heres everything Eileen said to me tonight...she is soo good to get advice from! its kinda like tough love tho..I left out all the places she called me retarded lol

her: wow u need a life

me: I have issues with my subliminal CD
her: how so?
me: it plays sounds that are really depressing...
her: like ghosts?
me: it was supposed to be ocean waves, but it sounds like rain and rain, and then you get hella depressed by it, and then theres birds chirping like the sun is coming up then all the sudden theres a huge crash like you just plunged into the ocean and ur getting deeper in depression
her: hahaha sad
me: how the FUCK am I gona sleep with that shit playing, let alone lose weight or learn from it
her: hmmm cry urself to sleep and then u lose the water weight


her: dont give up the maddness

her: wow thats bad
her: we should definitely not go out wit him
me: 'we' hahah its a group thing
her: well i feel like im a part of the relationship considering i think i know almost everything

me: am I being a bitch or wrong?
her: no i thnk the same....but ima bitch

her: okay now u
me: ya
her: u r unhealthy in the mind
me: are you serious
her: yes that is unhealthy wut u just said

me: I think it will all depend on what happens with this guy on Saturday
her: i dont really think nething will happen wit the guy on satuday
me: I know :-(
^ haha ^ way to be blunt!

heres a self esteem booster..this was comforting through the tears..

her: u have guyz fuckin notice u all the time
her: ur pissim me off
me: old mexican wierd men
her: wut the fuck.. (name edit), (edit name) and (name edit)
me: OH GOD!(name edit) was online when he noticed me, (edit) wants pussy, and (edit) is dilusional
her: no shut the fuck up. u have so many ppl tell u that u r gorgeous all the time
her: just when u go out random guyz come up to u and tell u that. i would kill for that and here u are bitching about it..seriously
her: u have mental health issues, i would fuckin kill to look like u
her: kill
HAHA with every compliment there is an equal and opposite insult!! the law of friendships *omg that was hella nerdy excuse that..*

Thanks for the 'pep talk' Eileen..I CANT WAIT TILL THIS WEEKEND WHEN WE GO RUNNING YAY!


One more thing, tomorrow, all of my debt will be undone!!!

Hillary