I used to write in this thing religiously. Every day. Maybe even twice a day, if I had that much to say. But now it is like a weekly occurance. Maybe Im just getting too damn cool for the internet and my computer. HA! yeah right. I dont know why I havent been writing in here for that last month, but I couldnt have written if I WANTED to the last couple days. Dan took my computer away on Monday after noon. Well, my computer power cord to be exact. Basically life is going as expected. But one wierd thing,

When I was younger I used to listen to adults talk and I noticed that they would make gestures and gives sideways glances at times in conversations when they didnt feel comfortable disclosing certain information. Like they had some huge hidden secret locked inside their minds. I always wondered why I could never have that, why nothing cool and secret ever happened to me. Im just an open person I guess, I dont see a reason to hide my problems from other people when if I have the guts to expose the issues, other people may well learn from them. Well, recently some things have been happening to me that I am fully content with keeping locked inside. In a way, it is making me realize that I am growing up and becoming more mature. I started to understand that if the world knows every little thing about you, 1) there will be no desire to learn more and 2) you wont have anything that you can call your own. Even the workings of your mind are leaked out into society. You are a nothing. Anyways, these things that have been happening to me are in both my family life, personal life and friendships. They are happening in the way I look at other people.


The highlights of my week so far:

Sunday- ran my ass off at the gym and it felt great.
Monday- major LOWlight of my week. To say the least. But I saw Russell in the parking lot of Top Foods wearing a banana costume! He told me about his play on Friday called West Side Story at a community college. Now all I have to do is find someone to go with me and figure out exactly where it is playing.
Tuesday- I felt extremely exposed. I worked with Chantel for the first time. I gave Skyler my # and am hopefully going to get him to come to the play with me.
Today- I completely cleaned out the interior of my car. COMPLETELY. It took me 2 hours


Tomorrow it is supposed to be 80 degrees. And it is the last day of the school week. And I think I am wearing a skirt for the first time this school year. And I SERVE at work, (tips!)
Friday- shopping with Shalia in the day. then going to Russells play ?


Hope everybody is having fun in the sun!

Hillary