Im in a friendship that I want to erase..or at least end. I feel so bad and dont know what to do, its like we have had our fun and now its time to stop being friends..we have made the differences in eachothers lives that we were going to and there is no use holding on to something SO dead. We sit in complete and utter silence, we dont laugh with eachother, we argue constantly...It just makes me feel like a bad person if I were to go up to him and say "I think there is nothing left for either of us in this friendship"..but I honestly dont think that we are compatible people. Then again, I feel shallow staying in the relationship because the only thing stopping me from breaking away is that its not conveniant at the moment. I get a free ride to and from school every day, he gave me a birthday present YESTERDAY *its really rude to accept a present from some body one day and then tell them the next that you dont want to be friends anymore..*, we share the same group of friends (kind of)...it would just cause more trouble than its worth

He doesnt treat me like a friend anymore. Its like we are obligated to talk to one another, forced to be friends, and desperately trying to go our seperate ways. On the way to school..we say nothing. On the way home, we say nothing. I am a happy person who always is laughing, but when Im with him I feel like Im always being looked at or judged as a kind of bitchy 'mom'..

:'( I wish he would do something that could make me not look like the bad guy.
I hate this friendship-I hate knowing him-Its not that I hate him tho, its just that Im ready to forget.


And if you are Eileen and thinking, its just cuz we arent together anymore...you are wrong. Think of it like this:
when you are friends with somebody and nothing more, and you have only ever been friends..you can flirt with them and laugh with them without worrying that they will start liking you or think you like them. When I am with Kevin, I cant be happy or smile without being scared one of us is going to get sucked back into liking the other. So I dont smile. He thinks the same way I assume, since the only time he smiles when Im with him is when we like eachother, and then when we are just friends, he treats me like we are enemies.

Is it wrong to stay in a friendship for matters of conveniance? cuz I feel bad doing that, but then again I feel bad ending it for no reason when neither of us did anything wrong, I dont think we were meant to have known eachother.



Hillary
Soo confused