I am sooo tired but really happy so I thought Id write in here real quick about my day. I got up, went to school and then after school went to Lexis house. We talked and stuff and then she took me to her new house, its SOO nice I am so excited to have some fun in that place!! And then she dropped me off at home and I showed her my car. Its funny cuz that damn air freshener is smelling up even OUTSIDE the car. (read my old post about that..) Anyways, then I came inside the house and changed for soccer and Rhys picked me up. We went and showed up early so we hung out on these benches by the football teams that were playing there. Then we had practice and that was fun OF COURSE! While I was practicing Kevin called and left a message asking me to go work out with him at his sisters place, so I came home from practice, changed and grabbed my swim suit and he picked me up to go to the gym. I ran for 20 minutes and then we changed and got in the pool...IT WAS SOOO COLD! then after this huge family left we got in the hottub and just sat there for a long time cuz it felt so good. We left there around 9 50 and I came home, and now Im helllla tired and about to pass out so I can get up early and do some homework..exciting! But then tomorrow afternoon Im going to see Shark Tale with Kevin, cuz he promised hed take me if I told him what me and ameer talked about. And then Corey said he is gona hook me up with some free dessert pizza! Tomorrow is gona be soo fun! alright bed time

Oh one more thing, me and Kevin are pretty damn close to back together
*Hillarizzle*

OH MY FUCKING GOD
Fuck the :growing up gotti: show. Seriously. I just wrote a hellllla long post and it was all happy, then this little black pop up for the show came up as I was clicking on PublishPost, and then my whole internet TURNED OFF. God damnit I am so pissed off at that damn pop up and I was just really really happy..I seriously dont want to write all that stuff again so basically, today went by fast and Kevin is bringing me dinner from Godfathers tonight. Then Thursday is one week till I get my license and I want to go work out.

Shit. Peice of ass Gotti

My heart's sinking like a weight
Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of, they have filled me up with doubt
And even though you are next to me, I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own

That song is in somebodys profile and it explains right now PERFECTLY.


Hillary

I had so much to tell this blog before I just read my email. Now..all I can say is that Im extremely distraught over the fact that Jessica and Nick might be getting a divorce. Seriously, they are ruining my hopes of finding true love some day.
Actually I guess I can muster up the strength to inform you of a few odd things that happened to me today..
SO we are in Anacortes doing our Harley Davidson show concession stand..
Odd thing #1- A man gave me a dollar tip on a dollar cup of coffee..and then when Dan was like "ohh you arent even gona need to get paid today if u keep earning tips like that", the man (at least 50) goes "well I gota look at something.." and walked away! I was soo confused..
Odd thing #2- Another man came up to the stand and I was going to be taking his order and I asked him what he'd like and he goes "you, but since your a kid and my name isnt Clinton I guess Ill just have a strawberry shortcake.." I was seriously speechless, so I just turned and walked the other way towards making his food..was Monica Lewinsky underaged when she fucked Clinton or something?
Odd thing #3- THIS IS THE BIGGEST SHOCKER OF THE WHOLE DAMN DAY!!!!
Im watching all these guys go by on Harleys and Im like, wow..my dad would really fit in with them if he got a new wardrobe and glasses..(my dad is a computer nerd and basically a bigger napoleon dynomite..) So I am sitting down later on waiting for customers..and this woman walks by that is REALLY familiar. Then I realized its my step mom and then..I look in front of her and I see this man. He looks like my dad, but he has a dark blue bandana on with big red and orange flames all over it and is wearing a leather jacket. What the FUCK???? It was him. I was embarrassed but I still called him over and said hi. Conveniantely, my mom (for some reason) had my school pictures in the cash register, so she gave him 2 of my retardedly ugly things.
Odd thing #4-We were breaking up 'camp' after we finishing concessioning, and this man in a bright orange shirt came over to me. He was like " hey, I know you know where the Eagles club is.." and then he turned and walked over to my mom and goes "Excuse me, where is the Eagles club?" we were both like..what the hell is going on? but then he kept talking and then he just wandered off without us answering him.. wierd ass shit



I am sooooo tired, Ive been up on my feet for 17 hours loading, unloading, cooking, cleaning, packing, decorating, serving, ringing up and giving change, reloading, reunloading, carrying....insane amounts of work and my arches of my feet are nonexistant anymore..

*Night
Hillary*

Today was a good day..but kind of wierd. I guess Ill start with last night
Kevin Chris and I went to the football game, then Kevin and I went and met up with Eileen at Wendys and went to Eileens to watch Monsters Inc. Eileen told me *today* that me and Kevin are the most confusing people in the world cuz we were laying together on the couch. Then we decided that we are only confusing to OTHER PEOPLE most of the time..but then I realized thats not true cuz Im ALWAYS confused>>ANYWAYS
Today I got up and went to Kevins at 11 30. We started watching The Passion of the Christ, but it got boring real fast. at 5 Ameer came over to hang out, and then Chris showed up. After a while, they both left and me and Kevin talked a little bit about what happened last night..and neither of us are sure whats going on right now I dont think. Im not getting my hopes up for anything though..and I have my reasons. Then Kevin and his mom brought me home and I went over to Eileens house. WOW we baked this old school bread stuff we made in home ec 9th grade..and then we had an adventure with the waterways of the house..I cant really explain that any better except by saying that there is a leak in their pipes so Eileen had to go to 132 park to do her business..lol...Then we all sat down and watched Finding Nemo, and Eileen said Im like a little kid cuz Ive seen the movie before but I still gasp when big things happen and get all into it..haha oh well..its SUCH a good movie!!
I have soccer practice tomorrow at 3, and then Sunday Im doing the concession stand with my mom and Dan so I can earn 75 dollars towards my car..which will mean I only owe my mom 60 dollars!! Awesome! So now that its almost 1 in the morning, I guess I better get some sleep for my big day of doing nothing tomorrow!! (besides soccer practice and maybe some homework..)

Nighty Night
Hillary

Im sick of wasting my time..

I hope that mister perfect is at the football game tonight, I need at least a little bit of hope for my <3> What an honestly horrible way to spend 2 years of my life

Hillary*

Song lyrics are are what Im going to put in here today. I wish my mind could just clear itself, or make itself up.. :( Dont think its that big of a deal..its just lyrics, unless its blue, then I wrote it..

How could the one I gave my heart to break my heart so bad? How could the one who made me happy make me feel so sad? Wont somebody tell me so I can understand, if you love me, how could you hurt me like that? How could the one who said "I love you" say the things you say? How could the one I was so true to just tell me lies? How could you be so cold to me when I gave you everything? How could you just walk out the door, how could you not love me anymore? I thought we had forever, I cant understand.. If you loved me how could you do that to me?

Looking back, on the memory of the dance we shared beneath the stars above, for a moment all the world was right. How could I have known, that youd ever say goodbye? And now Im glad I didnt know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I would have had to miss the dance.
*All I can think of for this song is that night at the park looking at the stars..thats the best memory I have*

Im going crazy just thinking about you lately...

I never had noone that I could count on. Id been let down so many times. I was tired of hurting, so tired of searching till you walked in to my life. It was a feeling Id never known, and for the first time I didnt feel alone. Youre more than a lover, there could never be another to make me feel the way you do. We just get closer, I fall in love all over everytime I look at you. Youre my best friend

I miss you, is your heart still mine? I been needing you, been wanting you..I wana cry sometimes but I know I gota live and make it somehow..

I know nothing stays the same, but if you are willing to play the game, its coming around again..so dont mind if I fall apart. I beleive in love, what else can I do?

Everytime I look in anothers eyes, I see you

sometimes a song can touch a nerve, it takes me back to you. Every now and then, some little thing Ive burried comes bubbling up, and once in a while it feels close enough to touch. I miss you a little ever since youve been gone. A few little memories keep hanging on.
"goodnight babe, I love you"
laying in your lap at the park in the middle of the night
long lasting hugs
you laughing at my 'shivers' then trying to say they're cute
sleeping with u in the tent during the wind storm in Lake Chelan
lots of swimming pools and 'testing out matresses'...lol..I mean..what?!

Im at school right now. I should be sitting here typing up the finishing paragraphs for my AP lit/comp essay..but I just looked through my backpack and realized I DONT HAVE THE ROUGH DRAFT!! :'( so since this is the only site that works on my schools stupid websense thing, Im posting. After school today I am going to Eileens house to study for our AP history test that we have tomorrow..Im seriously screwed on that because I dont know any of the vocab and I havent read the 58 page chapter yet..shitty. Maybe I wont post for the rest of the week cuz I am expecting to be really busy. Tomorrow I have soccer practice after school, Wednesday I think Im going to Eileens volleyball game, Thursday I have soccer practice again and then Friday we dont have school and Kevin and I are PLANNING to hang out. But we all know how that usually works out.. it doesnt.
OH MY GOD!!! I am sitting here at a computer typing this...and these two indian girls walked into the library with some chips and stuff, and sat down next to me. Then they turned on a TV! I didnt even notice there are TVs in our library, but they are watching family guy! That is so crazy..wow anyways Im gona go start trying to write my essay and then Eileen and I are gona go eat lunch. So yeah, if I dont write in here for a while, dont miss me too much and have a good week :)

Hillary**

We had 2 soccer games this weekend. Its depressing to say, but yesterday we did better than we did today..and yesterday we lost by 5 points. Eileen came to our game today, and we ended up losing by 7 points..wow. Anyways, then when we came home we had Kevins birthday dinner at Eileens house. We (Eileen, Kevin, Adam, me and Caitlin) made pizzas and had fun and laughed a lot doing it. Kevin and I were in charge of the dough, and that did NOT work out. We ended up with paper thin crust. Literally it was like..less than a millimeter thick. haha. everybody made their own style pizza..and me and Kevin had cheese and pineapple. yumm. sept Eileens ghetto so she bought the super huge chunks of pineapple, and refused to slice them for us so we had king sized peices of pineapple all over. Then after we had dessert and the guys played nintendo and all that fun stuff, Kevin brought me home and now Im about to start doing my history homework and writing my LA essay..

Happy Birthday Kevin!!!

**Hillary

I just got home from the Rebs Football game..and WE WON!! Im really glad I went to the game because I got to see <3 :)
So, when we were about to leave for the game, it started POURING outside. Eileen hadnt brought a coat for herself, so HAHA since I only have one..she had to borrow one from my mom. It was this blue and black jacket that wasnt THAT bad looking..but THEN, we get to Juanita..Im talking to her and she puts her hand in the pocket and pulls out this blue thing and goes "OH YAY your mom left some gloves in here!" she starts unraveling it, and it turns out to be a big blue pair of mens underwear!! Wow it was great, she threw them down and screamed lol and everyone looked at us. We backed away from them and I started to call my mom to ask her what the HELL went on in that jacket, and this janitor lady came up and just stared at them for a minute, made this face and ran away. HAHA.
We go into the bleachers/field area and its POURING down rain..and basically its a big social mingle for the whole time. Michaela Eileen Rhys and I were talking about Matt cuz we thought he wasnt there, and like one SECOND after we stopped talking, he walked by us! Then..after the game M told me that she told him I like him and Im single and he goes "nice nice" and apparently he thinks Im hot. I doubt it..but thats awesome if its true!!
The game ended and we went out to the car, and when they brought me home, Michaelas dad was like "would you like me to walk you upstairs? I felt bad that I didnt last time." AWWW I was like nah thats OK I can make it thanks tho..and then I realized I couldnt open the car door..for the SECOND TIME! it was embarrassing, so after they let me out..I ran upstairs and now me and Kevin might actually talk out his being wierdish stupid all week..or maybe not

Hillary*

Do dentists say "WOW you have beeUUUtiful teeth!!" to EVERYBODY? Cuz every where I go to have my teeth looked at, people say that and I dont know if its some way of boosting peoples confidence in their smile or if I really do have a good set of teeth?? Anyways I just have one thought to share with you from today

If I never mention it again, he never will either. It has left his mind completely and unless I bring it up, it will never return. Its not hard for him to understand that, because he doesnt try. But it IS hard for him to comprehend that I would like for that same thing to happen to my memories of him..

Im not sure if I mentioned in here that Liz kind of rudely informed me that I was basically 'fired' from the Outback... HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I never was told I got the job so how the fuck can they fire me??? anyways..thats all for now, I need to do some Chemistry homework

Hillary*

SO many emotions are running through my head right now. Tears are exploding out and I cant do anything about it..Hopefully tomorrow this will all be washed away..but right now I dont know what to do.
This is a huge deal, and Kevin is treating it like any other normal thing. He keeps putting it off and leaving everything up to me..when I cant make all the decisions for myself. After the conversation we just had, I couldnt help but think " he is still just a little boy " and I feel bad for this situation but its his responsibility..just as much as its my fault.
I hope tomorrow this will all get better and I wont ever have to feel like this again...its the serious shits

:'(
Hillary

Im sure nobody but Kevin will understand this post..not even you Eileen..sorry bout that but its gona have to stay that way

I had my first soccer game of the season today! We lost by 1 point, but I still had fun and I got to work out for 1.5 hours straight :). I need to go to sleep but I decided to post in here to tell everybody something. Today alone, I got 117 hits on my blog..wow thats insane! But the crazy part about it all is that ONE person, or a few people on the SAME computer accounted for NINETY FIVE of those hits....comeon..I cant be THAT interesting?? I mean Im not complaining that you are reading this, but I didnt even update so what did you need to keep coming back to see? You can comment at the bottom of the post if youd like :) I would appreciate it! You should tell me who you are so I know who my audience is too :) Night

Hillary**

The only plus side I can think of about this whole situation is that once in a great while, a hen escapes her cage for a period of time when she can stretch out or take a walk, at least until she is discovered. Granted that her feet are able to support her body after all the hormones and false growth chemicals administered to her..

This cow is dead after an auction. It had already been paralized, but its neck was broken and she was killed after she struggled to save her child when it was sold.

Veal cows at a holding location..notice the crusted feces on their backs and legs, and the pleading eyes from both of them..how can nobody love these poor animals?

Veal cows looking out from their 2-foot wide cages

A farmer walking across the backs of his poor pigs

Pigs stacked in a holding pen

Pigs looking up helplessly at the cameraman from their cramped homes

Cages that pigs are held in for their 6-month long life. This is where they stay for 24 hours a day..its where they sleep and eat and go to the bathroom..everything

A female pig trying to get out of her cage

This poor pig is just trying to see what is happening outside of the unneccessary confinement it is put behind.

A mother pig looking out sadly at the camera man after giving birth. This breaks my heart

This is how chickens are transported to the slaughterhouse, after a life of living in cages smaller than that

Hung chickens at the slaughter house.

A cow in the process of having its throat slit. Most likely, this cow was still concious at the time.

A perfect example of how hens lose feathers and get completely cramped in their cages.

A dead hen lies on top of her previous cage, above the heads of her previous cell mates.

Most of these male chicks are dead, but all of them were alive when they were thrown into this dumpster. They all are suffocating under the weight of the others or will starve to death.

A downed veal cow

Typical holding place for thousands of chickens

All of these chicks were hatched in that drawer.

If that doesnt convince you, maybe some of the facts will:

• 300 million egg laying hens in the U.S. are confined in small wire cages stacked in tiers and lined up in rows inside huge warehouses. Hens are commonly packed 4 to a cage measuring just 16 inches wide. In this tiny space, the birds cant stretch their wings or legs, and they cant fulfill normal behavioral patterns or social needs. Constantly rubbing against the wire cages, they suffer from severe feather loss, and their bodies are covered with bruises and abrasions
• Typically they lay more than 250 eggs per year each. They suffer from "fatty liver syndrome" when their liver cells, which work overtime to produce the fat and protein for egg yolks, accumulate extra fat. They also suffer from what the industry calls 'cage layer fatigue,' and many become 'egg bound' and die when their bodies are too weak to pass another egg.
• After one year in egg production, the birds are classified as 'spent hens' and are sent off to slaughter. Their brittle, calcium-depleted bones often shatter during handling or at the slaughterhouse. They usually end up in soups, pot pies, or similar low-grade chicken meat products in which their bodies can be shredded to hide the bruises from consumers.
• in February 2003 in San Diego County, California, more than 15,000 'spent' laying hens were tossed alive into a wood-chipping machine to dispose of them. Despite tremendous outcry from a horrified public, the district attorney declined to prosecute the owners of the egg farm, calling the use of a wood-chipper to kill hens a "common industry practice."
• male chicks of egg-laying breeds are of no economic value, and they are literally discarded on the day they hatch — usually by the cheapest, most convenient means available. Thrown into trash cans by the thousands, male chicks suffocate or are crushed under the weight of others. (see the picture I posted)
• Approximately 100 million pigs are raised and slaughtered in the U.S. every year. As babies, they are subjected to painful mutilations without anesthesia or pain relievers. Their tails are cut off to minimize tail biting
• Modern breeding pigs are treated like piglet-making machines. Living a continuous cycle of impregnation and birth, each sow has more than 20 piglets per year. After being impregnated, the sows are confined in small metal pens just two feet wide that prevent sows from turning around or even lying down comfortably. At the end of their four-month pregnancies, they are transferred to similarly cramped farrowing crates to give birth. With barely enough room to stand up and lie down and no straw or other type of bedding to speak of, many suffer from sores on their shoulders and knees.
• After the sows give birth and nurse their young for two to three weeks, the piglets are taken away to be fattened, and the sows are re-impregnated.When the sow is no longer deemed a productive breeder, she is sent to slaughter.
• Prior to being hung upside down by their back legs and bled to death at the slaughterhouse, pigs are supposed to be 'stunned' and rendered unconscious. However, stunning at slaughterhouses is terribly imprecise, and often conscious animals are hung upside down, kicking and struggling, while a slaughterhouse worker tries to 'stick' them in the neck with a knife. If the worker is unsuccessful, the pig will be carried to the next station on the slaughterhouse assembly line — the scalding tank — where he/she will be boiled, alive and fully conscious.
• Today, dairy cows are forced to have a calf every year. Like human beings, cows have a nine-month gestation period, and so giving birth every twelve months is physically demanding.
• With genetic manipulation and intensive production technologies, it is common for modern dairy cows to produce 100 pounds of milk a day — ten times more than they would produce naturally.
• In a healthy environment, cows would live at least twenty-five years, but in modern dairies, they are slaughtered and made into ground beef after just three or four years.
• the dairy industry is a huge source of "downed animals" — animals who are so sick or injured that they are unable to walk or even stand. Investigators have documented downed animals routinely being beaten, dragged, or pushed with bulldozers in attempts to move them to slaughter
• Veal calves commonly live for eighteen to twenty weeks in wooden crates that are so small that they cannot turn around, stretch their legs, or lie down comfortably. The calves are fed a milk substitute, deficient in iron and fiber, which is designed to make the animals anemic, resulting in the light-colored flesh that is prized as veal. In addition to this high-priced veal, some calves are killed at just a few days old to be sold as low-grade 'bob' veal for products like frozen TV dinners.
• Within moments of birth, male calves are taken away from their mothers and loaded onto trucks. Many are sold through auction rings where they are subjected to transportation and handling stresses. The fragile animals are shocked and kicked, and when they can no longer walk, they are dragged by their legs or their ears
• Nearly ten billion chickens and half a billion turkeys are hatched in the U.S. annually. These birds are typically crowded by the thousands into huge, factory-like warehouses where they can barely move.
• Shortly after hatching, both chickens and turkeys have the ends of their beaks cut off, and turkeys also have the ends of their toes clipped off. These mutilations are performed without anesthesia, ostensibly to reduce injuries that result when stressed birds are driven to fighting.
• Upon arrival at the slaughterhouse, chickens are either pulled individually from their crates, or the crates are lifted off the truck with a crane or forklift, and they are dumped onto a conveyor belt. As the birds are unloaded, some miss the conveyor belt and fall onto the ground.
• Upon entering the facility, fully conscious birds are hung by their feet from metal shackles on a moving rail. After the shackled birds pass through the stunning tank, their throats are slashed by a mechanical blade. Inevitably, the blade misses some birds, who still are moving and struggling after improper stunning. Proceeding to the next station on the assembly line — the scalding tank — the birds are submerged in boiling hot water.Those missed by the killing blade are boiled alive

This is so sad I cant read anymore about it...

Downed translates into disabled at this website. This cow is very much alive, just unable to walk due to the way its been treated at the dairy farm. Every year, thousands of down cows, are dragged onto trucks and takens to slaughterhouses. This cow, like most downed animals, came from an industrialized dairy operation.

Frightened and infirm animals have difficulty walking though the livestock market, and impatient livestock handlers and truckers may be driven to kicking, beating and shocking the animals in order to move them more quickly.

Animals are commonly injured during transportation and handling. The horn of this goat was torn off, causing profuse bleeding.

With the smell of blood in the air and cows bleeding to death within sight, a terrified cow waits in the knocking box just prior to being stunned and slaughtered.

I am seriously considering becoming a vegetarian. I already dont like most meat..but after what Ive just looked at..I cant beleive how horribly animals are treated.
These pics I am about to post are from www.factoryfarming.com
Even if you dont want to become a vegetarian or anything, you should visit the site to get a better look at what you are eating..

I cant beleive how depressing this is, I think I just found the topic for my senior project

This guy I met tonight, is my future husband. No doubt. I was at the football game with Michaela and we stepped down to talk to this guy she thought was hot or something..and so I was kinda standing there by myself. All the sudden this guy steps down onto the riser behind me and SOMEHOW the 4 of us all start talking. Michaela goes, "Oh this is Hillary!" and hes like :hey hillary Im Matt: and he smiled..At first I didnt really notice that he is PERFECT..I was just talking with them and stuff, and then Michaela goes "oh my god whos that guy?" Me and Matt at the SAME EXACT time were like "hes number seventyfive." and we made eye contact. I duno..it was freaky and then I was like WHOA he is fine as hell!! So..then Michaela wandered off so I was just standing there with Matt and the other guy. We were talking..and then Matt stepped down right next to me on the riser and was like :I want to mingle with the fans: it was wierd tho cuz we werent in the big fan group we were to the side and he wasthisclose to me. Then the OTHER guy left..and it was just me and Matt :) and yeah..he is bomb bomb bomb bomb....BOMB..but then it started pouring down rain and we got split up and Michaela and I left, so I might never ever see him again and I barely know anything about him and I am not about to be a stalker and go find him at Redmond high. Oh well, if its meant to be he will find me, right?
Anyways thats all I have to say about today, I dont even remember anything else because that was awesome and made me so happy. OH yeah I had an interview today, I duno how that went

Hillary <3

We have NO couches anymore. :(

Im SOOOO TIRED! This is probably gona be the shortest post Ive made in a long time. Today I woke up at 7 07, left for school at 7 14. Classes, gay. After school I went to Caitlins and studied with her and Eileen. Chantel was there too. I went to the gym and worked out with Rhys and then I made a cake for tomorrow nights dinner party/couch moving party. lol. Now I just finished my homework and cleaning up the cat shit in the bath tub and Im about to pass the FUCK out! Hope everyone else had an OK day!

Hillary*

This is probably not a good time to choose to write in here because I sound like a complete whiney, PMSing, self centered bitch..but then again I probably always sound like that. Today went really good till I got home from the volleyball tournament. Actually I probably shouldnt waste my time getting all into it here, but every aspect of my life is stressed and not going right in any way right now. Hopefully its a time of chaos cuz everything is working itself out and will all smooth out perfectly at the same time. Or maybe, I need to stop procrastinating and start on my 5hours of homework that I plan to finish in 2.....night

Hillary

More of me and Eileens crazy conversations..

giggins2: is she pretty
qwerty1912: nope looks like a dike
giggins2: really
qwerty1912: even has the haircut
giggins2: haha
qwerty1912: kinda butch and short
giggins2: do they see eachother at school and hug or w/e
qwerty1912: nope they practice at differnet places or different times
qwerty1912: when is *edit*?!
giggins2: i duno but *hotguy* plays
qwerty1912: o haha he stood behind me at orientation in all the lines :-)
giggins2: sexy sexy sexy did you smell him
giggins2: (lol I know stalker stat)
qwerty1912: cant say that i did
qwerty1912: YEAH
giggins2: COMEON! what a waste of opportunity
giggins2: well thats ok, I had a run in with him on friday that was embarrassing
qwerty1912: wut am i spose to do...fall into him and take a huge SNORT
qwerty1912: story...
giggins2: I was walking down the hall really fast, and I was taking a sharp risco when he came out of nowhere from the lockers
qwerty1912: risco?!
giggins2: right
qwerty1912: oo okay i thought it was a real word
giggins2: lol
giggins2: anyways so he stepped out looking OVER my head for someone and didnt see me
qwerty1912: haha did u say nehting?
giggins2: he was standing with his hand on a locker and he was like an arms length away from the wall
giggins2: if you get what Im saying, theres like a bridge he is making with his arm
qwerty1912: yeah i get it
giggins2: so I excell until Im RUNNING at him (dont ask me why, I do retarded things under pressure), and then I approach him, Im 1 inch away and I duck under and go through his arm..
qwerty1912: HAHHAHAHAHA
qwerty1912: HAHAHAH
giggins2: he did NOT know what had hit him
giggins2: .......I hope....
qwerty1912: omg thats so funnie
giggins2: lol
qwerty1912: Y WOULD U DO THAT?!
giggins2: the only way it could have been worse, is if I would have tripped and fell on him or something
qwerty1912: hahah or he moved his arm rite when u were crossing and smacked u in teh face!
giggins2: I dont know!! I was in a hurry, and then I saw him and it all ran together and got so chaotic in my mind! I couldnt believe how hot he looked and I was looking at his eyes when I realized I was so close and I had to just go through his arm
qwerty1912: haha im seriously laughing outloud
giggins2: it was a stressful moment
qwerty1912: cuz i can totally see it happening
giggins2: lol you have no idea, Im like a hermit crab when I see him
qwerty1912: A HERMIT CRAB?
qwerty1912: HOW THE HELL DID U GET THAT ANALOGY~!?
giggins2: except I have no shell to hide in, so I just look completely flustered in public
qwerty1912: i think ur more like a retard
giggins2: hahahahahaha
qwerty1912: JUSS PLAYING
giggins2: hermit crabs are really quiet arent they? thats what I mean
qwerty1912: umm i think most crabs are quiet
qwerty1912: i dont think they make noise
giggins2: oh yeah
giggins2: well isnt that something people always use?
giggins2: Ive heard somebody say Im like a hermit crab..

hehe I love these talks with Eileen..maybe they are only funny to us..but I laugh so hard!!

Alright I dont want to talk about my weekend. Besides the fact that I brought my car home, there is nothing else to say.
Anyways, tonight I was thinking a lot, and I started wondering. Is it possible to love somebody for a while, then not like them at all; then like them and then love them until the love fades again and its just like? Honestly, I dont think it is possible. I think you can like somebody, get to know them really well and fall in love with them, but even if you fall out of love with them, I dont think you can take it down to a level of LIKING only. To me, if I ever love somebody, its not going to ever end. Ive never loved somebody before that I dont still love deep down, friends included (Eileen-I know if you are reading this you are sitting there wracking your brain to think of somebody I dont love anymore, lol, yes I am including Jessica in this statement..and Rachel sadly). I think that if you are going to give somebody your love, you should know them well enough to be able to trust them with that. I have fallen out of love with someone, but I still care deeply for them, just not in the same way. OK back to the point. I was thinking about that and I came to the conclusion that when love fades, it cant just fade halfway so that its down to likeness, but it CAN be rekindled or brought back to life. Once you have loved somebody, that person can win your love back a lot easier than anyone who hasnt because they are able to skip the 'liking' stage. This is probably a really random post to everyone, but thats basically what Im being told is happening with Kevin. It just doesnt all add up to me, maybe Im just young dumb and naive..
Tomorrow is Chris H's 22nd b-day

Happy Birthday Chris!!

Oh LORD this is the HOTTEST guy in the freaking WORLD!!!!

Me, Lexi, Jessica (youve for sure read about her in here), and Bryn back when Jess and I were friends

Me Eileen and Cait at dinner in Chelan. My gmas in the background inspecting what was for sale!

Eileen caught me by suprise on this one!

Me and Bryn a while back

The sprinklers broke, and Chris was passed out drunk under this fountain, and Eileen and I were laughing too hard to wake him up!

The sunset it Lake Chelan...aww soo pretty

Haha, fun on the 'awesome island' in Chelan!!

Me a couple years ago

Dan, my mom, Shalia, me and Eileen in some foreign country :)

Me and Lexi on New Years Eve a couple years ago

I just wanted to let everybody know that I have guestbook now!! You should definately give me a minute of ur time and sign it :) or even just leave me a comment on the bottom of my posts, then I can know someone other than myself actually reads/sees this website!!

I guess Ill fill you in on a wierd thing that happened to me today. After school, I was at my locker getting out my books and putting them in my backpack. Eileen came over and was talking to me, and then I bent down and was SHOVING books in my bag when this guy walked up behind me and patted me on the head. then he just stood there behind me for a while. I was scared cuz I didnt know his voice when he said hi to Eileen..so I looked up at him and thought he was michael bate, but then I realized I dont know him. after like a minute of me staring at him blankly he finally looked down at me and was like "OH MY GOD! IM SORRY!! I thought you were Jenny!!" haha it was sooo akward! Especially since Jenny has REALLY short hair and she is like half as tall as me. lol anyways, Im off to my second doc appointment this week and then prolly hanging out with Kristin and Liz tonight.

*Hillary*

Oh WOW the more I talk to that restaurant and the more Im there, the more they piss me off with this fucking waiting game. Matt told me to call today to see if I got the job, so I did..and then Jim comes on the phone and says that he has an interview with another girl tomorrow and that if she does good, thats going to determine it. WHAT THE FUCK!! So they are calling me back by monday. Ohmygod Im in such a bad mood now. Its been like 3 weeks of this interview process..they are evil for making us wait so much. Im going to go take a nap now cuz I need to get less sick and forget how mad I am..

The interview I just went to was probably the MOST stress I have felt in the last few months. I went to school with my duffel bag filled with my clothes for the interview, and then after school I went to the bathroom and changed. I ran out to the parking lot and met Kristin Liz Allison Mick and some other little kid at the car and I jumped in on allisons lap. we tried to get into the lane of people waiting to leave school, but the person behind us wouldnt let us in. To make that story short, we ended up tapping into the back of the person in front of us. We finally got out of the parking lot and dropped everyone off at home and then we started going to the outback. I had to change my shirt in the car so I think I gave a lot of people a good show :) Anyways, so we get to the outback like 10 minutes early, and the manager and ALL the staff are out on the front porch smoking. (I left my phone in the car so I didnt have the same problem as I did at the interview yesterday.) The manager looks me up and down, looked at his watch, and then said "your early." I was like yeah Im sorry :( and then Kristin and I went inside. She was getting her schedule for this weekend, and she saw my name on the roster thing... Then we saw that I had been scheduled for training on Wed., but somebody had crossed me off....so now its like 50/50 chance that I am gona get the job. BUT that was before the interview...and stress all really began. So Matt comes in, the guy that has interviewed me the last 3 times. He goes into the back, and Kristin and Liz decide they want to go get food while Im being interviewed. (I still havent eaten today besides a few sunflower seeds cuz this sickness makes it impossible to eat or want food) so they say that they are gona go to a bank and then get food and come back. And 'it wont take that long'....So Matt comes back into the front of the restaurant with another guy and introduces me to him. His name is Jim. The guy shook my hand like if he didnt break it the world was going to end. we went over to this HUMONGOUS table, like the ones on that rich guy with the ugly hair who says "ur fired"'s show. So Matt tells me that the Jim guy is going to help him with the interview. HELLO!? they didnt do that to caitlin kristin OR liz! I was not expecting to be DOUBLE TEAMED! Anyways they ask me all these questions and then judge me. literally..they scored my answers on a paper I couldnt see..and then they told me that they had to go in back and add up my score to see if they want me as their employee. I thanked them and reluctantly shook their hands again. I went outside and Kristin and Liz werent back yet. So I went over to a store and looked around for a while, but kept my eye on the window to see if they had come back. Finally I left the store cuz this guy was following me around and trying to talk to me and it was freaking me out. Right when I stepped outside I saw Kris and Liz coming in the parking lot. I was like THANK GOD! and I started walking over towards the parking area by the steakhouse. Then..they went behind this barrier thing that leads to go back to the freeway. I was like OH NO! and I started running after the car. I ran out onto the road, across the street..(these two guys were laughing their asses off at me)and onto a gas station place where I could see the free way. I couldnt see the car, so I was like SHIT!!!! they have my cell phone! What I figured had happened was- they had come back while I was looking at stuff in the store, and gone into the outback and asked if I was there. Matt told them no I had left a while ago, so they figured I got a ride home some other way and so they just left.
I was SERIOUSLY freaking out because their cell is broken and I dont know their # off the top of my head, and my phone was in their car! I go into the gas station and ask this ugly ass woman with a mullet if I can use a phone (to call my phone and see if theyd answer), and she goes "we have a pay phone in the back" and I was like SHITTTTT so I ran back across the street and was about to go into a store to ask for a phone, when I thought, 'I damn well better get this fucking job after this ordeal..'and then.....I saw their car in the parking lot of outback. me-"what the shit is going on?!" I probably actually said that out loud to myself. But anyways I RAN over to the car and was asking them if they had just left. Apparently the barrier that leads to the main road also leads to another entrance to the parking lot. Holy shit. lol..so they dropped me off at home, and now I am waiting to call Outback and see how I did...I think its a 80-20 chance I got the job, because I did good on all the other times he talked with me, and I passed the test for applying with FLYING COLORS! I will be SO sad and mad if I dont get this job, its taken so much time and energy. Jesus..alright well Ill update this post in half an hour when I know the scoop.. :/
*Hillary*

Today has been sunny, raining, blue skies, cloudy and now thunder and lightening. I think the sky is confused. Anyways, my classes are fucking hard! I think Im going to die this year. But today after school I had an interview at the outback, and I think that went well besides the fact that the boss had forgotten he scheduled Cait and I for interviews...at the same time! Then after that I had to go to the doctors about my sore throat. The doc thought I had strep, but then the test came back negative. My doctor is pretty bomb...I never knew that before. But he came in and TOTALLY checked me out, then he had to press all over my body to see if I had 'bumps' which doesnt make sence to me since it was just a sore throat, but I didnt mind [img]http://www.websmileys.com/sm/love/1112.gif[/img] then I asked about my hip and he layed my down on the bed and started pressin on my inner thighs...haha Im making the doc trip to be a big soft core porn story. I wasnt really that turned on by him but...he was sexy. Tomorrow I have another interview at the outback but I have no ride there [img]http://www.websmileys.com/sm/trans/fahr34.gif[/img] so I dont know how thats gona work out.. anyways I gota go do homework....so

nite

*Hillary