I think that my TV just slapped me in the face. Im not even sure if I will post this or not because its pretty personal. But I just have to write about it because my heart is pounding soo fast and Im kinda freaked out. So I was watching Oprah just now, and there was a commercial on for the news tonight. All the sudden this picture showed up that I was obsessed with back when I had an eating disorder. I think this girl has the best body Ive ever seen in my life..it was the background of my computer for more than a year, I had her on my binder and I of course wanted to be her. Anyways, people used to tell me that she was the most disgusting thing they had ever seen because she was sooo skinny. So when I saw this girl on TV..it brought back a million memories at once. Which is wierd because I had already been thinking about my ED less than an hour before. They said tonight they are going to be talking about the lifetime dangers of eating disorders. I guess Ill just leave it at that so it isnt too personal for me to post. It just pointed out the fact that my perception of peoples bodies is really distorted.

Yesterday:
I went to school, at lunch Kristin Liz Allison Helen and I went to Costco and got berry smoothies. Helllla people from school were there, so we talked to them, then came back to school. We were running late for 5th period, so Kristin and I sprinted into third period 5 minutes late.Then I realized that I forgot my purse in her car. After 5th she gave me her car keys so I could go get it, and then I was supposed to call her and she would meet me at the door of her class. But when I called her, she didnt get it, so I walked into the health class..and couldnt find her cuz I was looking in the middle front..and then she stood up in the FAR BACK CORNER and so I had to walk in front of everybody staring at me lol. It didnt help that mr Kjolso hated me when I was his student. When school got out, I went straight to work. Skyler and I went through some training stuff together, and I think I am now an official server!! TIPS! lol..At 5:30 I went straight from work back to school for my SAT prep class. Oh my god I cant even explain how boring that was, so I left after 1 and 1/2 hours and got myself a side of beans from Taco Time..yummy! When I got home, my mom told me that we are moving on Sunday! Its so soon and we are NOT ready at all, at either house..we will see how this is going to work out

Today:
I woke up at 7:20..probably not such a good plan since school starts at 7:50..and I forgot to say happy birthday to my mom before I left..but anyways, at lunch Cait and I went to her house and had cheese tortellini and V8 splash. yummmmmmy! I took Allison home after school, and now Im home. I think I should wash my car since its sunny outside, but its still cold..so I probably wont. I cant wait until it is sunny AND hot outside!! Skirt season!

Tomorrow:
We only have 4 classes tomorrow and a long RebTime..So the day is going to go by fast. Then after school Caitlin and I are going shopping for these hella cute shoes and she wants a purse. Im so excited! I havent been shopping for so long, I dont even remember the last time.

Friday:
HALF DAY! I duno what Im doing after school tho..so if you wana hang out you should give me a call ;) Our house phone is now disconnected, so you gota call my cell.

Hillary