UMM WOW I dont know when I last wrote, prolly a long time ago! Basically life is good right now, tomorrow we have 20 minute periods and then ITS SUMMER!!!!! OMG IM SO EXCITED. I am dreading Saturday tho, thats when Herrick leaves for Virginia. I love him so much I dont know how Im going to deal with him leaving. Ive been hanging out with him like triple-time lately, even more than I used to which was like everyday haha. I spend like every free minute I have with him, and this Friday Im throwing him a going away party at bowling. Its gona be really fun, but Im going to cry a lot when he has to go :'( I almost cry thinkin about it..ok so new topic..
I dont think I wrote in here bout how Kevin asked me out. But he did, and I dont know what to say I am not sure if I want to yet. That was last Friday night, and then on Saturday me and my mom and Dan went to this swap meet thing at the drive in movie theater. This one guy bout a dresser from us, and so I was helping him carry it to the end of an isle thing, and he went to pick up his truck, so I just left the dresser there, and this other guy was working at a stand and he was like "HEY!" and I looked at him and he goes "Ill watch that for you if you pay me" and I was just like "ummm Im good but thanks" and so I went back to our stand. Then a like 20 year old guy that was hella buff came over and asked me bout my sterio. He was like OH MY GOD I WANT TO BUY THAT ILL BE BACK!! and he kept smiling at me and stuff..so my mom was saying that he was cute and I should get his number haha. He came back prolly 5 times or something and then he said something to me in italian or some other language..so it was hellllla hot outside and I needed another water bottle. I walked over to the truck and opened the cooler, and got a cherry pepsi and a water. I opened the cherry pepsi and started drinkin it but it was nasty and warm so I spit it out all nasty style on the ground. Then I looked in the door mirror thing and started picking my tooth..I started walking away from the truck to go back to the booth, and the guy who offered to watch my stuff came running at me from out of nowhere yelling "HEY! HEY! ARE YOU LEAVING?!!" and I said "ummm no...." (I was hella embarrassed becauase I KNEW he had just watched me spit the pop out and pick my tooth in the mirror lol) and he said he thought i was leaving and he wanted to make sure I had his card so I could go to his shop in Seattle sometime. So he gave me his card and asked me how old I am. I told him 16 and he was like :DAMN..: and I asked :why how old are u: and he goes, 28...almost 29 HAHAHA I was like ohhh wow..lol and then he told me that I should really go to his shop sometime because Im cute. so that was cool. I went back to the booth and then I saw this jeweler guy across the thing..put me next to diamonds and silver and white gold and good luck pulling me away....so I RAN over there..as fast as u can run in a short skirt lol. The guy behind the counter started talking to me and stuff and I saw this HELLLLLLLA FUCKING CUTE pink stone in a silver ring. I was like OH MY GOD HOW MUCH IS THAT??!?!?! and he told me 20 but he would give it to me for 10 . So I went back to my spot at the booth and got money from my mom for working all day. I went back and he said "youre a really pretty little woman" and I just kinda shrugged and looked for my ring I wanted. I thought it was gone because the slot it had been in was filled with a penny. I was like "Omg someone bought my ring?!" and he goes, :nooo I saved it for you.." and he pulled it out of his pocket lol. So i bought the ring and then my mom came over. He asked if she was my mom and said :ohh I see where u got ur good looks: At the end of the day, the jeweler guy came over to our booth and held out his hand to me..he was giving me a fire opal pendant! I was like OH MY GOSH thanks!! and he said youre welcome do u have a silver chain? and I said yes I can put it on this (the chain kevin got me with my heart thing) and he goes, noo you need a box chain, come over here and Ill give u one. So he gave me a free 35 dollar pendant and a 20 dollar chain!! he said "this is cuz ur such a sweetheart and you are so beautiful" I was like HOLY SHIT SCORE! lol..
today I went to school and took my Biology final..I think I did really good. like REALLY freakin good. Then I went to 5th period and Max and Bryan and I had to do our skit. what a joke!! I wrote out Maxs lines and taped them to this champagne bottle full of bubbles he got. then I took Bryans lines and put em on a sword (of course I put the whole thing together, and did the whole project alone) Mrs britsova said we needed better props than just our clothes that had nothing to do with Macbeth, so she gave me a hat to make Max wear that said :OVER THE HILL 40!!: on it!! and it had silver string things hanging off the rim.. I could not stop laughing at him during the presentation. Then I had to wear this crown and jewel necklace from like burger king. The champaigne bottle got a hole in it somehow during the play, so max squeezed it and it squirted out soapy water..I had to faint after Bryan said his lines, and I just fell to my knees and layed down but I almost hit my head on this lamp..Max started laughing at me and I think it kinda ruined the play but oh well we still got 95 outa 100. After school I went and worked out with Eileen and then Caitlin came over. Herrick and Kevin showed up and we washed my moms and Herricks car. Then we all went to cold stone for some free ice cream, and then we went to Herricks hotel and watched TV for a while, then Cait and I got dropped off here to pick up our bikinis and then we picked up chris and watched Simple Life (of course, caitlin was there) then we went swimming in herricks hotels poool/hot tub. It was fun but I got ANOTHER bloody nose..After swimming I took a shower in the hotel room, and Kevin got mad cuz Herrick said he wanted to take a shower with me but he didnt. So now Im sitting in my room listening to that song..
Im not a perfect person
there are many things I wish I didnt do
but Ill continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

and the one song line from a diff song that I think describes how I feel right now is:
"On my own here we go...."
::Hillary::
I think I need to make up my mind before I pull anyone else into this crazy situation..Like Eileen said..
"The school year ended at a shitty time for ur relationships"
aint that the truth!