Tonight I would just like to thank my mom for robbing me of my life as of yet.
100$ a YEAR for clothes. no socks, shoes, coats or sweaters in between.
5$ a week for allowance, IF I do all 7 of my chores every day
no car unless I pay for half the sale price, I pay for insurance, I pay for gas, I pay for my license and all the tests, I get myself a ride to my drive test and do everything myself.
no help on anything in life because I dont appreciate what she DOES give me..????
constant screaming and fights about absolutely nothing important. Yesterday she literally SCREAMED at me because the flavorless gelatin powder wasnt in the right place in the cupboard..even though I hadnt touched it and tried to explain that to her.
Im never telling the truth. She called me today and yelled at me in a message on my cell phone "where the hell are you I thought today was a half day? Call me back right now" it wasnt a half day.
I cant go to homecoming because I cant afford it- I owe people too much money. I had to borrow 35$ from Caitlin to buy my license, and I owe my mom 60$.

Raising me in the ghetto wasnt so bad, I got tough
Drug dealing in front of me wasnt so bad, I knew what drugs were early on and realized they arent that bad since 'mommy' does them
Telling me that even though she has done things, she will judge me if I ever do the same. Taught me that she is hipocritical
Trying to teach me how to manage my money by not buying me anything since I was ten years old..taught me that she is selfish and its a bitch trying to get money, and its impossible to learn how to manage something you dont have
Spending more time with her boyfriends than with my sister and I, showed me that I can live without her, and will be much better off once Im out of her reach.
Leaving me for days with my grandparents so she could party, taught me that Im not the only person that despises the life of that bitch.
using yelling and screaming as her only forms on communication with me, taught me that I have a disfunctional mom with extreme anger problems.
I wish it werent illegal to stab somebody, or suffocate them, or beat the hell out of them, or skin them and poke their eyes out with a red hot dagger.
being so uptight about everything that goes on around her taught me that if I stress her out enough she might drop dead. I try all the time
using me as a slave for anything and everything showed me that the world revolves around her happiness

If you read this whole thing, you are probably thinking that I have some serious mental problems or that me and my mom got in a big fight tonight and Im just venting. Actually either way you are wrong, I just happen to HATE my mom more than anybody else that Ive ever known. I hate everything about her personality. And we havent been in a fight tonight at all, I just had to get it out.

Today I realized that Ive been trying to get a job for over a year now, Ive been stuck in the same fucked up relationship for TWO years, I am not doing good at school so far even though it JUST started, and nothing else I want for myself in life is happening. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up in 10 years.

One funny coincidence, right now Ive had 666 visitors on my blog. What a SHITTY day today has been