstairs and were just hanging out talking. Her mom comes into the room half staggering and slurring her words a bit and starts telling us why she is so pissed off. Long story, but she leaves and Lexi and I hang out down stairs again for a while and then decide we wana go hot tubbing. We go upstairs and her parents are over by the fire, her dad is leaning over her mom who is in her underwear and he is wearing green reflective sunglasses in the dark room giving her a leg massage. Me and Lexi looked at eachother like whattt the fuck..? And there was LOUD ass music playing in the background. We told them we were getting in the hot tub, then went downstairs and changed into bikinis. We got in the shower real quick to rinse off and then ran outside..OMG it was soo cold!!!! We took the cover off the hottub and jumped in. I shivered for like 4 minutes after I got in because my body couldnt understand what was happening. Hot water--cold ass air---hot water. lol We sat there for a long long time catching up and talking. We ran back inside and I braided her hair. We went upstairs for a second time to get some water and could never have imagined what we would find. The entire upstairs is pitch black besides the fire in the living room and there was deafening symphony music playing in the kitchen. We walked in and I saw the shadow of Lexis dad and brother sitting in chairs. Her dad was rocking back and forth and moving his arms like he was conducting a band. Me and Lex tried not to laugh while we got our water, and then we heard Celeste in the other room yelling something over and over again. Im just looking around trying to figure out whats going on when Celeste comes running into the room screaming "WE HATES THEM!!!! WE HATES THEM!!!! WE HATES THEM!!! in a demonic sounding voice. Apparently she was trying to be a character like yodo or something from star wars? I duno I guess I havent seen it or something but it was god damn scary! Me and Lexi ran back down stairs and shut ourselves in her room. More wierd things happened with her mom and lesbians but its such a long story..lol. I had a lot of fun even though it was kind of akward at moments.
Today:
I woke up at 10 30 when Amanda called me to tell me she had an interview at The Brown Bag Cafe today. I really cant think of why she would call me to tell me that so early, but I got off the phone and woke Lex up. We went upstairs for breakfast and I read an astrology book while I ate my orange :) and learned a lot about myself and realized that the psychic who wrote it knows a lot about me..lol. Then we went to Target and Top Foods for a while and then cleaned out Lexis car. I came home at 4 20 + Kevin came over at 5 and we went over to my new house and took "before" pictures of the whole place for future reference when we remodel. Its going to be awesome!! We got back to my house and watched TV for a while, then his mom called and said he had to go home for his dads bday dinner, so he left and now Im thinking about making myself a peach smoothie for dinner and going to bed early, unless celebrity fit club is on tonight, then Ill have to watch that. School Tomorrow :( New Classes :)!! I have B lunch now! I duno if thats good or bad, Ill find out tomorrow when I see the people who are there!

Hillary!

Wow what a long day it has been
Fucking the longest day Ive ever had. Not really..but lets see how it went

Woke up and made my bed for the first time in YEARS since the house went on the market for people to come see today.
Went to school..took my math final. peice of shit I might explain later but..I was so pissed off at Chris, he accidentally DELETED all of the notes I had in my calculator for the chapters we needed to know. I didnt realize it until the test was passed out, and when I figured it out I almost got up and started killing him right then and there. But I restrained myself and kept on going--slowly but surely failing. I turned it in and got a text from Kevin asking me what I was doing at lunch. So I met up with him and we went to his place for him to eat and me to study. His grandma kinda quizzed me on some review questions for my AP History exam.

My AP History exam should be a post all in its own. I am a goddamn retard and I dont know why I am enrolled in this class. I thought I knew the BASICS of US history. Starting with when Columbus landed on wherever he landed and when independance day was. So I surely failed the multiple choice part of the test. No fucking doubt in my mind. And then there was the essay prompt. Umm so my two choice was "why did people immigrate to america and what did they expect to find between 1607-17something and between 1820-1900? what did they actually find? be sure to spend equal amounts of time analyzing each time period" I was so happy, I thought I had that shit covered. And then I started writing. 40 minute essay period. tick tock tick tock. I look at the clock after I planned out the layout of the essay. 2o minutes left to write 2.5 pages!!!! I was like HOLY SHIT!! I looked around and everybody was at least a page into it. I start the paragraphs. I write about 2 pages, and the bell rings. Everybody gets up and leaves except me and Caitlin. Mr Bennet even left. So I ask Caitlin when independence day is and she doesnt know. I had written in my paper that it was 1712. then I changed it to 1716. Apparently its 1776 or something. SO I changed it again, and then I read over it again out loud and Caitlin gets confused about my paragraph talking about columbus settling in America. Turns out, he didnt come here in 1607 like I had written multiple times in the paper. He came in 1492. Fucking shit!! I was so mad at how bad I did, I just changed his name to say puritans, and then I turned in the unfinished paper and left.

I took Rhys Chris and Owen home and then met up with Kevin. We went to Redmond and drove around for a while, then I came home and fell asleep for 20 minutes.

I heard a bunch of men talking in the living room so I was like "OMG PEOPLE ARE HERE LOOKING AT THE HOUSE WHERE DO I HIDE?!?!" but I was still half asleep so I walked right into the living room. My hair was all swiped to one side, I had eyeliner going every whichway and drool running down my face. and im NOT exxagerating. How lucky for me..it was my hott real estate agent and Dan.

Men just dont understand that women cant be beautiful all the time. I swear to god they both stopped talking and just stood there looking at me in disbeleif. Yes, I really can look like a dead person, get over it.

So I went back into my room and laid back down until 4 30. Then I went to work. (after changing my clothes and putting my hair back up, but not touching the makeup lol.) I lost my nametag so I went in with this one that says "HILLARY" in bum style carved lettering, thanks Jesse. He took it from me and added a smiley face and stuff and then Josh came out and made me a new one with this cool machine. He put a heart before and after my name and it was so cool!! Luciano came in and was like HILLARY IS LOVE! lol and everytime i saw him for the rest of my shift he said that to me. Kind of annoying. I did so many things wrong tonight you would not beleive. It started the moment I walked in the store
the phone was ringing while I was clocking in, and there were 6 people standing at the phone station NOT DOING SHIT and not answering phones. I was like CAN SOMEBODY GET THE PHONE IM NOT ON THE CLOCK YET and they all just looked at me. I had to turn on my own fucking computer cuz nobody else would move, and then by the time it was on, the person had hung up. This guy standing next to me (none of these people work at Pizza hut besides Jesse and I) was like
"God why didnt you get the phone faster?I would have gotten it"
and I was like "excuse me? Why DIDNT you get? it you were standing RIGHT there!"
and he goes " I would have but I didnt know you wanted me to"
and I told him to get out of the way and he stormed off.
I think PMS has struck, lol. So I appologized to Jesse for yelling at his friend, and then I checked my prep. I had a 2 hour shift. and I had 55 pizzas to prep on top of answering the phones during the rush, cleaning up the store and helping with cut table. I was running around like a chicken with her head cut off. I went back into the prep station and started getting my prep ready, but the phone rang everytime that I got started, so I never got anything done. One of the times when I was in back trying to prep, the phone rang 2 times so I had to get there RIGHT away and answer it, so I went sprinting out of the back room, towards the phone- across the front desk where Beau was standing taking somebodys check, he turned to me all the sudden and we crashed together and both went backwards...Oh god so horrible, its something that only happens in cartoons. I had to wash all these dishes to get pans to put under the pizzas I was prepping, and then I had to make my managers prep for him. pretty much, I did 35/65 prep pizzas that I was supposed to do. Nobody better order stuffed crust tomorrow, there wont be any.

Good thing I love the people I work with, except I was the only girl working today so I got harrassed like none other. OMG CORY, that little fucker came in and was hanging out, then as he was leaving the phone rang, I ran to get it and while I was doing my little answering shpeal, he whipped me in the ass with his keys. It hurt soo bad and I screamed OUCHHHHH into the phone to the lady I was talking to. She was like "Im sorry??" Omg it was so embarrassing. And then I was laughing my ass of for the rest of the order. I cant really even describe the whole working experiance tonight, but I just couldnt handle it. I worked more than an hour over my scheduled time so that I could finish everything i needed to do, and I STILL barely did anything. And then, when I was trying to put my salad in the computer, I accidentally made it a real order and never signed it off as my food. So I might get in trouble for that. At 8 30, I finally got out of there and went to my car.

As I was leaving, Brandon and Aaron came running out to Steve's car with a can of cheese whiz (Aaron is OBSESSED with that shit) and were going to put it on, but then Steve came out the back door and they ran away. We fuck around so much in that place, its awesome. Anyways, I am so exhausted from EVERYTHING right now, so I am going to curl up on the couch and watch some kind of movie until I fall asleep. Have a good night :)

Hillary

FIVE MINUTES!

FIVE FREAKING MINUTES UNTIL THE SEASON PREMEIR OF NEWLYWEDS!!!!!

I CANT WAIT!!

I have been waiting for this moment for the last...7 months!

OMG Im so excited!!

I should study for my AP history final, and my Alg 2 final..but...I cant!

It's allll about watching my favorite girl!!!

EVERYBODY BETTER BE WATCHING!

I LOVE JESSICA SIMPSON AND NICK LACHEY!!!

Hillary!!!

If you could see me right now..omg! I look like I just won the freaking lottery!!!! Im smiling ear to ear, clapping my hands (in between typing) and shreaking with joy.

I PASSED MY SPANISH FINAL!

I had a D- first guarter

I had a F second quarter

equalling out to a solid F for semester

so, I made up a test that I was missing, and I got 77% on it. It brought my grade up to a D+

Then, I calculated my score for if I got a 70% on the final, and I would still have a D- but I would pass the semester. This doesnt mean that my mom wouldnt shit a brick when she saw my report card, but it would mean that I wouldnt have to retake the class next year. It also wouldnt mean that my mom wouldnt be taking my car away and cutting the hours she lets me work..

So pretty much I walked into 4th period today freaking the fuck out about this final. Pretty much I needed to get higher than 71% to get credit for this semester. Considering that I have failed every single test since the first of the school year, I didnt have much hope. Reality really set in when I took almost the full 2 hours to finish a 70 question final, and the girl sitting next to me fell asleep and when she woke up, I was at the same place she was (question 45, after an HOUR!). So I rushed through the last 25 questions and stood up to turn in the test. I felt a thousand eyes boring through me, so I looked around and EVERYBODY had already finished their tests and were waiting for me to finish so that they could talk. Blushing, I sank back into my desk and got ready for my presentation that was 30% of my grade. I got 27/30 on the presentation and left class SHAKING. I KNEW I had failed. So I came home from my SAT prep class, (where there is a HOTT ASS SMART GUY WITH A NICE CAR!) and checked my grade on the Spanish website just for the hell of it. I jumped OUT of my seat when I saw D+ and 75. I started screaming and my mom and Dan were sitting on the couch watching me, Dumbfounded. So I saved my ass by spilling the beans before the report card showed up. I said

OMG I PASSED SPANISH!!! and my mom was like

"What?? Is that suprising?" and I was like

"I GOT SEVENTY FIVE ON THE FINAL! I HAVE A D+!!!!" she, unamused, said

THAT IS NOT PASSING ON MY STANDARDS!! and I go

"ITS PASSING ON THE GRADE BOOK STANDARDS!!! YAYYYYYY!" and then Dan was like

Gooood Job!! and my mom slapped him in the arm and said dont stand up for me. So I explained the horrible situation in that class (hehe) and how I am incapable of keeping up, so my mom DROPPED the subject! Literally, she doesnt even care, she just asked me what my other grades are to make sure its not like a whole report card trend or something.

I passed Spanish, I still have my car, I still have my job, and most importantly I still have my head!! Omg what an amazing night!

HILLARY!

This is going to be the most concieted thing you will ever see me write in here

I am too busy helping myself at this point in my life to try and help you with your problems or waste my time trying to fix how you feel about me. I come first right now, and no matter how you try, you will not come in the way of that.

Im finally pulling the peices of my life together and seeing potential that I didnt see before. Is it just coincedentally happening at the time when you are not a part of my world? Maybe not.

Okay, what brought this on is that Im realizing how much good Im doing for myself lately. I am working on all the things I was stressed out about; I started working out every day again, I am making sure I drink enough water and eat right, I got myself the vitamims Ive been missing out on, Im working my ass off in school and Im starting my SAT prep class tonight. Plus I have a job, we are moving into our new house soon, and I started hanging out with more people that I hadnt talked to in a long time.

My goals for the rest of the year:
Save up enough money to go see Herrick over the summer with Kevin and Ameer
Get more in shape and back into soccer 9-20-300
Meet new people around my new house
Get a 3.5
Pass the SATs with higher than 1200
Tolo
possssibly get a boyfriend, but thats not a big priority


have a good one-
YHillary

Okay, so today was FREAKING AMAZING!

Lets see I guess Ill fill you in on the Kevin situation. Member how I said that he wanted to see me and it sounded kind of fishy? I know that boy too well, I can tell something is up even through a 2 word text message. lol anyways so he called me at 5 30 and said "are you home?" and I said "yeah?" and he goes "okay go to your door" Usually when he says that, he has something for me. So I walked outside and he was coming up the stairs with a Pizza box. Lol he had brought me a godfathers dessert pizza to say sorry for us not going to the movie on Saturday. He gave it to me and gave me a hug and said "sorry about last night".

Anyways! TODAY! I got up and gave my cats a bowl of water..(my mom has taken that away from them because she says it will spill and look bad to people looking at the house..so the cats are apparently going to be dehydrated unless I sneak them some water from time to time) Then I left for school. Eh..it was boring but I got to study in ALL of my classes except Spanish, but thats okay cuz I took the test that I missed last week. GUESS WHAT?!!
77% baby! that is awesome for me! So it brought my grade up from an F to a D+!! IM PASSING! It all depends on the final tomorrow. Ohhhh shit! lol
After school I went in to work. PAY DAY! I got $141.79!!!!!! I went to the bank and put 71.79 in and then went SHOPPING! lol not really shopping but to safeway. I bought multi-vitamins cuz I think Im missing out on a lot of nutrients and stuff from not eating meat. Also, I bough some Brunette shampoo. THE EXPENSIVE KIND! lol it was a TOTAL splurge moment, you have no idea. I havent EVER spent 7$ on a bottle of shampoo. :) then I went to the salad isle and got myself a bag of croutons and some spring mix lettuce and a bag of some other kind that starts with a 'p'. like protozoa, but more lettuce-name-like. I think portabella? but thats a mushroom.. Anyways nobody cares what kind of lettuce I bought. So I went to bartells cuz they were having a sale on vitamins, and I bought some B6 complex. I spent $35 just at Safeway and bartells, haha.

I came home and had myself a salad. Then I left again to shop more. I went to totem lake and got THE CUTEST SHIRT AT ROSS. Im wearing it on Friday when I go out to dinner with Kevin. Its going to be the shit. Then I went to Freddies and got some freaking liquid eyeliner cuz its been LITERALLY 8 months since Ive had any to wear. Okay more like 2. But it was 5 dollars! peice of shit prestige! Also, I got another shirt cuz it was just too fucking cute to walk away from. But I thought it was 5 dollars, it was on the 5 dollar sale rack and then when I left I started wondering how 5+5 = 17 ....the shirt was ACTUALLY 10 dollars plus tax. Those tricky ass sales racks..

Now Im finally home and broke off my ass, but Im in my work out clothes and RARING to go!! Today has got to be one of the best days Ive had in a LONNNNG time! Maybe Im just high off of vitamins lol..but I dont care its going to be an everyday thing if thats true and thats awesome.

Hope everyone had a good day and GOOD LUCK ON FINALS TOMORROW!

YHillary

Last night I worked out for an hour and a half. Oh my god. It felt so good! Then I took my physical assesment thing and I've made progress :)! Then I took a shower and got ready, and went over to Rhys's house. We painted pictures and ordered pizza, then we watched the Smurfs and the Jetsons on OnDemand !! It was so fun.

" Papa Smurf was ABSOSMURFLY right!!" haha

At 11:15 ish I came home and then went to bed at 1:30.

I woke up at 9 this morning, and got put right to work. I loaded up the pickup with our stuff for storage and then washed all the windows in the house. I took boxes of shit to the goodwill drop thing, and then went to work to pick up my schedule. :( I had to give Jesse my Tuesday shift cuz I have SAT prep class that night. So I have a total of 5 hours this week unless someone gives me theirs.

Kevin texted me and asked if I was going to be home all day. I said yes, and he asked if he can come see me at 5 tonight. I said yes again, and asked if there is a reason or just to hang out? He said he just wants to see me ...I dont know it sounds kinda fishy to me. But whatever

I am sitting at my computer doing all these spanish chapter vocabulary lists and Im about to go insane. I have 6 chapters worth of words to memorize plus the congegations and tenses, and a presentation. Thats just for Tuesday's final. Then for Wednesday OH MY GOD Im not even going to think about it. Finals week sucks!!!

Well, Dan just got back from taking the pickup to storage, so now I have to load it up again. Our house goes on the market in the morning..so it has to look good so that Dustin (real estate agent) can take pictures and put it online. Ill leave a link once it gets around!

Hillary

I need to get my priorities in line, from school to friends and working out. Everything is a big jumble right now and until it gets straightened out, I am not going to be successful in anything that I do. My grades are in the shits, my good friends are the ones who should be aquaintences and the people I put off spending time with are the ones I should really get to know. I dont work out enough anymore and Im about to go crazy.

So..in an effort to get started on this whole problem, Im spending the night working out and studying for finals week. That is, unless Cassie is at the ice arena tonight like planned, cuz then Im working out and maybe going to Bellevue for the night. Either way, Im getting on the right track for at least 2 of my priorities.

The latest proof of my moms insanity:
We are getting rid of our microwave- (goodwill) - because it takes up too much room on the countertop. So for the next MONTH we have to cook everything in the oven or on the stove.
She packed up and sent to storage every single spice we have in the house including olive/vegetable oil, so that we dont have to pack it later on like logical people would do.
She is still mad at me for having a workout ball in the house. It is so inconsiderate of me to want to work out!!
I cant even have a laundry hamper in my room. From now on, I have to keep my dirty clothes and shoes in a dresser drawer.
She put our shampoo in a soap dispenser under the sink so that people wont dare think that we take showers, that would be horrendous
She got rid of all but 2 garbage cans in the house. One under the sink in the kitchen, and one under the sink in the bathroom.
My PILLOWS got packed and sent to storage today..because why would anybody want to see PILLOWS on a bed when they are looking to buy a house?
After all of that, she put up a fight about sending her fucking crock pot to storage. Nobody eats the shit she makes in that thing..not even her. So why the hell do we need it?


-Hillary

Just a quick comment about today
Its a pretty gloomy one, I guess what they say is true
When it rains..it pours

-Lexi's cat died :'( poor JackJack, he cant marry Jill now
-Caitlin texted me something she meant to send to Eileen
'Dont invite Hill' (off campus at rebtime)
-Eileen. She calls me her best friend one day and then the next, be immature enough to establish sides in the situation. I-M-M-A-T-U-R-E thats right Eileen...pull ur jaw off the floor and get over it.
-I saw a rat get murdered during/after Rebtime. A crow came and swooped it up and then it was laying on the cement under a tree and the janitor came up and smashed it with a hammer
-One of the guys I like is shipping off for the ARMY, not in a month, not in 2 weeks...in two DAYS. :'(
-Cory took my shift for tomorrow night



Well Im off to work..the fun part of today :)
-Hillary

Rebuilding a house is stressful! Im not even barely involved with it..but so far the modifications that we are going to have made on our new house are:

• new hard wood flooring throughout the entire main floor and on the stairs
• new carpeting on the upstairs and downstairs floors
• new front door
• new bedroom doors
• mirrored closet doors in my bedroom
• PAINTING MY ROOM PINK!!
• painting the ENTIRE inside of the house and re-wallpapering
• designing and building a master bedroom with a walk-in (like a hallway) shower
• new fridge, stove, counters (blue marble), cabinets, bar and patio, washer and dryer
• new lighting throughout the house
• breaking out a wall downstairs and combining two family rooms together
• building a shop in part of the yard
• rebuilding the fireplace

jesus I dont even know what else.
tooo much stuff!!

So yesterday I went to school, then afterwards I went into work to get my schedule. YESS! I snagged myself some more hours! I work tomorrow for 3-4 hours, friday for 3-4 hours and Saturday for 3-4 hours! Then I met up with Kevin at my house and we went down to kirkland and got some bubble tea. It was NOT the best stuff Ive ever had. Big black tapioca balls in a passion fruit smoothie. ick. We came back to my place and hung out for a while so I could do my chores. Then we went to QFC for me to get a veggie sandwich and he went to Wednys to get himself food. At 8, we went to Eileen's house to watch American Idol with her ,her mom and brother. Funnnny shit!! lol

Today I went to school, and now Im home watching monster trucks with Dan. I have SO MUCH studying to do tonight. And then at 6 kevin is coming over to watch American Idol and at 10, Im WORKING OUT. omg Im not feeling to great lately about my work out schedule. :(

Hillary

Something is wrong with me. Im sure of it! Lets see Im going to try and make this post as short as possible so I can get my butt to bed..
Saturday- ...I have no recollection of that day except I know I worked out with my xbox trainer sim and she scolded me for missing my work out on Thursday..that was sad/funny.
Sunday- I woke up and helped my family pack shit up for moving, Shalia and Justin came over and we all hung out for a while, then I went to Kevin's house. We played dominos and I whooped his ass, then we left to Redmond to see White Noise. That was a scary ass movie Ill tell you. I did all of the notoriously obnoxious things people do in scary movies; scream and jump out of my seat, grab Kevins arm and hide my face, bitch at the main character for doing stupid things. I seriously couldnt help myself. After the movie, we went to TacoTime and had dinner. A very late dinner..10PM ish. I came home afterwards and went to BED!
Monday- Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day! I got up and cleaned the house, then went over to Caitlin's to work on homework. We studied for..ohhh..maybe 15 minutes and then said fuck it and went down to the kitchen. I made myself a BOMB salad (I dont care what you say Caitlin it was GOOD!) with spinach, gorgolini (sp?) cheese, ceasar dressing and croutons. Good shit! Then Cait and I watched "Who's Line Is It Anyways?". What a freaking funny show !! Kevin called me and asked if I wanted to go to the mall with him, so I said sure and he came to get me. We went to Alderwood and he got a hat, then we met up with his pops and had lunch at RedRobin. Salmon and Chips..yummy!! His dad footed the bill :) and we went over to Caits so I could pick up my car. We went back to Kevins and hung out for a bit, but his ENTIRE family (including grandparents, 2 sisters, mom, aunt and cousin....) was home so we decided my place would be better for watching a movie. We brought "yours, mine and ours" over to my place and watched it. It was a good movie!
We broke our month long 'being good' streak...which turned into some kind of argument. Which everything always does between us so I guess its nothing odd really. Anyways, he left around 10, and I worked out from 10 till now. My trainer was a BITCH today. She gave me 2 breaks in the whole 40 minutes, and it was a cardio workout!! God Damn..that, lunges+squats= dead Hillary tomorrow..

Well Im off to bed, I have math and Spanish tests tomorrow that I am not prepared for one bit. How exciting right? I just LOVE school!
Oh and another AWESOME thing I found out today- everyone is going to be out of town on midwinter break. Eileen is going somewhere, Caitlin is going to Florida, and Kevin+Ameer are going to Whistler. Oh well, at least I will be busy moving into the new house that week. But still..

K goodnight!
Hillary

time for me to rant!!

So, something that always bothers me on weekends or days that I have free is managing my time. I like hanging out with certain people a lot, I LOVE it. But then, there are people that I just DO NOT want to spend a lot of time with. It is nice knowing them and all, but I would rather keep things on a more aquaintence like level than anything else. I mean, I like the people but I only choose to hang out with a few people outside of group settings, and there is a reason.
If you are wondering if Im talking about you, here are some thigns that I hate to do when Im hanging out with somebody:

A) Listen to them whine (especially about guy problems), and know that the only reason I am there is so that they can whine to me.
B) Do absolutely nothing and sit around asking eachother what we want to do.
C) Hang out with one person who spends the whole time brainstorming what other people they can call to hang out with
D) SELF CENTERED PEOPLE WHO ONLY TALK ABOUT THEMSELVES
E) Be put in akward situations with people I dont like or know
F) when they coax or coerce me to do something they KNOW that I dont want to do. (and then putting me on a guilt trip when I turn down their offer to hang out the next time..HMM, I FUCKING WONDER WHY I DONT ANSWER MY PHONE WHEN YOU CALL? MAYBE I DONT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH YOU???)

If you do those things, then Im talking about you.

I sound like a cruel bitch, I know..and I know that posting this isnt going to change anything about it, but I am really peeved and needed to write it down. I do also realize that there are people out there that probably dont like hanging out with me, but that is their choice, and I try not to bother them with my presence too often.

If I make petty excuses about how I cant hang out with you, its not because I CANT, its that I DONT WANT TO and Im too nice/shy to say it so bluntly. Take a hint and leave me alone about it! And (unless you are Cassie, who I ALWAYS want to hang out with but seriously dont have time to very often) if I put off hanging out with you for more than a month, ..... Come on now!

On a happier note, I had my first work meeting this morning! What fun that was, Billy (my 2nd manager) played a trick on me and told me I had to dress in uniform for the meeting. I showed up and everyone was in pajamas and sweats, and they all laughed at me. haha, there was free pizza (that I didnt eat, it was 9 15 AM!). It lasted for an hour and a half, and we got paid to sit at a table, eat, talk, laugh and have fun. What an easy day at work. But I think Im covering someones shift tonight from 5-8, so I will be working with Allison and I will kind of make up for the fact that I only have 6 hours next week. I cant wait for my first pay check!!

Hillary

I couldnt decide if I wanted to post about today or not, and then Drew said the one thing that pisses me off beyond belief.
"dont worry about it"
You know what; fucking shit! My sister and him both say stupid things like that (Shalia says "calm down") when I say something that Im OBVIOUSLY not WORRIED or EXCITED about. Its the most retarded thing to say. What is a person supposed to respond with in that situation? Cuz really, all I can think of is silence or "FUCK YOU!"

Anyways..Today:

Woke up at 7:40, realized 'Hey, Im going to be late for school'
Didnt rush at all getting ready, and got to school around 8 40. We went to the Martin Luther King assembly, and then had 3rd period. My team in math won in Referee Review. We are the shit lol.

After school, Guy Derrick Eileen and I went to Drews house. We made pasta and played pictionary. Wow, it was fun! Ive never played pictionary before today..Im kind of sad to say. So after hanging out with them for a few hours, I left to go home. Hmm....BAD IDEA not to follow Derrick. I ended up in downtown bothell and taking the freeway to get home from FINN HILL. I am a retard with my car sometimes. Remember I just said that. Anyways, I found my way back to Kingsgate after taking the freeway and getting off in woodinville; passing my house in the process. I went over to Caitlin's house and we made a salad. Then..(here is where my retardedness comes back into play) we headed back to my place. We decided that I should just park behind the ice arena since it would be more conveniant for leaving again quickly. Well, we get behind the ice arena and there was this IRRESISTABLE mountain of snow. Id never been in a car behind the ice arena and there were some tire tracks in the snow already. So..dumbass me,
I floor it and try to drive over the hill. .. ...... .. . HA!
Not happening in my low rider ghetto car. It screeches to a halt RIGHT at the middle of my car. Caitlin looks at me with crazy eyes and is like, "Oh my god. what the hell were you thinking Hillary?!" And then we both just laughed for 5 minutes. Then I realized that I wasnt going to be able to PUSH my car off of that hill, so Cait and I spend about 20 minutes trying to back it up or drive it off..didnt work. Dan came out of the house to do something, and was just across the fence and we could see him clearly, which meant he could see us clearly. Cait and I thought we were being smart by squeeling and running away from the car, then about 10 steps into running we both realize that he will still see my car perched on top of the pile of snow. Caitlin kept running and I went back to my car. I called Kevin, and asked him to come help me. Then Jason called cuz I was supposed to be hanging out with him by that time. He walked to the ice arena from his house and laughed at me. Kevin showed up and didnt do anything more than what Cait and I had done..so he was useless, I felt kind of bad for calling him. I ended up having to call a tow truck. Thank god for AAA!!! Caitlin came back from waiting inside the ice arena for Dan to go away and while we waited for the truck to show up, Cait and I went to 7-11 and got ourselves some coffee. It was the grossest shit in the world, so we just used the cups as hand warmers because it was BELOW freezing outside. The tow truck came after about an hour, and it unstuck my car.I drove it out of the ice arena and into my parking space. a distance of LITERALLY 20 yards. Jason and Cait came over for a while, then they both had to go home.

Guy called and asked if I wanted to go to a movie with him and Josh, so I got ready did chores and went over to Guys. We drove down to Bellevue Gallaria and saw Oceans 12. It was the second time I saw it, and it was SO much better this time cuz I actually understood it! When the movie was over, we went back to Guys, and Josh went home. Guy and I went to Albertsons to get cherry pie filling, and we made stuffed pancakes. Yumm..actually not really, but it was fun making them lol. Eileen and Rita came over, and then I came home.
I have a meeting at work tomorrow at 9 15. Whoo hoo..just kidding. Thats sooo early to be in uniform at work on a Saturday morning. But guess what?! I GET TO SEE BOTH OF MY CRUSHES FOR TWO HOURS STRAIGHT!

Goodnight!
Hillary.

I have 2 of those crushes where you almost become stupid enough to let yourself believe that you are in love.

TWO of them, at once! I work with both the guys..and they are both like 19 or 20. It makes working so awesome! sept, I only work with them for a couple hours each shift. But, one of them told me today that he thought I was less than a year younger than him..so that is good.. he doesnt look at me as a baby
How do people get married? I dont understand how you stop yourself from getting crushes after you are 'hitched'..
Anyways, today was great at work. Besides the fact that I had to prep 100+ pizzas, I got to talk to my both of my crushes A LOT.
MMMM and I had salad bar for dinner. Yummy stuff I tell you! You should come in and try it some time! we have Ceasar salad or you can get regular stuff and make your own and get sides of fruits and pasta salad. Plus there is a lunch buffet with pizzas, breadsticks and catalini (omg thats the BEST shit EVER I tried it today. WOW!!)

Ok well Im out cuz Im tired.. and yes, Im going to bed at 9 30!

Hillary

In comparison with my life lately, today was a vacation! And lucky for me, most of the rest of the week is going to be the same way. Today I went to school, then afterwards Kevin, Adam and I went to Alderwood mall. Kevin got some shirts and we walked around a bit, then Eileen called and said we should go into coldstone. So we went there and had ice cream..then we left to come home. The whole way, I was making all these awesome faces at Adam and Kevin,it was great. I cant do the fish face tho, its kinda wierd.my lips wont stay in my cheeks. But I have a cool frog face thats better anyways lol. I love when Im with people that I can just be myself around and not give a fuck what they think..actually more than I love it, I miss having it with all of my friends.
I got home from hanging out with them, cleaned the house and did laundry.. then left to Starbucks for tutoring. Want to know a way to make yourself feel like a complete and utter dumbass..? get a genious to tutor you. Its HORRIBLE
And the rest of the week looks like:
Thurs:
-only 4 classes
-2.5 hour lunch at olive garden with the peeps (no food for me..no $)
-work from 4-8:30
Friday:
-only TWO classes
-going out to high class 7-11 coffee during the martin Luther King assembly
-starting my 2 week membership at 24hour with Cait
Saturday:
-Employee meeting at work..free pizza and coffee cake !!


Hillary

Pretty much all I have to say about today is:

I love work. Today we did a lot of fun things..
-Prank calling (except it was to me so that wasnt SO fun)
-I turned around while taking an order to find myself being air-molested by 2 co-workers
-Hide and go seek
-paper towel throwing fights and a water fight
-getting lost in the walk in fridge/freezer
-NOT going outside to the dumpster after dark
-messing up orders so badly that we had to call people back more than once to confirm what they wanted, and then realizing an HOUR later that the order wasnt even in our delivery range
-broke blocks of frozen dough over peoples heads
-You know what Aaron..work pants actually CAN be interesting..especially ones with bows on them!

Tomorrow is going to be a long day
School
Im going to alderwood and bellevue square with Kevin right after school
After that Im going to Starbucks to get tutored
After that IM WORKING OUT!!
then I get to go to sleep, finally!!!!

speaking of sleep.........


Hillary

I worked today! Wait..let me start over with my day

Woke up, and watched TV from 6:30 till 7 trying to find a news program that would tell me that I had a snow day. No such freaking luck. So I got my shit together for work, got dressed and stuff, then went to the gas station on my way to school. Got to school, went to first period and realized I had forgotten my health book. So..I didnt do any health that period. Third period I had a math quiz. Oh. My. God. I failed that thing like none other. I dont think I have EVER done so bad on a test besides in Spanish..which is just a given that Im going to fail. I left 4/6 of the answers COMPLETELY blank besides my work..because I didnt know what to do. I need Drew to help me so bad. I seriously wanted to stab myself for not studying for the peice of shit quiz. At the end of third period, I realized that I had left my work clothes at home..so I had to come home at lunch and pick them up.
Eileen came with me, and while we were walking to her car, I was bitching about the quiz. She slid across the icy sidewalk like a foot and we started laughing, and then I said that if I slid across the ice it would be one of those things that pushed me over the edge into going crazy and I would cry. Then, RIGHT THEN, this little boy stepped up on the side walk and slipped and almost fell. It wasnt that he had fallen that was funny, it was the conversation Eileen and I were having-mixed with my extreme emotions, that made me laugh at the boy. I laughed, and laughed, and laughed until we got to the car and even a bit while we were driving. Eileen was laughing too tho so i didnt feel THAT bad, hopefully that poor boy understood it wasnt really HIM that we were cracking up at.
When we got back to school, lunch was like 5 minutes from over, so I got my Spanish book back from Eileen and went to class. I took my history test in 6th period. Oh wow, more than half of the class skipped on Friday, so everybody was in a room taking it, but for some odd reason there wasnt room for me, so I was the ONLY person who didnt get to sit in the big room with everybody and cheat. I sat in a cold room all by my lonesome, but lucky for me, there was a big window into the other room. So Caitlin and I did sign language and helped eachother with the questions lol. I left school, and went to work. I changed, and got my new hat, nametag and shirt..(oh my god how embarrassing) and then I worked from 3-7:30. There are a couple interesting guys at my work..it is awesome because I am pretty much the only girl working there besides Allison, and I dont ever work with her. Not to mention that the guys are funny as hell so I dont even realize that Ive been on my feet for hours. I answered phones for the first time, and it wasnt as bad as I had expected it to be. I think Im reallllly going to like working there once I get a hang of things.

Tomorrow I work again from 4-8 and then Wednesday Im goin to the mall with Kevin, and Drew is going to tutor me at night..sweeet.


Hillary

I stayed in Bellevue last night!!!
In the morning, I went over to Caitlin's to study for our history test, and we read and read and read and READ AND READ AND READ. You have no idea! We read from when I got there at like 11 until 4:45. The only time we stopped was for 30 minutes to eat a salad. It was the most boring thing I have ever done. At 5, we left for Coldstone to see Eileen. After a while there we went back to Caits, and I came home to get ready to go to Cassie's. I left for Cassie's at 8:15, and when I got there she was in the living room with her mom and three guys..Lane, Matt and Winston. I talked to her parents and her friends and stuff, and then Matt said he wanted to go somewhere and burn Christmas trees. lol, so we got in a jeep and this big blue rapist van and picked up a bunch of xmas trees from the dumpster, then headed out to Lake Sammamish. On the way, we met up with some other people, Will, Riley and I forgot the girls name, I wana say Chastity or something but I know thats sooo wrong lol.

Anyways, we got to the lake, and everybody carried Christmas trees down this really steep trail to the water (everybody besides Cassie and I..we were holding hands and trying not to die on the way down). Walking down was so slippery and scary. There were sticker bushes all over, and Cassie kept getting them caught on her pants and she would kick them off and theyd fly back and hit my legs at full speed. Ouch! At the very bottom of the trail, I was taking like my 2nd to last step, and I dropped about a foot off of some ledge. It was kinda like when you are going down a flight of stairs and you dont think there is going to be another one, so you level out your weight, but then you drop down one more stair.. hopefully other people do that like I do..Anyways, we got to the water and Matt ( a soon to be firefighter ) started pouring gasoline all over the trees. We all were standing around and watching, and he lit the gas. It was not just some little christmas tree fire like we had expected. The flames shot up into the sky and out towards us all. Cassie, the other girl and I all screamed and started running towards the trail, feeling the heat of the fire burning our backs. We turned around after we heard the guys start laughing, and it was as tall as a house. Not even exaggerating! Slowly, it got smaller and smaller, and Matt started playing around with the gas and pouring it around. After the trees stopped burning, Matt, Winston, Cassie and I left in the rapist van to get more wood. I actually like that van, its pretty comfortable to ride in..plus it has WOODEN CUP HOLDERS!! So we went down by Marymoor park and picked up some more wood, then went to the gas station and got another gallon full of gas. On the way back to the lake, we heard the funniest song that says "we have big balls!!", so Cassie and I were laughing hystarically in the back seat. We got back to the trail, and Matt thought he would just drive the humongoid van down this little ass road. Cassie and I were sitting in back squealing and freaking out cuz we thought we were going to crash into the cement pillars on the sides..so he said nevermind and we parked the rapist van facing the wrong direction on the side of the road. We probably looked just a little bit more than suspicious..and then to make it worse, we opened up the back doors and the guys started throwing big shadowy objects into the ditch beside the road while Cassie and I watched for people driving by and half-closed the doors each time a car came. we went down to the lake and got people to go up and bring down wood, and then started another fire. Matt thought it would be cool to light the grass on fire, so he made a line on the grass that eventually led him to the water..which led to him lighting the top of the lake on fire. That was pretty awesome actually. We stood around the fire talking and laughing, and then when it started dying down again, Matt started with the gasoline. This time he stuck the nozzle of the gas bucket realllly close to the flame, and it caught on fire.
You would think that a firefighter would know that wasnt a good plan..but then again you would also think that a firefighter wouldnt take so much pleasure in the starting of fires..
so with the nozzle on fire, he started swinging the canister side to side trying to get the flame to go out, causing flaming balls of gas to fly in every direction, but mainly across the fire and towards everybody watching.. lol. He ended up throwing the entire thing of gas in the fire. Around 12:45 we all left the lake and went home. Cassie and I talked for a while, and then fell asleep on her living room floor. I had so much fun last night!

I got up at 8:30 cuz Rhys was calling to tell me that it had snowed and ask me to come play in it with her. I hung up and started falling back asleep, when my phone rang again. Eileen was calling to tell me it had snowed. haha. I went back to sleep and then got up at 9:40 to go home. I said bye to Cassie and we talked about hanging out again next weekend. Hopefully we do, cuz usually we hang out once and then its another 7 months before we do it again. Im gona try hard to hang out with her tho..so maybe that will be my late new years resolution lol.
I came back to Kirkland, and skidded up the hill to Eileens house. I was moving at like 3mph, but my wheels were spinning so fast that my speedometer was reading 50mph. It was kinda scary. I went into her house and we hung out for like 10 minutes before she found out that she had to go into work. So we had a train of cars going to Coldstone cuz her parents wanted to make sure we got there safely. Apparently they got lost on the way, so Eileen and I got to Coldstone and started opening the store. I hung out with her for a few hours, and she didnt have ANY costumers the entire time I was there. I came home and slept for a couple hours, and now Eileen is here so I gota go work on Chemistry with her. Woo-hoo exciting! lol jk..

Hillary

Today was a pretty okay day. Wait, no it wasnt..it was more bittersweet

Woke up to my mom standing in the middle of my room telling me about the fridge she wants to buy for the house. I told her to leave me the fuck alone and not talk to me while Im sleeping..and then her cell phone rang. She answered and it was Shalia. Somebody had smashed in her car window last night, and she couldnt drive to school cuz of it. My sister was crying and freaking out, so my mom and Dan decided to go and tape up her window for her while she went to school. I got up and was brushing my teeth when my mom came running back up the stairs and pounded on the door. I opened it and she was like
"Who are your fucking friends who did this? They broke my window too!"
So apparently we got targeted for some reason, considering they came INTO the condo complex and back into our car port and to my moms car..and to my sisters house in a different neighborhood. Wierd.
I went to school and during sixth period (that I didnt go to) my mom called and told me that

we got the house!!

We can move in on February 4th!

I came home from school and then Kevin and I went to my new house to look at it. Then we went to his place and watched TV and ate, then to my house. We watched Meet The Parents and NEWLYWEDS :) and then had a big long talk about what happened over break with the Herrick situation. We got some of the stuff figured out and so I dont really hate him anymore, but I still am pissed at him for not letting me hang out with Herrick a lot without there being tension. In the middle of our conversation, Caitlin called to ask me to come to dinner with her at the Outback. Kevin and I left and went to eat with her. Liz was working, so she got off and came and sat with us. I had a really salty ceasar salad and then we all ( minus Kevin) shared a brownie with ice cream on top. It was hella good!! Rhys called me and told me it was snowing and that I have to go and play in it with her when it gets thick enough. I love that girl! Kevin dropped me off and now Im sitting here thinking about how fucking tired I am...wow Im soo tired. I guess Im going to bed now! I have to spend tomorrow STUDYING and working out, then I think Im hanging out with Cassandra Joy at night!! I am so excited to see her! Then sunday I am starting up my 2week free membership at 24 hour fitness and Caitlin and I are taking a yoga class :) What an eventful weekend..

~Hillary*

I am not so stupid that I dont know when I'm unwanted

Keep this in mind for the future, it WILL come back to bite you in the ass

I thought I was done posting for the day..but then I had this hillaryous conversation about chemistry that actually made me understand it. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did, its between me and Drew:

g i g g i n s2: u have to dissolve the compounds?
g i g g i n s2: god damnit i feel so retarded
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: they dissolve themselves
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: that's what's happening
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: remember the word soluble
g i g g i n s2: yeah but I dont really know what that means
g i g g i n s2: does that mean that it dissolves
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: soluble=the ability to dissolve
g i g g i n s2: ok thats what I thought but these people at my table said it means they cant be solids
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: exactly
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: so ok
g i g g i n s2: oh that is true huh
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: there are the compounds floating around in the two separate aq solutions right
g i g g i n s2: the SO4 and Ca are the compounds floating around?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: no the compounds in the original solutions
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: compound is two or more ions together bound to each other
g i g g i n s2: KSO and Ca(NO3)
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeahhh
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: so you have those in the two separate solutions and you mix them together
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and the k dissolves from its compound
g i g g i n s2: and they are like OMG IM GOING TO COMBINE WITH THAT THING THATS MY OPPOSITE
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: first they're like OMG IM LEAVING THIS THING THAT IM ATTACHED TO RIGHT NOW
g i g g i n s2: so it leaves SO4
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeh
g i g g i n s2: "buh bye, I like NO3 better"
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: nooo the so4 and the k break up and the other two ions break up
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and the k is fine being single again
g i g g i n s2: yeah
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: but the so4 is looking for love
g i g g i n s2: ok
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: so it picks up the opposite charged ion from the other compound
g i g g i n s2: so Ca and SO get it on
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: exactly
g i g g i n s2: cool
g i g g i n s2: and then K becomes a nun
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: haha sure
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: or kills itself
g i g g i n s2: doesnt it dissolve into the water
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: no it just hangs out
g i g g i n s2: oh
g i g g i n s2: so then SO4 and CaNO3 is the answer tho
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: no
g i g g i n s2: wait no its not
g i g g i n s2: SORRY
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: cause so4 broke up too
g i g g i n s2: I was reading the wrong part
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and is also single
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: but not looking
g i g g i n s2: S and O are broken up?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: no so4 is broken up from ca
g i g g i n s2: oh ok....but the answer is supposed to be Ca+SO4--> CaSO4
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: oh shit
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: im sorry
g i g g i n s2: oh no lol
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: the no3)2 is the single one
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: caso4 is now an item
g i g g i n s2: dramatic elements need to make up their minds
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: haha no
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: the chemistry wasn't right
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: HAHAHAHAH

SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: assume that with the two compounds
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: they're going to break up
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and then are going to start new relationships with the other ions
g i g g i n s2: ok
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: but only one of htem is oging to work
g i g g i n s2: so then one element from each original compound will be left in the cold
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeah!
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and you use the solubility chart to fiugre out which one
g i g g i n s2: ok so I just need to become a good element love psychic
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: soluble=not a workable relationship
g i g g i n s2: cuz it dissolves out
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeah
g i g g i n s2: so the thing that is soluble, dumps the other thing?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: exactly and then the things that got dumped from each compound hook up
g i g g i n s2: aww thats the best way
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: haha it could be a movie
g i g g i n s2: I know wow its amazing

g i g g i n s2: no3 is soluble with any positive ion
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: ok then they're breaking up
g i g g i n s2: and s2 is soluble with a bunch of stuff but not anything in the equation
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: everyone's breaking up
g i g g i n s2: oh god, disaster
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: haha appparently
g i g g i n s2: so NO3 breaks up and combines with nothing?
g i g g i n s2: there is nothing??
g i g g i n s2: because other than what he is with already, there is no other positive ions
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeah remember they stay single
g i g g i n s2: all of them?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: noo
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: the no3
g i g g i n s2: ok wait
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and then
g i g g i n s2: the no3 dumps the fe
g i g g i n s2: and then the fe rebounds with s or co3
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeahh
g i g g i n s2: can they have a threesome?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: ok os the fe is oging to hook up with teh other negative
g i g g i n s2: Fe is going to get with C
g i g g i n s2: and NO3 is going to get with Na?
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: no no3 breaks up and stays single
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: and so does na
g i g g i n s2: oh yeah
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: there is only one relationship after the two break ups
g i g g i n s2: so fe and c live happily
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: what re the charges
g i g g i n s2: fe is +3 and CO3 is 2-
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: ok so you have ot balance that
g i g g i n s2: so u need 2 Fe and 3 CO3
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: its gonna be like a fivesome
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: yeahh they brought their friends
g i g g i n s2: wow thats getting kinky
SEXUAL CHOXOLATE: it sure is


It is pretty amazing isnt it? lol

**Hillary**

Wow..I've been pretty busy!! After I posted the other night, the school called right after Dan left to see the house we want, so I drove myself down there. The house is PERFECT and we put in a bid for $320,000 but somebody else put in a bid also, so we are waiting for the news about if we got it. I left the house and picked up Amanda and we went down to Coldstone to meet up with Chris and say goodbye (he left for the Navy on Tuesday). I got the bombest ice cream ever, and we all sat and talked for a while. I hadnt seen Amanda in SO long, so that was fun. I called in to Pizza Hut and got scheduled to work on Tuesday at 3:00.
Tuesday during sixth period, I left and went home to get ready for work. I went in at 3 and worked until 7:30. There were SO many people running around frantically, but my boss wasnt there to train me. And I didnt get a uniform so I just wore my own clothes the whole time. I think Im going to love working there once I get used to answering the phones and using the touchscreen computers, which are amazingly complicated and off center.
Wednesday I went to school, and during lunch Eileen and Lexi and I went to Starbucks and QFC. I got this tortellini parmesan vegetable thing from QFC that costed me $4.50 for a SMALL little tub. And it wasnt even that bomb, I ended up throwing most of it away. After school, Eileen and I went to the house my family wants, and she LOVES it because there is this cool baby house in the backyard and a meadow thing. We realized it is a perfect party house..but yeah. Then we went to her place and made brownies. At 5, we left with Dan to pick up my mom and sister from bellevue so we could head to our Smuckers Stars On Ice show. Waaa-how!! what a funnnnny night! Actually, I was kind of embarrassed for my family because we are so disfunctional, but Eileen thought it was funny. Some main things that happened:
My mom walked into a door because she thought it was a push open door, but it was pull open
My sister thought that testicles were just sacks of semen without any other thing inside of them. (interesting conversation in the car..)
I was looking through the binoculars at this one hot ice skater, and he did this wierd move where he felt himself down. It confirmed to me that he was a homosexual, so I was going to tell Eileen. " He's Gay." I said. She was like SHHH!! And my sister looked down and me and was like "OMG Hillary I bet you just boosted his confidence cuz Im sure he just heard that down there on the ice!" apparently I said it really loud. oops
Someone farted sitting in front of us and it was the worst thing ever. I smelled it first and was like "OMG :-X somebody FARTED!!" Eileen glared at me for being loud, and then it hit her and she was like "OH MY GOD!!!" Shalia looked over to see what all the fuss was about, and got a wiff of it and started hyperventilating. Eileen gave shalia a chapstick to sniff and got herself some perfume, but left me sitting there in the biggest smelly zone with nothing to save me, so I had to turn around to the row behind us and gasp for air a few times.
Then....a man came on stage in red velvet pants. Red VELVET. We made fun of it for a while..and then the show was FINALLY over. We got home at 11, and I went to bed.
Today at lunch, Eileen Lexi Kelsey CAitlin and I went to Noahs bagels. I got a tomato parmesan and pesto bagel. It was soo good! We came back on campus and went to 4th period. During 5th period, we had a curl up and read day, so I curled up on the floor and slept for like half an hour. After school Eileen and I went to Redmond Town Center to shop.
We went to victoria's secret, and I got 2 new pairs of booty shorts, then we went to the bon to look at purses. This sales guy was standing there when we walked in and I asked Eileen where the purses were. He said something that neither Eileen or I understood, so we just kinda looked at him and smiled but he said something again. We were walking away with our backs to him and I was trying to figure out what he had said. I thought he might have been talking in a nother language, but he KEPT mumbling at us and Eileen and I were cracking up cuz we couldnt understand. Then he laughed and was like "What did you guys say?"
I turned around and looked at him, and said "I was lost"
and we walked away. I think he felt bad cuz Eileen and I were laughing SO hard at him. We looked at purses and then read this RETARDED book called 14,000 things to be happy about. I think that whoever wrote it just took out a dictionary and halfway copied it, then wrote down memories they had that the words reminded them of. Here are some of the things that are in the book:
Provelone Cheese
watching the moon rise
ten
pasta sauce


Retarded! The book was so funny that Eileen and I actually thought about buying it so we could laugh at it later..but we didnt. Then we went to pac sun..and I got A PURSE! Its sooo cute! Its black with pink embroidered flowers on the bottom right side of it and pink and white pin strips all down it. We came home, and I slept for like 3 hours. I was sooo tired you have no idea. Now Drew is trying to explain my chemistry to me over the internet which isnt really working, and then I am going to read the chapters of my history book for my test tomorrow, then go back to bed and get up really early in the morning for the rest of my homework. Hopefully it will snow though and I wont have to take the test.


Hope everyone has a great night!
Hillary!

New Years Eve...
I spent the day time moving stuff around and loading up my room into the trailer. We emptied out the entire thing and I was left with an air matress, the cat food and my computer desk.
At night I went to Guy's house and hung out for a while with him, Josh, and Drew. Then I left to meet up with Eileen. That night would have been soo awesome if I didnt do a little tooo much prefunking. But as it turns out, I did a LOT too much and ended up making a COMPLETE ass out of myself. I am so embarrassed about it, but it turned out to be a good thing. Im over my crush finally. Eileen and I came home at 2AM and apparently she threw a tampon at me because I refused to talk to her. I dont remember that, but I blew up the bed and we passed out.


I woke up at 11 in the morning on New Years day cuz Eileen was calling me about getting my car from her house. She came and got me and we talked about the night before..and then we went to Guy's house. We all sat around and talked and stuff then went out to lunch. We had to wait for 15 minutes to get a table, and there was this guy standing in the lobby with some tight ass pants on. He was doing a mini jig with the music, and his pants were riding up his crack. I tried to ignore it but he kept shaking his butt at me and so I started cracking up and pointed it out to Guy and Eileen. She started laughing harder than I was cuz she had been looking at it too. Guy told us we were perverted, but I still had to take a picture with my phone cuz it was too great. Wedgies are the grossest things ever.There was this heater thing behind my chair at the restaurant that felt like it was burning a hole in my pants. It was pretty uncomfortable..and also the table tops were cushioned. What a wierd place to eat!
We left there and dropped Guy off, and then Eileen and I came to my house and helped my uncle load up his pickup with my bunkbed. Ameer and Herrick came over for an hour and we straightened Herricks hair :)!! It was so cool looking! Then Eileen left and I went to the storage unit, and loaded up the rest of my room. It took 6 HOURS to finish. OH MY GOD I was going insane!! I came home and emptied my room out MORE until there was nothing but a 3X3 pile of what I own lying in the middle of my room.
I went over to Eileens and hung out with Chris S, Guy, Herrick, Adam, Derrick (we straightened his hair too!!), Kevin, and Eileen. At 10 everybody had to leave cuz Eileen and I were going in to Cold Stone. Chris and Derrick came so they could keep me company while Eileen closed the store, and we talked about a bunch of funny stuff. Derrick is Hillaryous! I think Im spelling his name wrong tho, I think its Derek. We finished at Cold Stone and went to Starbucks. The 4 of us had to share 2 chairs since the place was so crowded, and we left there at 11 something after talking for another hour or so. I went to Shalia's house and talked to her for a while, then went back to Eileens house at 12 30AM to spend the night. We talked until 2 30 in the morning, and then we went to bed cuz I had to get up at 7 to take Herrick to the airport.


In the morning, Kevin and Herrick came and picked me up at 7 20 and we drove to SeaTac. Sad sad times. Kevin wouldnt pay for parking, so we left the car in the no parking/load zone and went up with Herrick to get his tickets and stuff. Kevin left and didnt even say bye to Hairydick, but I talked to him for like 5-10 more minutes saying bye and hugging him and stuff..and then figured Kevin would be like himself and leave me at the airport if I wasnt ready to go with him. So we left the place and got on the wrong freeway..(I admit that was my fault because I just pointed to the first freeway I saw) but I know we were going the right way..the freeway just ended all the sudden. Kevin tried to tell me he knew where he was going, so I just slept for most of the way home. After we got on and off of 2-3 more freeways..I asked him if he was lost and he said
"NO theres more than one way to get home"
.....apparently he wanted to try them ALL out in that one trip.
FINALLY I got back to Eileens house, and went to unlock my car and go home, but my lock was frozen. I sat there and wiggled it for EVER but it wouldnt unlock, so I called Eileen and went into her house. I fell asleep on her couch for 3 hours and then came home. I had to wash my moms car in the FREEZING ass cold and then Eileen and I went to Lexis for a quick 'talking to'.
Shalia and I went out to dinner at the olive garden, and had the CUTEST waiter..except when he came to take our orders, he SERIOUSLY dove for our table and sat on his knees talking to us. It was the closest talking waiter/person Ive ever met. I felt extremely invaded..and then I got over it cuz I realized he was a cutie.
I came home and Dan and I set up my new bedroom, built the bed (put the 4 peices together and laid down the matresses..very challenging) and brought in all of the dressers. It definately doesnt look like my room at all. I think we should have been on that makeover show where you go from a teenagers happily cluttered bedroom to a cold sterile old folks home cell...oh wait they dont have that show yet huh..damn. We should invent it.


I HAD TO GET UP FOR SCHOOL THIS MORNING.
How goddamned depressing that was. I was absolutely confused when I woke up and saw all white; I thought I had died. Then my cat head-butted me in the face and I realized what was going on. I stumbled around the house for a while and got ready, then went out to my car. The lock was frozen shut again so I walked around the car trying all the doors. The back door was unlocked thank god..I got to school and it was pure gayness. Caitlin and I went to Taco Time for lunch, and she spilled ice water ALL OVER herself as we were leaving.. we had to go to her place so she could change. Then we had nothing to do so we went to starbucks and the bank. Fifth and sixth periods went by and then Kelsey Cait and I went to Alderwood cuz Victoria's Secret is having their semi annual sale or whatever. I got some sparkly love spell lotion and 2 other things. Everything that I bought SHOULD have costed me a total of $44.69, but I got them for $13.50!!! SWWWWEEEEEEET! We walked around the mall for a couple more hours and had food and came home.
My mom went to a house (with our hot real estate agent) in Woodinville today. She likes it and wants to buy it. It is 3 stories and is CLOSE to here!! Im going with the hot real estate agent tonight to check it out if the school calls here about my absence in time. If not..Im going to be pissed.

Oh, one last thing, my computer is in our living room now :( so I have to be with my family all the damn time if I want to use it. I just might sacrifice the computer and spend time in my empty room alone until we move..lol or Ill just watch my Newlyweds DVD :) and get myself all updated before the new season starts on JANUARY 26th!!

Hillary*