SO many emotions are running through my head right now. Tears are exploding out and I cant do anything about it..Hopefully tomorrow this will all be washed away..but right now I dont know what to do.
This is a huge deal, and Kevin is treating it like any other normal thing. He keeps putting it off and leaving everything up to me..when I cant make all the decisions for myself. After the conversation we just had, I couldnt help but think " he is still just a little boy " and I feel bad for this situation but its his responsibility..just as much as its my fault.
I hope tomorrow this will all get better and I wont ever have to feel like this again...its the serious shits

:'(
Hillary

Im sure nobody but Kevin will understand this post..not even you Eileen..sorry bout that but its gona have to stay that way