in less that 12 hours, I will have restarted my role of being a bored highschool student. How depressing...anyways Im gona make a list of all the fun things Ive done this summer and all the things I learned with the experiances, cuz Im a fag like that.

Fun Things:
-Sleeping in really late
-Swimming at Chris's pool
-Eating Crunch-n-Munch with Amanda and Rita at the Mariners game while a guy streaked across the field!
-Fireworks and beer, watching Chris catch the neighbors lawn on fire! haha
-Sitting under a blanket watching fireworks with my friends
-Going to Thursday night movies at the Brewery
-Being called Bridget for over a week by a girl I was babysitting..Ive known her for EVER!
-Doing yoga workouts on my workout ball with Eileen while Chantel and Caitlin watched and laughed histaricly.
-Lookin at the hot guy at Evans swim meet, and playing the solitare game
-Getting scared shitless by a subliminal weight loss CD
-Having a fondue party with Eileen Chantel and kevin..we are the best fondooers ever! we wont talk about how it made us all feel sick..
-Having a horrible day, the worst day in history, and then finding out the next day that it was Friday the 13th
-Staying up until 2 in the morning with Kevin and Chantel playing cards in my room. When a parent came, I tried to turn off the lights with my remote control but just ended up turning them off and on over and over again. HAHA
-Completely out of the blue, buying some hair dye and dying my hair BLACK!
-Going to Olive Garden with the girls and having a bitch bad waitress. So we all decided to leave her like a penny tip, and then when we left Chantel told us she left three dollars! Grr
-JUMPING OFF THE ARBOREDUM BRIDGE WITH KRISTIN LIZ ALLISON AND CAITLIN! Omg that was like the biggest rush of adrenalyn I had alllll summer!
-Dying Eileens hair in her garage because we didnt want to stain the bathroom
-Calling every single restaurant from here to timbucktoo with Eileen asking if they are hiring.
-Going night swimming at the beach with Stacey Kevin and Chris
-Cutting Chris's hair into a mohawk!!!
-Cutting Kevins hair FINALLY after waiting for seriously 2 years
-Eileen and I making a shadowpuppet show for ourselves at my grandmas house around 2 in the morning
-Trying to set up camp in Lake Chelan..hahaha
-Gettin hit on by a 21 year old guy for a week straight and ...ew theres nothing else to say
Boating!
-Panting like dogs on the floor of my living room with kristin and allison to a yoga show! haha
honking kevins pussy ass horn at Adam
-Going out to lunch at Godfathers!! (orrrrgasm!)
-Me and Kevins late night star gazing lol

--AND SO MANY MORE!--

Learned:
-It's really hard to let go when one of your best friends moves to another state
-My mom is a 'party pooping bitch'
-Clint is all about gettin the pussy
-Really hard workouts are the best feeling ever
-You gota go to hella fucking interviews before anybody will hire you
-I can run an 8 minute mile, and then go work out for an hour afterwards without dying!
-Im still young, I have plenty of time to acheive what I want and find love in who I want
-Azteca closes at 10 30, even if you are coming from a salsa club in the middle of the night
-I am a good singer/songwriter (watch out for the hit single, evan and kevin and jon WHOO!)
-Its easy to pop a workout ball...
-Make sure you are calling the right place when you call someone with a made up a story about how you and your fat self popped a workout ball. It could end up being a flower shop instead of the manufacturer..
-Guys shouldnt be allowed to throw fits and be little bitches EVER!
-Black long curly hair is UGLY
-Never give up hope
-Dont wear a thong into a tanning bed..
-Sometimes people are high when they test the directions on how to put up a tent
-If something is real..it wont fade after a couple months....(and it sure didnt!!!)
-I am a strong person and I am capable of getting what I want if I apply myself


Hillary

Why should I always be wondering and worried about if Im hurting his feelings? If you turned the tables, Kevin wouldnt give a shit if he did something mean to me to get his way. For example, when we broke up, the circumstances were completely miserable for me in more ways than just in our relationship, but he thought he was doing something that would make himself happier, so he didnt care how bad it hurt me. When I think about it, its always about the other person. I never do anything for me if I think that doing so will make somebody else uncomfortable, even if it means sacrificing my own wants/needs/beleifs. Its about time I confront some of the things that are keeping me from being really happy.

-Kevin and I will be just friends no matter how hard he tries, at least until I want him back
-I wont let any more guys like Wes push me around or take advantage of me
-Im not gona be too scared to say no to things I dont want to do
-Im NOT going to be scared to go after and get what I want. :)

Anyways, today I spent a lot of time doing absolutely nothing. I talked to Lexi on the phone and cleaned and shit. At 6, I went to Chris' house, and him and I went swimming. We swam till 8 and then went back to his place and started watching the VMAs with his little brother. Adam called me, and he came over, then we all (besides the lil bro) came to my house. We watched the show here and talked and had fun. I was expecting to do something hella fun tonight cuz its the last non-schoolnight of summer, but I think I would have rather been doing nothing with them.

Tomorrow Im going running in the morning and then Im supposed to go to an interview thing at the Outback Steakhouse (where Kristin and Liz work) with Cait. That would be sooo fun to work with them! And then Im supposed to be going somewhere important with Kevin, but he kinda brushed me off on that..so we will see. If not.....there could be some big issues coming up. And then I need to go to the Brown Bag cafe and get an application, because they are hiring too! So much to do on the last day of summer! And none of it should be fun..Oh well at least I wont be at school! lol. Anyways Im fucking tired as all hell, so Im gona hit the hay!


**Hillary*

Yesterday I hung out with kevin, then at night him and caitlin came and hung out. Then Allison came over and spent the night. Today allison and her mom and I went shopping at northgate for a few hours, then I came home and went back out shopping with kevin and ameer. then we went to ameers andwatched this american style MXC...but it wasnt that great. At 10 20ish we went to see Napolean Dynomite or whatever, and its pretty damn funny.
"I think you just ripped off my mole" hahahaha
Anyways, I have a lot to think about and obviously not much to say. night



I sit and think about all the things I wish you knew, but then you start talking to me, and my mind goes blank. All I can do is nod and turn away :-\ thoughtful night- Hillary

Today I got up at 7 30 to go to the dentist. Actually, the REASON I was woken up was because my mom came into my room completely high on some sort of pain killers (she got them prescribed for skin cancer surgery). I hear :Hillary, Im borrwoching a shizrt: and so I just made a moaning noise like shut up and get out of here. The next thing I hear her say, from her powder room to nobody in particular, is "Ill have you know, this isnt my best color" and then I heard a big crash and my mom go "hOOONneeyyyy!" I thought, ' either we arent going to the dentist, or Im driving illegally..'
So permitless, I drive us to my dentist office, my mom gets called back, and then this guy that came in after us gets called back. Usually my sister and I go in right next to eachother, but she wasnt there so I figured that I was gona be next to my mom. So I sit there and read a magazine back to back, then another one, then I go to the bathroom, and THEN out of complete bordom I strike up a conversation with the guys mom thats sitting next to me. After about and HOUR my mom comes out and is like, "oh, ur already done?" I go "NOPE I havent even been called back yet.." loudly enough for the desk lady to hear. So my mom was like whatever Im gona out to the car and put on my makeup, Ill be back in a while. Then the woman I had been talking to starts talking again and the clerk joins in and we all talk for like 20 more minutes about the drive test. FINALLY the lady is like "Hillary..did you think you have an appointment today?" And I thought she was kidding so I was like "haha yes..!" And she told me that I really dont have an appointment and that my sister, being her lovely self had called in and cancelled my appointment yesterday. My mom started yelling at ME for it, and then I had to schedule an actual appointment for Sept 15. at 9 AM.
So then we leave the dentist and go to costco to get a blow up bed. Then we went to Tai Ho and had lunch. I got mongolian chicken, yuuum! Then we came home and Kristin Liz and Allison came over. We watched TV and talked and stuff, and played with my cats of course! Then they ate my leftovers cuz they are so bomb I had to share. Kristin and I found out that we have 5th period together this year!!!! YAY! Herrick called and I talked to him for a little while, he is doing good down/over in Virginia.
I have a funny story, wow...maybe you guys reading this will just think that we are all freaks, but we were looking through my OnDemand channels and I showed them this yoga show where a girl gets on her knees and starts panting like a dog. Its suppost to cleanse your body or something, so then we all ended up on the ground doing it with her..seeing if it did anything. I was laughing soo hard I dont think I even got one 'pant' in. lol. SO then they left at like 4 30 for volleyball tryouts. They called me and told me that they made it!! GOOD JOB GIRLS!
Then I went to Kamiakin to run. I set my phone down so I could run without holding onto it, and then on my second lap around the track I saw these two old ladies huddled around where my phone was. I was like, hmm old people checking out my phone..lol thats wierd. So I went up to them and they were saying that they thought someone had lost it and they were going to try and find me or call me or something..so I took it from them and decided to just run with it. lol. Sarah Larsons dad was there and I talked to him for a while, AND I ran into Nick Mackey on the way home. It was the most social run Ive ever been on! lol.
Anyways now I duno what Im gona do but, Im done writing in here.

Hillary! :)

Today we had orientation at school...that was cool. Kevin Ameer and I got there at 11 ish, and I saw a lot of people I havent seen since school got out (including you-know-who) :) and then Ameer Kevin and I went 0ut to lunch. after eating we went to mills music and I played drums for the first time since like 8th grade, I totally suck now.. I came home and cleaned the house and shit. Since my room was clean and passed inspection (literally my mom inspects it), she LET me have my school supplies. haha, she told me that I couldnt have them until my room was clean and she thought that was going to modivate me.So then tonight I went to Allisons. We looked through all her clothes and then just sat and talked and watched tv for the night. It sounds boring but I had fun. I have a dentist appt tomorrow :'( I hate/fear the dentist soo much! But so far, no cavities! I hope I didnt just jinx myself...anyways, phone time!

SEE THE POST ON DECEMBER 30. IT EXPLAINS TONIGHT PERFECTLY

ITS WHY YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL BEING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE LIKE THEM. THEY ARENT AFRIAD TO DO SHIT LIKE THAT TO YOU IF IT GIVES THEM SOME SORT OF ADVANTAGE.

FUCKING TWO FACED BITCHES

All I ask for in a friend is honesty. Why is that so hard to come by?

Its been soo long since I wrote in here! Soo I dont remember what I did before I left for Chelan, but Eileen spent the night at my house Friday night, and then in the morning we went to Caits and got her and then went out to breakfast with my family at petosas in Monroe. It was shitty shitty SHITTY food, but after we ate, my mom sent us girls out to the car to get something, and on the way back in..I saw the guy from the swap meet that gave me all the jewelry. I was like OH MY GOD!!! and I ran into the restaurant. I told my mom and then she made me go over to him at his table and say hi and thank him and show him that I was wearing the shit. AKWARD!! Then we drove up to Chelan. When we got there, me and Eileen and Cait started putting up the gazebo (trying) but my mom kept telling us we were doing it wrong. DJ(my gmas hairdressers son) and his friend Wes just sat in the lawn watching us as we struggled to put the thing up for at least half an hour. Finally I figured out how it was suppost to be put together and told my mom to just let me do it my way. We got it together, and by then we all looked like sweaty ugly stupid people. So we went to the bathroom, put on our bikinis and headed to the beach. I cant remember anything really in order after that, sept sometime that day, DJs friend Wes started hitting on us. We couldnt figure out which one of us he was into..but it became apparent when he called Eileen over and told her that I was "sexy".. Then he started REALLY laying it on thick and I had to laugh at him a lot of the time. For example, I went down to the beach with Eileen and Cait, and then Eileen and I came back for something and I had on my hawaiin bikini. I sat down at the picnic table and he came over and was like "soo whats up Hillary? You look really hawaiin in that bikini" COME ON!! That night we all hung out, and I think this was the night that we were all sitting around and wes out of nowhere told me "hillary I think we should take a walk so we can talk" and I was really scatred but nobody said that I couldnt go so I had too...so he walked me to the bathroom and was telling me how he really likes me and not to be suprised if he kissed me that night and then he asked if I would want to talk to him after Chelan. I was like ummmmm sure I guess...so he got kinda scary and was like "well Im planning to come to your house and visit you and your friends are too obsessed with the whole age thing (he is 21). I mean if I come to your house one day and my car just happens to break down and your mom says that I can sleep on the couch, thats her giving consent for us to be together." I was like WHOA thats going a little too dar pal lol but I just laughed at him and went back over to everyone. Im going to just put a little sentence in here about my moms insanity. She was completely crazed during the whole time she was there. But she did just find out she has skin cancer so I guess its understandable to a degree...Anyways, since she had cancer, we had to pack up and come home on Tuesday. Wes called my cell and left a message on my voice mail by 8 in the morning saying that I should call him and he missed me and blah blah..but I didnt know how he got my number.We drove home and dropped Cait and Eileen off and then my mom went to her appt. Kevin came over, and I washed his car and then we went over to Eileens house. My mom called me and told me that they just took her cancer off and that we could go back to chelan maybe. So me her and dan went out to dinner to 'celebrate'. Except me and Dan werent talking to eachother so it was akward. He told my sister and everyone that I had thrown a hissy fit and MADE my mom go to chelan even tho she didnt want to and that I was being selfish and my sis had called me to yell about it. When I told my mom she made him appologize and when he did, he was SUCH an ass about it I couldnt even beleive. So I came home and passed out at 7. I woke up the next morning at 7 and made plans to go back to chelan without my mom.That day Wes called me at my house for no reason and was just talking and I was trying to get off. Finally I got off and me and kevin went out to lunch and then swimming at his sisters pool. Then we went to his house and watched secret window. We picked Eileen up on the way to my house and she spent the night. We headed back up to Chelan in the morning with Carolyn driving, and right before we entered the town, we got pulled over and she got a ticket for speeding. The second trip to chelan was pretty damn fun! we went out on a boat and hung out with people and tanned and wow...I dont know why it was so fun lol. and Ive wrote so much I dont want to keep talking..but saturday morning, we got up and chris drove us home. Yesterday I cleaned out my whole room and reorganized erverything and today I did more of the same. Then Eileen and I went running about 2 miles and watched the olympics. Now Im home and I need to start getting my outfit for tomorrow picked out, because I have an interview at The Keg in the afternoon. Hopefully Ill get a damn job soon, Im getting really sick of looking! Alright well Ive written hella in here, so Im out.

Hillary! :)

Oh one more thing, we bought new couches today. Ones a chaise and ones a normal big couch. Im excited, plus we decided that we are gona paint my room baby blue during winter break and that I can get some chairs in my room cuz its not cool sittin on the ground in here when people are hangin out.

I cant beleive its already Thursday. I dont remember doing ANYTHING exciting since I got home from Anacortes....Tuesday I got up and went to Curves, then did nothing all day and then went to soccer practice at night. When I got home, Kevin and I went to see the village. I went to his house for about an hour afterwards, and then came home and read some of this book my grandma let me borrow called 'fit or fat'. I understand now why I cant float!! I guess that if you have a lot of muscle, its hard to float! sept..maybe I just dont know how to float..Anyways, Today I got up and had a big issue with my mom..I definately hate her. Then at 11 I went to Curves and worked out with Eileen. I think I decided that I like those dogs that are all saggy faced and have saggy ears too. I was coming home from working out, and I heard a dog like crying or whatever dogs do when they make sad noises. So I walked over and saw one of the saggy faced things on some stairs. I started talking to it and petting it, and this guy came out and was like staring at me..it was really scary so I just kinda smiled and stood back up. he was like "just leave him alone", not mean..but not jokingly either. I said "what?" and he goes, "he's not hurt or anything, he let his ears sit in his water bowl while he was drinking so he has to sit out here till they dry" I thought that was soo funny cuz I never imagined a dogs ears like floating around in the water bowl while it drinks..lol. So yeah thats why I like those dogs. I spent the day CLEANING omg..shitty. I was actually in the mood tho, so I did ALL this laundry, and I washed my pissed on duffel bag(dont ask) for Chelan!! Today (tomorrow..?) I am gona finish cleaning my room after I go to Curves in the morning. Then Im calling this restaraunt cuz I guess they are hiring, and I NEED a job! And THEN, we are going to the movie in the park again. That will be fun I think :) Then Friday I have this new babysitting job for some people in Redmond, so Ill be babysitting all night..and then....yes...thats right....

L A K E C H E L A N ! ! !

OMG its gona be SOO FUN! Well..I am talkin to people online so Im gona go and continue with that :)

heres an idea of the stupid things people say to me...

Chris SaTaNic734: lets all go to this chicks party
Chris SaTaNic734: i jus met her

Hillary

I went to Anacortes with Eileen this weekend. It was so fun! First we got there and Eileen met my gparents, and then she passed out on the couch for the entire night..lol but me and my grandma watched CSI and ColdCase Files all night. at around 12:30, Eileen and I headed up to bed..LOL but we didnt sleep. She was really awake because she had slept for a long time already, so we talked and talked and talked, and then I think we were really sleep deprived because we started making shadow puppets in the wall..and we did it for like 2 hours. we were laughing sooo hard, I think we woke up the whole house. Then at 3ish we went to sleep. The next day we got up at 11:20 and went downstairs. My mom and Gma ditched us instead of waking us up to go to the arts fair with them, so we got some cerial(no milk) and started getting ready. My gramps dropped us off downtown after we were ready and we walked through all the exhibits and stuff for like an hour. It got boring SO FAST! we bought some curly fries and they were sooo huge it was like a foot high mountain of fries! Then we went to my aunts house and Eileen met my aunt Eileen. We all talked and were bored for a long time and then I met this little boy that Michaela*my cuz* is in love with. He is a cutie, but his name is wolfgang. After that we went back to the house and loaded the RV for CHELAN! yay Im so excited! (Eileen is going!) My gma took us out to eat at this Pizzaria thing and we got it to go..but I got this salad...it was SOOO BOMB! I couldnt beleive it. it was salad with crumbled feta and olives and salami and peperoni and banana peppers..I forgot what it was called but..anyways, lol, after we digested, Eileen and I walked from my gmas to my aunts house and then went to tugboat park, which is a park on the beach. We ran for 20 minutes and then walked ALL the way back to my grandparents house. It took us 2 and a half hours to do that all..it was crazy. The next day we got up and went SHOPPING! We drove to Bellis Fair with my grandma and ate breakfast at OCB (hell yeah!). We shopped all day, and I got 4 pairs of pants, 3 shirts and a skirt for 109$!! At night, we ate dinner and then Eileen and I went running for 25ish minutes. Then we did NOTHING for the rest of the night that I can remember..and this morning we cleaned house and came home. Kevin and I went and saw Little Black Book...and I reallly liked it, but he didnt pay attention. Go figure..then later at night Chris and him came over and we made a pizza and watched TV with Dan all night. Now Im gettin ready for bed, cuz Im going to Curves in the morning so I need to be well rested :)
Chelan is on SATURDAY! Im sooo excited OMG!


4 days till we leave for Chelan!
Hillary!!

SO MANY PLANS ARE OVERWHELMING ME! I am supposed to do like 100 things a day! Today I went to a job interview with Caitlin and I really hope I get the job. Im supposed to get a call back by Tuesday, but I dont know how that will turn out. Then Cait Kevin and I went out to lunch at Olive Garden..that was bomb! Tonight Eileen Adam Kevin Caitlin and I went to the brewery to see the Italian Job. I have to say that if it werent for me seeing the movie another time previous to tonight...I wouldnt have any idea what went on. We all sat there talking and laughing hella hard and making fun of the nasty old people who were making out next to us. Tomorrow Im supposed to hang out with Lexi and Kevin and Chris and Ryan and Clint....haha we will see what happens with that..cuz Im also supposed to be leaving for anacortes tomorrow night at 6ish..I know Im going out to brunch with Kevin..but after that I have no idea! Im soo tired so Im off to bed!

Hillary!

I guess Im off to Anacortes this weekend..my mom decided for me! I got up today at 11 50 after spending the whole night fighting with my cats for my bed. The damn bitches know Im too nice to just throw em off and not let them sleep with me, and they take advantage. So I lay down at night (every night this happens) and Jasmen comes RUNNING up the ladder so she can head butt me in the boobs until she makes herself comfortable and falls asleep ON my arm. Skipper somehow gets onto my bed without using the ladder..possibly her extreme kitten hops are helping her out there..but she runs onto my legs purring as lous as possible, probably loud enough to wake up the neighbors; then she plops down right in between my legs. If I dare move at all..she will attack my feet and bite and scratch until Im curled up at the top end of my bed yelling about how Im going to throw her 'out the window'. And then theres Jill...the FATEST cat we have..and she has to come and sit on my pillow. COME ON! and if I try to move her, she will bite me (HARD) in the nose. Needless to say, I havent had a good night sleep in a while..and Im gona do something about it. this morning I woke up laying stiff as a board on my side, with no pillow and for some reason all three cats were right up against me. WHORES!
I had soccer practice today and it was cool. Rhys and her dad came to get me for practice, and I got in the car and Mason (her dad) goes "WHAT HAPPENED TO BEYONCE!?" *he used to call me that when I was blonde*. I laughed and then we were like a few minutes into the drive and I realized I had forgetten my shin guards. So we had to turn around so I could get em..and he goes "man..I dont think you dyed your hair dark enough, Hillary" lol. The players (the three that showed up besides Rhys and I) are nice..and the coach is too. We played for a little over an hour and then Mason brought me home. Rhys and I are gona start swimming at her gym again, Im really excited to start working out more! I feel like a total slacker this summer. I havent gone running with Caitlin ONCE! Actually..Ive only gone running on my own twice. But I guess Curves and soccer camp and work out balls *before someone popped it* count for something. anyways Im soo tired I am gona go take control of my bed and get some sleep!

Hillary

OK so I can finish about my day now. Eileen and I spent the day at her house doing nothing, sept talking a LOT about everything and figuring out our lives. It was actually very helpful and really encouraged me through the conversation I just had..I came home at 5ish and Kevin and Chris came and got me. We went to DTK and walked around, then we went to Staceys. She showed me her new bikini and we talked while Kevin and Chris were downstairs watchin TV. Then we all went over to Dennys, and Stacey and I went up and I got my money for Herricks party, FINALLY! I came back home and did some chores, then walked back to Staceys.
We all went down to Waverly and swam around for a while..Chris and Stacey seemed like they were on a mission to hook Kevin and I back up..being like I DARE YOU GUYS TO KISS and saying :so when are you guys going on ur next date? you are a couple...: and stuff like that. It was kinda akward. then we went to Chris's. Around 11 Kevin dropped me off, and then a bit later he called me..

we just talked about 'the situation'. he doesnt want to be just friends, but I dont know what I want. We are going to be just friends for now tho..and I guess that makes him uncomfortable around me. I am going to be really sad if we cant be just friends..because I love him so much as a person. Anyways..its late and I gota get up tomorrow and cut Chris's hair :) IM GIVING HIM A MOHAWK! lol..

I have my first soccer practice with my new team tomorrow..SCARY! UM but yea,

12 days till LAKE CHELAN!

**Hillary!**

Today I went to Chantels to get my five dollars. Last night she told me I was a 'big girl' so I should be able to face her one last time..so how conveniant for her to be IN THE SHOWER when I showed up. LOL..I didnt get to go look for applications cuz the bus went right past Eileen and I. damn that thing. So we went back to Eileens house........Ill write more later


Hillary

Chantel and I arent friends anymore. What is said and done..is just that.

The two people who knew her better than I are right..its no good to be around someone who is negative all the time, it just brings you down