Today is a majorly shitty day for me. Thats just because of my attitude though. Its like one of those days that everything is so boring and unexciting and ....icky. I think its like a wierd form of PMS..cuz sometimes I just get completely bitchy..like now. Everything, EVERYTHING bothers me. My own best friend. jeese its like fucking shit she is on the phone whining about beck. and telling me about jason. I dont care. at all. guysguysguys.I DONT CARE!!!!!! AH I cant even explain the situation, so here is Lexis and my convo today..

me: but what happened to having dinner with beck?
PLayGurl: well... he was with jason
PLayGurl: so i said fuck that
me: I knoq
PLayGurl: bastard will fuck that up 4 me
PLayGurl: 2 bd..
PLayGurl: bad*
me: no he didntk now what was going on
me: Beck didnt know you wanted to come over
PLayGurl: ya.. i know
PLayGurl: michaela did that
me: sorry
PLayGurl: he wasnt sposed 2
PLayGurl: did u tel him
PLayGurl: shit
me: Ill show you
PLayGurl: k
me: Consumer No425: hello
Consumer No425: im leaving soon
me: oh
Consumer No425: beck is here
me: ok
me: oh tell him hi and sorry for what I do when Im drunk
me: are u going to have dinner at his house?
Consumer No425: lol sure thing
Consumer No425: lol why
Consumer No425: no we are going to hang out
me: I thought he was having a dinner at his house with michaela and lexi tonight?
Consumer No425: he doesnt know what the fuck your talking about
me: oh
me: :(
me: ok ttyl
Consumer No425: lol
Consumer No425: alright you take care
Consumer No425: byebye
me: same
PLayGurl: shit
me: what
PLayGurl: shit shit
me: what?
me: was it a secret?
PLayGurl: he dudnt kknow
PLayGurl: yes
me: how were you planning on having dinner there without him knowing?
PLayGurl: please do me a favor and dont say anythign to jasona bout me and beck
PLayGurl: dont even bring me up with him
me: I didnt thats all I said ever
me: ok
PLayGurl: he was sposed to with michaela
PLayGurl: adn i was just gona come
me: oh
PLayGurl: and we calle dhima dn thats y he said no...
PLayGurl: fuck
PLayGurl: makes sense
me: when did you call him
PLayGurl: 7
PLayGurl: when did u talk2 him
me: uhh like probably right before then
PLayGurl: lollol
me: but thats the only thing I said and I dont see why he would say no
PLayGurl: so u talked 2 brent
me: sorry though
PLayGurl: 2 much 2 type
me: yeah
me: he called me today when I was at lexis house
me: I mean Eileens
PLayGurl: o no dont trip
PLayGurl: thats awesome
PLayGurl: how was the convo??
me: not long, I just told him what I was doing and that I was busy so I couldnt really talk
me: so I think he is calling me later tonight
PLayGurl: nice
PLayGurl: pimp
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PLayGurl: i worked so hard and i thought i finnally had a chacne and hten jaosn blins sides me
PLayGurl: he will do his best to fuck it up bc he think i ruined any chance he had with u
me: I duno Im just sick of this entire fucking situation
PLayGurl: o believe me i know
PLayGurl: its a shit deal
PLayGurl: ims orry for saying things about him
PLayGurl: i shoulda been more considerate of ur feelings but its true hes a jerk...
me: yeah
me: well dont worry
PLayGurl: and i just want 2 protect ya ,,u know
me: yeah
PLayGurl: from things like this ... lol
me: sorry if I fucked over you and beck
PLayGurl: no
PLayGurl: its not u
PLayGurl: jasonw ill handle that lol
me: yeah but it all comes back to me
me: like you and jason were good friends
PLayGurl: i will have 2 repair that if its evenworht my time
PLayGurl: beck not jason
me: then we went and hung out with him and you know what happened
PLayGurl: ya
PLayGurl: well
PLayGurl: its ok
PLayGurl: he obvious isnt a true friend
me: and then you guys started like shit talking eachother to me and I was trying to stand up for the both of you
PLayGurl: u just proved that
PLayGurl: lol
PLayGurl: ya
PLayGurl: well
me: and then you guys had some fucked up wierd fight thing
PLayGurl: ya i didnt even do anyting
PLayGurl: thats what gets me
me: and Im like HELLO what are you doing I will just stop talking to jason if its that big of a deal
PLayGurl: is i was trying ot be nice
me: and now you guys arent friends
PLayGurl: ya
PLayGurl: well w/e
me: and Im like still stuck in the middle and its like you are both watching me to see if Im favoring the other one
PLayGurl: hes ignorant
PLayGurl: adn arrogant
PLayGurl: and what not
PLayGurl: not worth either of our time

well Ill write more later im on the phone with Brent

Hillary