I think I want to move to another school if we move far away. Im sick of the people around here and I guess I think it would be better somewhere else where people dont know me.

It feels like Herrick coming home this week was just so we could end our friendship in person or something. After this week, I dont think I am ever going to see him again because life is going to take us our seperate ways. Kevin is totally ruining this for me and I hate him for it. I was going to just let Herrick do his own thing this week and I'd be happy that at least I saw him at the airport, but I went out to dinner with Eileen tonight, and he showed up at Coldstone. He came and hugged me and said he loved me and thought we should go get married. Of course right after that Kevin silently ruined the whole situation by sitting at a different table, not talking to ANYBODY and then ignoring me when I asked him what they are doing tomorrow. I finally got so pissed off about it, I got up and went home. The only reason me and Kevin tried to be friends again was so that Herrick could have a good time with us both when he was here, but now out of nowhere Kevin is being a fuckhead and not letting me hang out with him. THe worst part about it is that Herrick doesnt seem to really mind.

Whatever. Today I worked out for 2 hours and packed more stuff in my room. I took all my shelves down, packed up my sterio and did ALL of my laundry. Then I went to dinner with Eileen and saw Herrick and Adam and faggotasskevin.

Tomorrow morning the real estate agent is coming over and putting a price on our house cuz he didnt come last time. Then Eileen is coming over and we are working out and then going to the mall.

Im so sad about Herrick, I almost wish he would just go back home so I wouldnt have to deal with this every day for the next week.


Hillary

If I dont stop liking this guy soon, I might go crazy! It has been almost a month and a half and he is like the most untouchable guy in the world..but of course I cant stop liking him until he likes me back. Ugh