If you have ever read a post and thought that you should give me some advice, but you just decided not to for some reason, now is NOT the time to keep your ideas to yourself!!!! I neeeed advice on the thing I bitch about in this post, so leave me a comment! All you have to do is click on the little "post comment" link at the bottom of this entry.

Monday- school, work, gym. exactly the way things were supposed to go, except Caitlin didnt come with me to the gym. at lunch Kristin Liz Allison Helen and I went to helens. haha we had a little party before class started again. it was awesome.

Today- school..at lunch Kristin Liz Allison and I went to K+Ls house. we had the best burritos and quacamole (actually it was just rice in a tortilla), but we always have the best food at that house so I dont know what Im talking about..Kristin almost got SOO mad at me cuz she thought I sent a bitchy ass text message to Nick. it was scary, and then after school I started to go over to Lexis house. But my car broke down 2 times. TWO times on the drive from Juanita to Woodinville. Not cool at all, but Lex and I took my car to her daddy to fix it, and then we picked up Rhys. We went back to Lexis so Jessica could come get some clothes for an interview and then we went and watched Daniel David and Kevin#2 in their last soccer game of the season. They tied..I came home at like 8PM, but then I got lost coming back from Kingsgate so I didnt get home till 8 30. It was very sad, I had to turn around 2 times .

So I am in a very bad predicament. Very bad. But then when I start thinking about it, I tell myself that it doesnt really matter. Okay let me explain.
I like 2 guys equally. But that 'equally' is a lot. But they are totally different people. I know that I dont want to have a boyfriend right now, but Ive liked them both ever since the first time I met them, or at least saw potential. Sept, Ive known one of them since january, and the onther one just a few weeks.The one that I have known for longer is involved in a long term relationship though, and he is much older. The one Ive just recently met is single, but he is is a sophyomore. I have a LOT in common with the older one, and we flirt CONSTANTLY, but then I found out about hisgirlfriend of 8-months. Now Im dying to know what she looks like. I wonder about it all the time, I dont know why it matters, I guess I just want to know if Im his type or WHAT...I was talking to the older one today, and I said something like "well all the other guys do that.." and he said "Im not like OTHER guys.." in a really wierd flirty way. When he says stuff like that, its when I get confused if he is flirting with me or just making a wierd comment. and then I get to thinking I have a chance with him. But I dont think I really do. Then this other guy, oh god I dont even know what to say. Im pretty sure its just a school girl crush..but I cant stop thinking about him. And I think we could like eachother a lot and all, but there are a bunch of things about him that would bring back problems like I had with Kevin#1. The wierd thing about it is, neither of these guys are my 'typ' in the looks department. I started liking them both because of something they said or did on the day I met them and I havent forgotten them because of the one little thing. When I met the older one, he told me that he has a really strong beleif that is one of my strong beleifs, not religious; so I was like AUTOMATICALLY interested. I think it is a mutual thing cuz we always can sit and talk about it. The more recent one , the younger, was realllly polite and funny when I first met him, but then we accidentally got into a deep discussion about reputations cuz we had opposing ideas about it. He made a really good point when I said that reps dont matter. something about how he wouldnt ever want to be thought of as a dishonest or untrustworthy person. Seriously the minute those words came out of his mouth it was like BAM HILLARY ALERT. it was like a huge lightbulb went off in my head or a megaphone blaring "THIS ONES A KEEPER!" and from that moment on we keep having really goood conversations.


The reason I am mad that this wont get off my mind is cuz I dont think I really have a chance with either of the guys, so even if I did decide which one I wanted to go for-(even though I dont want to GO FOR either of them..)- it wouldnt matter cuz neither of them want me. So I should save myself the embarrassment and just keep it to myself. But obviously Im not doing that..lol. Anyways one more thing about today


Kenny Chesney went and married Renea Zellwigger. That fat faced bitch. Im so pissed off!

Hillary