Im sitting on the couch doing my math homework tonight, and my mom comes out and stands there staring at me for like 2 minutes. I look up at her to see what her problem is, expecting her to tell me to go and do the catbox 'RIGHT NOW', she asks if she is bothering me. I say yes and ask what she wants. She says she just wanted to tell me she loves me. I look back at my work and ask her why she wanted to tell me now. She says:"Sometimes I feel like Im too busy and I dont let you know"I say " It doesnt matter" and she walks away

If you beat your child up emotionally every day of their life for 17 years, you cant say I love you once in a blue moon and expect it to take any of the built up hatred away.

It makes me really mad that she would even say that she loves me when its such a crock of shit, and then stand there expecting me to say it back. Im not going to lie to her to make her feel better, when has she done anything like that for me? I know Celeste always says that I charted to have my mom before I was even born, but I cant imagine wanting anybody to go through the shit she has done to me, let alone myself. I cant wait until I have enough money to move out so I can get away from this crazy fucking woman I have lived with my whole life.

Hillary