I dont like how I made this thing so I could talk about things that are on my mind, but I know that people read it so I cant say what I really feel because I dont want to have to take shit for it. first of all I want to say that guys are so funny. I am so amused by them..and really confused by a couple of them.. Second I wana say that I am not going to get used, if you think you are going to use me you are stupid and the person Im talking about knows who they are....so just tell me what ur after

I didnt have time to write yesterday, I was soo tired!I guess I should fill yall in on what happened with the Kevin situation...he came and picked up the photo journal, read it, and we talked about everything for like 3 hours. I feel so much better talking to him now, like I dont have to hide anything from him or feel any anger towards him. I went to school yesterday, came home, slept till my game (CHANTEL GOT HER LICENSE) and then played in my game! It was soo fun, we won and omg this guy on my team was wearin boxers...and his pee hole thing was open and me and angie and sarah and dawn saw his....yeah! lol we were like OMG WHAT THE HELL and then we couldnt stop looking cuz it was so funny. lol. I came home and talked online for a while then did science homework and went to bed early. Today I wore my khaki shorts and red tank top that is HOEISH according to people :( school was LAME. Ryan sat next to me in LA..I was a little wierded out cuz that hasnt happened since before I left for my trip and our little bitch fight kinda thing. He is paying me to do his LA project :D Im excited and he is giving me a new CD player cuz when we were in there today, Max said something to me and I turned to look at him and I nocked mine off the table and it broke :( After school Chantel and Cait and I went running the 2 mile thing, and we got followed, stared at, hit on...ect like 2000 times it was so funny. We finished running and I called Kevin to tell him cuz he wanted me to go to totem lake with him. he walked to my house and met me behind the ice arena. we went to my house and hung out watchin (arguing over/wrestling for) the TV. I wanted to watch CMT and he wanted to watch skateboarding....so yeah that didnt work very well. we finally got on the bus to go to totem lake and he told me my shirt was 'holey'..so I was trying to find a hole then he looked at my boobs and was like YEAH lol so I guess it was too low cut or something. we got off the bus and went to this deli place where Kevin wants a job..but they arent hiring so that was pointless..then we ran into his mom and aunt! of course after he told me my shirt was kinda slutty in a nice Kevin way lol. his mom and aunt went into hallmark and kevin and I went to guitar center. he played some songs and stuff and I listened then we went and waited in the car for a ride home. we played basketball with the door handles and body parts.....lol *boobyball* it was really fun. I forgot how much fun we have together till today. his mom dropped me off at home at 6 and then at 7 I went and picked up herrick and him for the multi cultural show. we met chantel cait and rhys there. it was so fucking random and funny omg. during the show I got SOOO hot it was crazy. Kevin was fanning me with a program and I had to roll my pant legs up like a clam digger. hehe. afterwards my mom came and I drove us all home packed up in the back seat lol. me and chantel and cait are wearin skirts tomarrow I think so I gota go pick out that outfit..'

My mom just talked to Celeste about Chelan!! YAY! its gona be so fun if I can go!
We got our tickets for the Kenny Chesney concert last night!!!! (stop hatin Ryan and Kevin)
TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

night!
Hillary

Today was really great until like half an hour ago. I got up and went to school..yippee...we did WASLing. Kristin Chantel and I went to do something between wasl and 1st period, and we ended up being like 8 minutes late to class (even after the 10 min break)but my teacher didnt mark me absent so that was good. I think she thought that I was still testing, but lol NO..at lunch, me and allison went to the library again so I could do my essays and Josh Skurnik paid me a dollar to type up a paper for him, and he is giving me another one tomarrow. :D that was awesome. In LA class, I turned in my essays and we worked on power point. Max was showing me this hella funny video by people called jocs and loces or something, it was soo great. He is pretty much the only person I talked to in there cuz we were like secluded in the lab in the very back. That was fine with me tho lol. After school I came home and Kevin came over. We went to safeway and he bought me 6 pink roses :D I was happy. Then we came to my house and hung out till 5 15. I met Eileen to work out at 5 30 and I realized that Im really sore from all the running I did yesterday! When we were working out, I felt my boob for some reason, and I realized that there is no underwire in ONE side of my bra! Ive been wearing it like that alll day! OMG it waI came home and got interrogated about the roses...and then Kevin IMed me...this is where the day goes bad.

PhatFarm Ones: i was reading some of u blog things
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: really
PhatFarm Ones: yea
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: was it boring
PhatFarm Ones: no i was reading the one w/ my name in em
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER:howd u know if ur name was in it
PhatFarm Ones: it said kevin lol
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: didnt u have to read to see it say kevin or u just skimmed
PhatFarm Ones: skimm
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: I see did u read the bold stuff?
PhatFarm Ones: wat bold stuff?
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: when I made stuff bold on my blog
PhatFarm Ones: some y
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: just wondering..cuz I boldness the important things or the funny stuff
PhatFarm Ones: oo

*the next thing he says is something he took from here*

***PhatFarm Ones: Monday, March 22, 2004
me: Im sooo happy now its crazy
me: everyone thinks im a crack head
Kevin: yea when iam out of ur life
me: ur still in my life
Kevin: iam the one that made u pissed everyday
Kevin: not like that
me: well..you didnt make me pissed everyday , I just worried about if you liked me
Kevin: o well
me: it was hard cuz I knew that u liked someone else the whole time we were together

I NEVER wanted to EVER have that conversation. It doesnt seem so bad..but it was sooo not cool to have to think of what to say to that first thing he said..I didnt want to lie..or make him feel bad. god damn..oh well at least he didnt see the photo journal lol***
PhatFarm Ones: wats da photo journal
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: uhh..something I had to make in photo
PhatFarm Ones: oo i wanna c it
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: no u dont
PhatFarm Ones: yea i do i got u roses out of da goodness of me heart
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: umm I think it would be mean to show it to you
PhatFarm Ones: y
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: It just might make things wierd
PhatFarm Ones: y?
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: cuz I put stuff in there that I never told you
PhatFarm Ones: well tell me now
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: what do u want to know
PhatFarm Ones: everything that u never told me about
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: should I just send you what I wrote in the book
PhatFarm Ones: yea
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: its a lot..
PhatFarm Ones: ok
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: ok maybe I should just let u see it
PhatFarm Ones: yea :-)
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: no its not :) at all
PhatFarm Ones: oo
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: ok well let me put it this way
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: I just told eileen u wana know what I have in it and she said :
qwerty1912: o god hillary ur retarded u gotta do this in person
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: WHAT DO I SAY
qwerty1912: dont do it onlinePhatFarm Ones: ?
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: I dont want you to get mad at me
PhatFarm Ones: i wont aye brb tho i gadda go drive to get a job application real fast
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: u should drop by here and pick this up then and u can read it then tell me what u think
PhatFarm Ones: ok
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: ok
PhatFarm Ones: k ill be there soon
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: ok
PhatFarm Ones: late
LEctRIcbuLLRIdER: buybuy


so, he came by..I gave it to him and gave him a hug....now I think he is reading it. I hope he finishes soon cuz Im scared this is gona make or break our friendship somehow..that photo journal pretty much had all of my feelings in it..all of them, like I was reading through to make sure it didnt have anything bad in it before he got here and I started crying. But I dont think I meant as much to him as he did to me so maybe he will think its no big deal. I almost started crying when I was giving it to him too...its like totally putting my heart on my sleeve for him to judge me even more.


tonight is really depressing

Hope everyone else is having a good night
Hillary

Yesterday was pretty fun! I got up and walked to meet up with Cait and Chantel. We went to Caits and layed in the sun for like an hour. I was putting tanning oil on, and we were talking about how greasy it makes skin look..and then I put it on my face! I was like FUCK! lol I looked all acnified. We had to move into the front yard for some reason I forgot..and when we got there, me and Chantel busted out singing. We sang R kelly *hot n fresh out the kitchen* lol and we sang all these other songs..we both are not the best singers so I think Cait wanted to shoot us. haha. We were layin there talking and this ant crawled across Chantels stomach. I said AHH! and brushed it off and it freaked her out so bad! She was on insect patrol for the rest of the time we were out there! haha she was like "OMG there are ants everywhere! Look theres one there and there and there and there and there!!!" kick it with her and you will see that you just gota love her! We put our clothes back on after a while and walked up to 7-11. Chantel and I got slurpees and a nachos thing to split, then we walked over to baskin robins cuz cait wanted ice cream (go figure) lol. then we walked back to 7-11 and got chantels bro a slurpee and walked to Caits again. We played KIMPS! with caits bro, it was soo fun. I seriously love that game! At like 4 30, I walked home. I did homework for the rest of the night and that was pretttty gay. Today I wore my cute cute pink skirt that I got in florida! It was soo fucking hot today! Me, Chantel, Cait, Liz, Kristin, Lexi, Allison and like 500 other chicks were wearin skirts! In weight training, I forgot shoes to wear, so I got a nonsuit. :( I just went into the matt room with stacey allison and kristin and we played jumprope and did situps and stuff. then Plushke SCREAMED my name at the top of his lungs...so I got scared and ran out to see what was wrong. He made me walk (in my PE sweats..and flip flops) from weight training to a portable to get water for him because he wanted COLD water..so I walked there embarrassed so bad of my outfit..and the door was locked..so I asked mister vladimiroff or w.e and he doesnt speak english so I just came back to the weight training class. then he sent me to the future school office to get it...jeeeze! I got half of my nonsuit taken off tho! After school Kevin gave me 6 bucks..long story..but pretty much he wants to get me roses and ......yeah we will see how that goes. I went to Caits with her, and we went running 2 miles. It was so hot tho OMG I havent ever been so hot sept in soccer tryouts. we came back to her house and ate carrot sticks and split an apple. We stretched and Amber came over for a bit. She was going to big Ds house so we were gona walk together, but uncle tims friend showed up in this beater ass car and said he would drive us. Amber tried to open the door for me..but it wouldnt open and he goes "Ohh yeah it only opens from the inside..so push the window down and open it that way" haha I was like wow! then I got in and there were no seatbelts, and every single window on the whole car was cracked hella bad..the guy was puttputting along to dylans..and we stopped at 7-11, and he put ONE DOLLAR in the tank!! hahahah I was laughing soo hard. he used up the dollar and then shook the nozzle like 50 times to make sure he got every last drop. it was hillaryous. I came home and talked to Tom for a while online and then went to soccer practice. ANGIE IS ON MY TEAM AGAIN! I ran up to her and gave her a hug..no two lol..and then the coach showed up. there are 5 guys and like 25 chicks on the team. Its kinda gay. we scrimmaged in the hot ass sun from 6 30 till 7 50. it was soo fun I love soccer!!!! I came home and talked to people online and now Im fuckin hella tired cuz I was in the sun soo much today..so Im off to bed! Cassie asked me to go to Oregon with her on 4th of July!! That will be sooo much fun if my mom lets me go! OMG ahhok bed!!
:D Hillary

I got to sleep in this morning!! it was so awesome! I slept till 10 30 and then went and worked out with Eileen and Lauren. Eileen came over after we worked out till 12 30 and then Lex picked me up at 1 30 to go to her house. I kicked it there for a while, then my mom called and said she asked what I was doing. I said hangin out with Lex and she goes :WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING? DRINKING? I was like SHIT NO god. then she said she was gona come and pick me up soon..so I was like OK w.e. I went out on the tramp and me and lex were just talkin and stuff...2 hours later my mom still hadnt come so we were thinking she is trying to give me time to do something wrong, which I wont. I dont understand why she thinks that I am such a bad kid. Anyways she came to pick me up about 3 hours after she called the first time, and she told me that she wanted her car washed and she would give me my allowance if I did it. so i went out with a bucket of soapy water and a hose. I tried to hook the hose on the faucet, but I took a step back for some reason and I tripped myself on this random tree stump and I cut my foot and fell on my ass. It was embarrassing as hell but thankfully I dont think anybody saw. I washed the car and then tried to get the hose unhooked but it was stuck and everytime I tried to turn it left it looked like it was getting tighter so I turned it right more and it was moving. It never got loose tho so I got confused and went upstairs to get a monkey wrench. I grabbed something that looked like one and went back downstairs to the faucet. I started trying to clamp the things..and Dan walked up behind me and was like Hillary hahaha thats not a wrench!! it was a ruler with two little metal measuring things on the ends..omg I felt so dumb..Then he just grabbed the hose thing and turned it to the left..it came off so easy..I didnt tell him that I had been turning it right the whole time. I walked over to 3+4 park and met with Cait..and there were so many people there it was crazy. I almost got hit in the head by a baseball..but I was a smooth operator and saw it coming :D. Cait and I swinged and talked for a while, then I saw Kraigles so I said hey and we walked to my house. we made sugar cookies and pink frosting :D it was so fun! Then we played cards and watched TV and all that 'fun' stuff! at 10 we called Chantel but she wasnt home yet..so we called the twins and it was too late for us to go with them to Cold stone, so I drove cait Dan and I there and we talked to Eileen. OMG there were these two HELLA BOMB guys sitting in there I was amazed. actually, only one of them was hot but he made up for the other guys unhottness. I wish I woulda said something to him cuz he was seriously...gorgeous. ! He was lookin at me too!! but then him and his friend got up and went out to his moms car and Cait and Eileen were makin fun cuz they were like 18 still gettin rides lol so that was over. I dropped cait off at home, then came home. Chantel called and omg she is so lucky, she got 1000 dollars from her mom for her bday! I was like HOLY SHIT THATS SO MUCH..I wish I got that much money for being alive. I talked to chantel for like half and hour and then Liz called me like 10 mins ago lol but oh well Im not asleep yet so its all good. but Im hella tired so im off to work out some and then sleep :D
a funny conversation between me and Lex tonight:
Lex: if i do this.. "!" it means my mom is in the room
me: kk lol
Lex: i got faded as fuck brb
me: kk
Lex:k my mom was in here
me: u didnt do the code !
Lex: i know haha i forgot i guess
me: lol ;) its ok I understand this time
Lex: * didnt call me..its better he didnt cuz i woulda told him 2 fuck off, im in one of those moods
me: oh really are u mad at something
Lex: nope im happy
me: I think Im in like a year long one of those
me: ever since Kevin Im like fuck guys..they need to lick a tit and not mine..unless they just wana do it for fun
Lex:4 sure
me: havin fun all the way
Lex: haha
Lex: !
me: so what are you doing in social studies this week??

(*Hillary*)
I have SO MUCH HOMEWORK tomarrow!

TODAY WAS SOOO FUN! omg! I got up at 6 20 and got in my red St Thomas skirt and a black tee shirt, then I walked over to the library, and Lex picked me up. We drove down to the coffee place in totem lake, and my cousin was working the stand!!! it was soo awesome, I havent seen her since Chelan! She gave me like 2 bucks off my drink too so it was cool! WASL testing was gay..but *:** looked BOMB today and that was exciting! we switched seats in math, and I sit next to Bryn and behind Matt Henson now.....damn!! lol just kiddin hes cool..he was explaining the shit to me cuz Im a retard and I didnt get it at all. Max and I are soo slow, we were on prob 3 when the rest of the class was done up to number 8. (long probs) Ms lewis is a fuckin bitch, she took credit off my grade for 4 in-class activities that I missed when I was on the cruise..and she says that "thats what it was and thats how it is and thats why you cant get the points cuz thats just what it was" GOD she is so fuckin annoying she doesnt even make sense! in weight training, Allison Jo Kristin Stacey and I were havin so much fun tryin to do headstands and jump roping omg. I was jumpin rope with Jo and I heard this huge crash noise and I look over and Kristin was all folded over herself lol cuz she tried to do a headstand without a wall. haha, then I tried up against the wall, and Kristin asked if the wall boards moved, so I pulled one, and I ripped it out of the wall! I set it back up and pretended like nothing happened..hehe. after school, Chantel and Cait came over. We made pasta and talked and OF course laughed our ASSES off! we were talkin about something like stomachs, and we ended up in my powder room (room of mirrors) topless lol it was funny. we danced around my room for like and hour then Kristin and Liz came over at like 8. we played KIMPS :D!!!(thanks Kyle and Steven for teachin me that!) Omg we switched partners soo much because there were 5 of us so one of us had to sit out each game. it was so hillaryous! Cait used flashing us as her kimps sign! I was laughing so hard I thought I was gona pass out! and then when Kristin and Liz were partners, (twins) Liz didnt see when Kristin was tryin to get her to say Kimps, so we won and kristin jumped at liz and was soo heated! it was hella scary but funny too cuz she was soo mad! at 11ish Kristin and Liz left, and then Kevin called and said to turn on channel 77. Him and Hairydick called in the jesus channel and were on TV! OMG it was sooo funny they were makin fun of the people, mark and mary! Chantel Cait and I were gona call in but then my mom said we had to leave so at like 11 30 I took them home. I hope chantel isnt in trouble cuz she was supposed to be stayin at my house and my mom was a bitch and said no. Sorry bout that babe. I talked to Kevin...this was a little odd....

me: I am going to cold stone tomarrow :D
K: wanna buy me some and deliver it
me: nah me and chantel liz and kristin are all sharing one lol cheaper that way
me: maybe we will get two
K: o damn another party that im not invited to
me: sorry its not a party
K: yes it is
me: its 4 people walking around eating ice cream
K: so i say party
K: wats happening at da after party
me: umm I duno
K: i think if ur all not doing anything u should kick it w/ me and herrick
me: maybe I duno what is happenin
K: maybe:'( okok
K: yea so if everyone leave we cant kick it
me: no
K: ?
me: u dont wana kick it with me, but if Im with other people then u do
K: ? no i wouldnt think ud wanna
me: y
K: i donno but since ur having a party i hought we could join
me: i duno
K: o well
me: k sorry
K: just remember in the back of ur miNd that u can hit up my cell if u wanna do something cough cough
me: kevin
K: cuz we r alwayz bored
me: why dont u just call them if u wana kick it?
K: call who
me: I feel like ur using me to kick it with kristin and liz and thats fucked
K: wat im not
me: u sure
K: yea i said if U wanna kick it didnt i
me: yeah but u meant tomarrow didnt u
K: u or u all if ur w/ ppl whenever
me: ok, well I duno u should call me then next time ur bored, u know I dont like to call people
K: im alwayz bored
me: ok then call
K: yea ok i just might buddy
me: by golly gee I hope u do then
K: ok ill ttyl
me: k
K: buy
K: bye
me: buybuy
K: by
me: bi
K: im not bi
me: I am
K: .....
me: ......
me: LOL not
K: oo ok bye
me: buybuy


I LOVE MY FRIENDS! :D
oh yeah and I hope to GOD that I dont get my report card tomarrow or any time this weekend...I am screwed once it comes..I bet it will come like tuesday tho. right..night!

crash...crash...crash...into a ditch!!!
JUST PLAYIN!

Today was pretty OK..I went to school and did the WASL..when we were walking out of class..I said hey to Michaela and Ryan turned around and said Whats crackin.....like I was gona talk to him..and I just looked at him and looked back at michaela and was like umm wtf..? after school...this is what happened..
michaela came home with me,we walked to kamiakin and talked to even ryan johnson max kraig and this other guy then we walked from there to herricks and kicked it with kevin herrick and chris then we walked back to kamiakin and amanda called me so I walked to john muir and kicked it with her and danny and brandy and dylan then I walked home and Lexi came over then I walked to curves and worked out with Eileen. whew one long sentence! sorry Kode if thats kinda de ja vu..but I didnt wana write it again so I just took it outa our convo from earlier and put it here lol. working out the funniest thing EVER happened..I dont know why it was soo damn funny but I was seriously bent over a machine cuz I was laughing so hard I couldnt stand straight. I was talkin to eileen about body shapes, and I said that there is apple pear spoon and hourglass and she said that they are all fruits, not utinsils..so I asked her what my body shape is in a fruit..and she looked like she was thinking so I said "a banana pinched in the middle?" and she goes "I was thinking more like a squeezed orange.." oh my god. I dont know why it was soo funny but we were both gasping for air..anyways. I wana wear a skirt tomarrow but Im not sure..I talked to Ryan tonight and told him how I feel and shit..kinda..and I think we bitched at eachtoher and we are OK now maybe..he said he didnt call me a bitch but he thinks im a ditz and some other shit I dont even know..Kevin said I should just ignore it cuz ryan is just trying to annoy me and he's wasting my time..maybe K's right. we will see..so I told Lex that i was talkin to Ryan and I was all depressed style about some other shit that we had talked about (haha male jiggalo is better than him! {I think I really wana do it tho Lex})and then we decided that we are going to go out for jamba juice tomarrow!!!! IM SO EXCITED! I loveee lexi! we are wearin skirts tomarrow I think..my st thomas skirt whoooo hoo its gona be a high of 72F~~~ omg Im soo excited! I think Im off to pick out my outfit for tomarrow and shave my legs :D time to show off the 'tan' lol


crazy bitch....crazy bitch...crazy bitch......stupidass bitch...loco bitch...dumbass bitch...a bitches bitch...old dumbass bitch...just a bitch!....dumbass bitch

ok heres some song lyrics that are hella good..and mean a lot to me:
I need to tell you something
my emotions they confuse
Im not used to them
everything I ever said to you was the truth
Its not that I cant love, its that they dont compare to you
I need some time in right frame of mind
do you remember all the tears we have been through
I was trying to help you but in reality I needed that help for me
I loved you but now Im through no longer love you baby
I know you're listening to me
I always had an empty heart but then you filled it
its my own insecurities that killed it
the message is real and all the feelings they were heart felt
how would you feel if you exposed yourself not even thinking of the damage
or thinking you couldnt have it
I think of the love only hoping that you'll take me back
like if we love again you might love me back
we couldve loved like a fairytale
I could make you cry but not smile anymore
the worst feeling anyone has been in is loving someone but you cant even reach them
the times that we spent made me forget that I had problems
how come we fought so much? we even stressed love
when you test love it be the best love
but I dismissed love with fake hugs I ripped up your heart
Its my fault and thats why it hurts me the most
I dont know anymore so take your love back
I hope your heart will heal up
Ill see you when I see ya
I loved you but now Im through no longer love you baby


HILLARY!

I missed my soccer game today. fuck :'( damn traffic, its a coed team too..I wana meet my hot boy teammates! Chantel and Cait came over after school today and we sat and talked and laughed and had fun, then Chantel went to get her hair done and cait and I hung out, walked to Dylans and Kelseys..I got an astropop from Dylans house and then came home. Dan and I left at 6 for my game that started at 6 30, and sat in traffic until 7 10, then we couldnt find my field so I didnt get to play in the game :'( I was mad and sad and hella dissappointed. Im tired and I need to get some sleep
I talked to Kyle today!! wow I was excited cuz I thought I wouldnt ever talk to him again. It was so sad last night, I was talking to Eileen about how we will never see any of the cruise people ever again...:'( oh well..
night
Hillary

wow I duno how to tell about EVERYTHING that happened on the cruise. I guess I just gota put a list of things describing it from when we left till we got home:
lakes have lips, my mom getting her nail scissors confenscated, hot guy screaming at a man in russian and following us around the airport, 10 year olds with cell phones, red-eye flights, shoelace usher toenails and bunions! haha, running 8 miles in the minnesota airport right next to the caged in escalator sidewalk, laughing at the butt rinsing toilet in the hotel gym, guys swim team, waterfalls and the hot guy in the hot tub, shalia getting uncomfortably naked, itchy thongs, loud farts, towches, eating heart of palm, VENDING MACHINES!, something being wrong with every single pair of shoes I brought with me, millionare trip, geckos on the side of the road and my mom making sound effects to go with how they run, Eileens jokes that only she laughed at.., Eileens eyes bugging out when she saw the ship up close, layin on the back deck and sleeping in my bikini as the sun went down, HOT ROMAINIANS!!, Catalin/Donut, Eileen telling me that when I call Catalin Donut that he loses all sex appeal cuz she forgets about him and remembers that she needs a sprinkled donut, beach boys big cock:D, buffet lines, asian men cutting into our walkie talkie line in the middle of nowhere, a drunken guy with long grey chest hairs lecturing Eileen and I about enjoying life, 4 bitch fights, Kyle and Colin, Colin not knowing how to talk to girls.., Kyle being an animal killer and future murderer, playing soccer and volleyball with Kyle and Colin, staying up til at least 4 AM every night with Kyle and another guy(s) and being the first people at bfast!, sittin on lawn chairs watching for shooting stars with kyle and talking forEVER about absolutely nothing, *tickeling*, vibrators and xray machines!, STARBUCKS!, 52 united states of america.., vodka,scott, molestation and throw up on my feet, boys in the girls bathroom,Kyle and me carrying Eileen.., Kyle-tripping me into the walls at 3 in the morning, breaking my pinky, squishing my pinky nail, scraping my leg up, tricking me out in Kimps making me smash my arm into the table and scratch it, taking my dollar, getting me cherries :D, "if you cover up ur tits and body, u look 12" "I thought u were so young, and then u took off ur shirt and all u had on was that undershirt thing and I was like WHOAH SHES NOT TWELVE!" "you are one of the dumbest people I have ever met" "you are definately in the top 10 dumbest people I have ever met" "you are like top 5 dumbest people" "you are the second dumbest person Ive ever met, after my sister" "you are BY FAR the dumbest person I know" "you are the dumbest person Ive ever met, PLUS one!" "Hillary, all I have to say is..what are floaties?!", him tellin me that its not slippery and Im a wimp, then running down the side of the ship and falling/sliding on his ass into a wall HAHAHA; truth or dare jenga!, Colin- "you know u got a big red dot right there?" "you got a little pudge there, so does she!", swimming with sea turtles, beach boy!!!!, drunk guys freak dancing with other guys!, me not knowing that I was being hit on, and being a bitch to the poor guy, getting proposed to on a shore excursion, naked men in the river, me gettin on stage and dancing in a skirt, then after a loud applause, eileen tellin me that my ass was comin out of under my skirt the whole time!, strip dancing while singing to myself machomacho man and almost ripping off my earring, Juan jacking off on eileens bed with shalias magazine!, LETS PRETEND fake penis and boobs!, Kyle Scott and Steven in our bedroom and having my mom call to say we are too noisy haha, Eileen passed out on the bathroom floor talking about a 26 year olds panties, Kyle and the vaseline LOL (OMG I JUST REALIZED WHERE THAT WENT!!! KYYYYYLLLLLEEE!!!! you bad boy!), slapping eileen, then punching a guy in the face all in one swing!, working out and sounding like I was doing something much naughtier, yelling "why would it be bad to imagine his dick?! it would just make him hotter!!!" at Eileen..and not understanding why she ran away..until I turned and saw a 90 year old couple looking at me shocked...then I ran too, "mam, you have a lovely puff!"(no he was NOT talking to me), me-"ohhh like an armarillo?" Kyle-"hahahahahahaha ARMADILLO!!!!!!", Kyle- "Hillary you know ur not even on a chair, ur in between mine and urs?" me-"eh." Kyle- *shuts his eyes* my lawn chair slips out from under me, I fall on the ground and it flies up and hits him in the eye! haha...and I slept thru it all. Losing soooo many bets with Kyle..fucker, Eileen not being able to eat ONE meal the entire time without spilling something (until the very very last dinner, where I didnt see her fling anything on the ground, herself or at our hot hot hot hot waiter!), taking pictures with Catalin and him singing to me in italian!!! me and eileen colliding in front of a bunch of people and getting laughed at, bitchy 13 year old girls callin us hoes, KIMPS! ME AND EILEEN ROCK AND THERES NO DENYING IT!, Kyles jokes, Kyle- "wana see a cool card trick?!" me and eileen- "sure!" Kyle lays out the cards and says "find ur card" eileen finds it and he goes "yup thats it" me and EIleen are amazed and Steven goes "MAN WHAT THE FUCK KINDA TRICK IS THAT?!!?" haha. me-"man its sooo cold in here!" Kyle-"maybe if u were wearin shorts that actually covered some leg, u would be warmer.." lol, the allnighter we pulled, playing cards, laying down, GETTING TICKLED and scared, getting 'rhino humped' by Kyle(and scott...ewwwww), PROPELLERS and baby boats going by looking like toll booths on stirofoam, "did I get ur AIM sn?" "yeah here" "good, u better get a web cam!", hot room service man!, smelly ass bikinis and molded soap hahaha, pussing horns eeeew, ping pong!, analogies, Eileen to Shalia- "an analogy for you would be like, IM A BIG FAT COW"!!! hahaha, Eileen to me- "when people walk by and look at me and throw up, ur cleaning it up" me- "nah, we will just leave it there" Shalia-"youre supposed to say she doesnt look bad!!!" our bus running into a big post as it pulled out of the parking lot, "Its ok, my dads a dentist!", "m+M+M+M+M+M+M+M+M+M+M, I SWEAR its a drink!" , the man twitching out every time he took a chunk off of his orange in the airport, the snot blowing farting couple in front of us on the plane, and then the shuttle driver farting all the way home making us sick in the back seat.

that was a SHIT load! theres so much more but Im sooo tired! Ill tell about today in tomarrows entry, but I start spring training for soccer tomarrow and we are wasl testing at school and we had a bomb scare today on the feild! Oh and today was 420 and one of my close friends..haha celebrated and needed some help with calmin down! I love ya babe! 5 dollar eye drops..its nothin!
Skrillary
I realized today that thats the name Eileen gave me, not Hillarizzle. lol

Im Hooooome!!!! I HAD SO MUCH FUN! but I have no time to write about it now, I havent slept for almost 2 days...no good! I LOVE THE SUN! After everything went so perfect today..like PERFECT.. Ryan IMed me. Damn:

Ryan: wheres my 5 at?????
me: whos this
Ryan: oh ya this is ryan
me: why are you talking to me
Ryan: what>
Ryan: ????
me: last I heard, Im a ditzy blonde bitch who annoys the fuck out of u and I need to stop talking to you and leave you alone
me: so why are you talking to me

BTW, if u dont like me..dont pretend like you do. Thats fucked up and I really couldnt care less if u just told me u think Im a bitch ect.

then I showed that to Lex and she said:
me: thats bad?
lex: nope
lex: thats good
me: ok :D just checkin
me: lol
lex: yes
lex: he even said so 2ay b/c i was soo happy u were comin home
lex: i was prancin around
lex: and he was like i hope she stays where she is
lex: i was like fuck u
me: WHAT THE FUCK
lex: yes
me: man thats fucked
me: no..thats dicked!
Lex: yup

BEDTIME
Hillarizzle (Eileen I am actually using that name..somebody slap me!)

Famous Quote
**Its ok, my dad's a dentist**
lol Kyle

OMG I leave home in 2 hours! Today has been really really fun! Im in such a good mood! yesterday after I wrote, I went over to Chantels house, and she did my hair and we hung out and went shopping with Lynn. LOL we had the funniest time making Lynn her special grilled cheese..and Chloe farted! I got a new black string halter top bikini! Im sooo excited for tomarrow! I will be out in the sun tanning w.in the next 24 hours! I got dropped off at home at 8 30 and then I started gettin my shit together for the cruise. I am bringing soo many clothes its kinda crazy, but its ok cuz I am not breaking the luggage limit quite yet even though Im packing my purse in my carry on and calling my backpack my purse so I can have 3 bags on the plane with me lol. at school I took a bunch of tests, but I still had a really good day! Mr crowder looked down my shirt tho and that was nasty as all hell! After school, Cait and Chantel came over and we hung out and went to baskin robins and bought ice cream with nickels and dimes it was great! I really really love my friends so much!OHHH man..this guy is so sweet..I cant say who he is on here cuz he kinda..isnt supposed to say this stuff in his current 'situation':
him: hey!
me: HEY!
him: we've been seeing eachother a lot lately!
mehim: i know wow you're hot
him: lol
me: haha thanks even with my pigtails
him: even MORE in your pigtails
me: aww thanks
him: man i wanted you
me: oh really?
me: lol thanks I didnt know I looked that good today
him: i'm sorry but you look that good everyday
him: give me directions to your house and i will stop there on the way to my church...i have to go there tonight...i have something to give you
me: are u serious>?
him:yeah...sort of

well I gota go do chores and work out with Eileen cuz we are gettin in bikinis in less than a day!!! Have a GREAT spring break everyone and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANTEL!!!!!
If I get sucked into the bermuda triangle..dont be sad..because I think it would be awesome to see what happens..so if I die there, its where I would want to die neways. But if I die on the plane or on the ship (in the propellers :'() then...mourn!

HILLARY!!!



I just found something out about Ryan. Thats FUCKED up and it kinda pissed me off, as much as I could possibly be while still being in a GREAT mood!
Ill miss you all soo much!

I have sooo much to do before I leave tomarrow night, its insane! I have 5 tests to take tomarrow, I gota do a lot of extra credit for science tonight, finish a book assignment for social studies, memorize the muscles of the human body and all the work outs for weight training, do 2 spanish assignments, do a timeline assignment for mrs bitchova and study for a test in there, get all my math homework together and finished and study for my math test tomarrow, GO RUNNING like 8 miles because I feel hella fat right now, go to Chantels so she can braid my hair AND START PACKING! I just got my luggage from Lexi like half an hour ago lol. Im such a procrasinator! Today was good..I benched NINETY FIVE POUNDS!!!!!!! omg it was soo cool! even tho SOME people dont beleive me, I did! Today has nothing important that happened in it, soo yeah I guess Ill write later tonight or..tomarrow! Good job Kode on the scholarship!! big pimpin! Im off to Chantels!

I did soo much today it was crazy! I got up at 8 50 according to my alarm clock because lexis phone was vibrating to wake her up. I went to the bathroom and the clock said 9 50 and I was like..wtf...so I came back in and looked at my clock again and it still said 850 so..I asked lexi what was going on and she was like DAYLIGHT savings time! I was so confused! I slept until..11 I think..shit I duno..maybe 12. I went over to Eileens and we packed her stuff for the cruise :D that was so exciting! someone secret came to pick me up to plan a secret get together...and thats gona be fun even though I wont be there..:( I came home at 5 ish, and Michaela came over at 6 30. We walked over to safeway and then to dylans. After a bit we came back here and made extra credit posters for science. She left at 8 30, and my mom and I went back over to Eileens to talk about the cruise with her family! my mom got eileen a work out ball kit like mine, so I stayed after my mom left and Eileen and I worked out with the video. It was funny as hell! I am so cunfused about guys right now. Seriously...shit..oh well..I leave in 2 days so its not like I have much time to make any progress..unless Lex and I can figure out our plan for tuesday after school :D I am going to kidnap one of my love interests and have a good time before I leave! lol ..but then Ill just miss him more :( man..
I think its worth it tho :D Plus..michaela will owe me 5 bucks if I kiss him! *Hill*billy*fig*a*lily*

I woke up SO early this morning! It was 730, but it was soo bright outside that it woke me up. I watched MADE till 9 30 then went back to bed till 10 30 when Cait called me. We decided that we wanted to lay out in the sun, so I got ready and did chores and had Dan drive me over there. We layed out in her lawn and talked and then when the sun moved, we had to move the blanket we were on onto her driveway and lay there. haha it sucked cuz it was so hard and we didnt even get tanner! Lexi called and we all decided to go to Jamba Juice, so her and her bro cait and I went. Cait and I shared a orange berry blitz :D yuuum! Lex and her bro left, and me and Cait walked over to Target and tried on clothes. omg haha we decided to share a dressing room..and when we walked in..we couldnt even turn around it was so tiny! There was a huge post right down the middle of the room blocking the mirror, a little bench that took up half the space, and a hangy thing that cait got her hair stuck on. I fell over trying to get my shoes..it was really bad! When we were lookin thru the bras and stuff, Cait turned to look at this other rack, and a bra from another rack got caught in her hair so she had a purple lace bra swinging from her head! It was sooo funny! Then we walked over to InSpa and looked around for a while and went to the bus stop. We had one of those short ass retard busses,and there were like 9 people on it..which is pretty much a full load for that bus. Cait and I were talkin bout this guy we know, and I said he was kinda hot, and she goes "HIS DICK.." then she realized she was SCREAMING that! people looked at us wierd but yeah..he has a small dick HEHEHE. neways, Herrick+Kevin called me and asked if I wanted to hang out when I got home, so we said yes and they came over when we got here. We hung out in my room and stuff and made chicken strips. :( I was putting the frozen chicken on the cookie sheet, and when we were done there was this really tiny peice of chicken in the bag, like a mini nugget thing..so I put it in my mouth and started eating it! It was SOO nasty cuz I forgot it was frozen, so I spit it out and everyone was laughing at me. stupid me lol. Then we walked over to safeway and Kevin bought us a thing of ice cream. Dan brought out these movies for us to watch, and I picked one up to open its plastic case thing, and it was soo hard to open, so I pulled REALLY hard..and it broke open and I broke off the top thing of the video! (it was rented)..so I just set it back on the tape and pretended nothing happened. I hope noone notices..lol. I walked on Kevin and Hairydicks back to try and crack em for them but it didnt work lol..oh well it was fun stuff. I just drove them and cait home and now Im waitin for lex to show up from kickin it with Chris and Nick..she is spending the night
I LEAVE IN 3 days!

VaGINA
*my new nickname from hairydick, since I call him that.lol*

Today was really fun, but it seemed SOO long! It was a half day, so before school Chantel Eileen and I went into ms abendrolf(?)'s room and hung out, then I went to MATH class :( borrring. We had that class from 7 50 till 9 15 and it was not cool, sept I got my quiz back and I got 100%!!! I was so happy. Then we had a 15 minute passing period, but somehow I still managed to be about 5 mins late for Science. In science, we took notes from 9 30 till 10 50..:( So yeah..today schoolwise sucked. Lex, Nick Chris and I went over to Chris's house for a lil bit and then Lex and I went to Daniels. Sean and him were there and me sean and daniel were kickin it on daniels bed, then Lexis mom called and said we had to get to her house fast so she could do my hair. Daniel and I went in his car and Lex drove hers, Sean went somewhere else. Celeste started on my hair at like 11 30 and we had to dye it like 4 times to get the color we wanted..lol but I like the way it looks now, its a med-light brown in the back with blonde highlights framing my face. When I finished FINALLY at 2 30ish, Lex and I changed into bikini tops and shorts and washed her moms and her cars. OMG we were out there and I had on these black velour shorts that were SOO tiny they were underwear style, and I was gettin down and dirty (lol) washin a tire, and this moving truck pulled up by lexis driveway and the guys just sat there watching us for like 5 minutes..then they turned the truck around and got out and waved haha. Lex and I had a serious woman to woman talk...lol but OF COURSE by the end..I got lex to laugh through her tears..me-"Lex, dont let neone know about it tho cuz..its just not worth it"
Lex-"I wont let neone know, cuz Im a smooth operator"
me-"HAHA WHAT?!?!"
Lex-"haha"
me-"well if she was trying to, she woulda said something like 'he tried to reach up my shirt and touch my tiny nibblums'"
Lex-"HAHAHA Thats why youre my best friend..!"
I left her house at 4 30 or something and met up with Eileen, we walked to my house and kicked it here, then Chantel came over and we all hung out and talked. My mom said she doesnt think that we are going to chelan this year and I flipped a bitch and I want to die. SHIT I have to go to chelan..if I dont go..Im going to have the worst summer.
Kristin Liz Chantel Eileen Kyle and I went to the play tonight. It was pretty good..sept Russells girl was GLARING at me for a while..that was really scary! He came up and talked to me for a bit afterwards and that was wierd cuz she was standing right there...lol..oh well I guess she doesnt have a right to be all jealous so its not my prob.
Well Lexis on the phone and we are talkin plus I wana go get some sleep so I can dream about my loverboy again :D
*Hillary*

I was so busy yesterday and today I loved it! Yesterday after school, Chantel and Cait and I went to Safeway and got a bunch of stuff for baking! There was this old guy in there and he asked us to help him find sugar free pudding, it was soo cute! We came back to my house and spent like 3 hours baking stuff, we had a problem mixing food coloring and getting...brown instead of maroon cookies..then we baked Chantels cake, and listened to music and talked and laughed and just had fun. They left, and I cleaned the kitchen up and Eileen and Evan came over. We walked to Kamiakin with my tray of brown and yellow cookies :D and had the wrestling banquet thing. it was fun..but kinda boring at the end. OMG so I made Eileens dad have bad thoughts...like sexually. oh god. so we are sitting at the table eating dinner (eileen me and her dad) and he asked "so are u guys having flashbacks of the school?" and I was like "no, just of the bathroom" and he looked around confused and was like "bad memories in there huh..?" lol,(I meant because all the chicks ran there when drama was going on) but then later I said "man my butt hurts.." and her dad just kinda looked at me. Then I thought ok that could sound wrong..so I added "and my inner thighs" and he just turned red and looked down and almost choked himself laughing. :( lol it was bad..then I tried to explain it was from doing squats..wow. I went home and I was going to bed, and I was gona see what was on this tape I had in the player so I turned it on and was listening to this caller who called into the station and I was thinking, man I bet they could prerecord stuff and replay it years later and noone would realize, then on the tape they did the weather thing and they were like "its going to be in the mid 70s tomarrow" and I was like OMG! and I got up and got out a skirt outfit and everything to wear today, then when I was finished I layed back down, and I was like....wait...that was a tape! HAHA I felt SO stupid!
Today we had block periods at school and it was a really good fun day! I lost my 5 dollar bet with Ryan tho :'( that wasnt cool. In LA, me and him just sat and talked for the whole hour and a half, it was really fun but I laughed so hard at myself and made myself look so retarded it wasnt cool. He says Im the funniest person he has ever met tho so thats cool I guess lol. After school, Lexi and I went down to the gym(and walked past *EDIT#4* and I think I orgasmed..he is SO fucking HOT!!) and changed in the CROWDED ass locker room to do a work out, and then we went over and Mr P said that the weight room was closed. :( that sucked, so we went back and RECHANGED and left. Up by the office Nick was talkin to Doug, so we went up there and talked about New years eve (see that entry if you wana know what Im talking about) and doug got mad that he missed it lol. Bryce showed up and him nick lex and I went over to chris siemers house. we hung out there for a while, and I laughed at Chris's ugly pug. it had a diaper on!! it was soo cute tho lol I was about to die laughing. Lex and I left, and she dropped me off at home and then I slept and got up and went to curves to work out with Eileen. I came home and my mom was askin me why I slept after school and said its 'suspicious'..what the fuck! Tomarrow is a half day and Im excited! Lexis mom is gona dye my hair! and Im going to the play with kristin, liz, chantel, lexi, eileen, and maybe alisson. If I get lucky, Im stayin at lexis for the night too...but we will see about that one!
I LEAVE IN 5 DAYS!! whoooo!!!Kode wants me to say hi to all you lucky readers out there!
Spring break is gona be so much fun!!!!
**Hillary!!**

here is something to read and laugh at and NOT TAKE SERIOUSLY!

me: ew no he is nasty
Lex: well dick is dick hahahah
me: little dick isnt big dick haha
Lex: hahahahhaha tttrruuueeee
me: do u think hes little?
Lex: ya im mad (edit) and i couldnt kik it
me: yeah Im sorry u couldnt
Lex: ya maybe
Lex: i want (edit#2)
me: haha
Lex: i wish he was like (edit#3)
me: I want (edit#4) and (edit#5)
Lex: he wants me bad
me: yeah I know lol.. you know what
me: we should invite all the guys we like over to ur house one night with 10 bottles of jack daniels and some lube and condoms..and have a HUGE orgy party
Lex: hahhahahah we should
Lex: i think that should be our weekend gaol
me: it should be!some major dick before I leave!
Lex: totally lets do it haha get it
Lex: do it
me: yeah HAHA
Lex: haha lame
Lex: we should plan it out
me: yeah we should.. ok so Im gona ask (edit#4) tomarrow..and TELL (edit#5) to bring some hard cock and make out ready lips
Lex: do it for sure!
me: and u can tell (edit#2) and call (edit)
Lex: ok (edit#2) 2mrw (edit) sat
me: and then we can have (edit#6) come too cuz he is hot but just...a little wierd..so we will put a bag on his head

I want everyone to know thats a joke convo..we ARENT serious!