dating is not about getting ass, its about liking someone. I dont think thats whats going on here and I dont think its going to so what the fuck. This is pointless and its way past time to move the fuck on. Im so pissed off damn.
I havent lost my comp yet...maybe I get the weekend to use it or something. Im so annoyed, everything in my life is so fucking stupid right now.
I wish some people would just dissappear, but then I think about it and its me that needs to get out of some peoples way..
I am so pissed because I know he doesnt want me, Ill never be what he wants, so what is he doing right now?
Herrick I think you are right..
Hillary

we got a new kitten last night!

Im losing my computer till school gets out. I think that starts later tonight or something, but uhh today I went to the zoo on the field trip with all the biology people. It was fun even tho it was POURING down rain the whole time. I was in a group with Victor Jon Nicole and KURTIS. I hit my face on the glass wall of the gorilla exhibit 2 times :( but Victor was the only one who saw and laughed so it was OK. I got home and changed outa my soaking wet pants and into some booty shorts and took a nap, then Herrick and Kevin came over so I answered the door in them..that was embarrassing. I changed out and we went over to Eileens house. Then at 5 I went with Eileen and Lauren to Curves. Eileen and I had our 100th work outs so we got to order our tee shirts, and its curves birthday so we got cake and I got a present (a cell phone headset, for if I ever get my cell back) and some sleeve holders to save my arms from farmers tan in soccer and running and stuff :D. I came home and got bitched at about everything and I just dont give a shit. fuck it all, seriously. my mom is looking way too far into shit just because I missed one class the other day.
If you get bored reading about drama, u prolly wana stop here..
Friends are being hella gay too. Im so sick of one of my friends I think I dont want to talk to her for a long time. When you are hella good friends with someone and you know they like someone a lot..then u hear something HELLA IMPORTANT that you know ur friend would want to know bout that guy..you fucking tell them. I realized yesterday that my friend didnt do that for me and its so fucked up because she knows how much it woulda meant to me if I knew..but the thing is, she doesnt know that I heard from someone else so Im just waiting to see if she will ever tell me. Maybe if she got a little less self absorbed(will never happen), she would understand that other people can have bigger issues than her sometimes..I always listen to her bullshit, but now Im the one in so much trouble Im losing all my priveledges and maybe a bunch of oppurtunities I need, but all she is worried about is if she should date this guy and shes mad at me for not being able to hang out. come on. FUCKING SHIT sorry..long rant this should be my last entry for a long time, so Ill tell you now~
The Kenny Chesney concert is going to be the shit
Hillary

Today...the biggest pile of shit ever hit the fan. First period..I took the quiz I missed yesterday. Second period I got my test scores back. I got 90/100 on the test..and 20/20 on the homework so that brought my grade to a C+. (.3 percent away from B-)The fucking attendance office called my house and so my mom found out about my missing spanish to study yesterday. SO now I cant go to chelan cuz of that. what the fuck dude. I was trying to get a good grade on the math test and got it, but got fucked over on the way. or according to my mom, Ive been "fucking up" for a long time now. In math, in In weight training Kristin and I did our butt lift things with 35 pounds. Monday we are going for 45!! Oh man,we are gona have buns of STEEL! So I wonder if Im grounded for the rest of the weekend...because that will be SO GAY I might murder someone.So many times today I wanted to just sit down and cry. now all I have to look forward to is...the Kenny Chesney concert and the No Doubt Blink182 concert...and seeing Greg again, I miss him :'(. I think the KC concert is going to be SO MUCH FUCKING FUN! oh I got a summer job today..Im babysitting 5 days a week, but Im earning 125 a week so Eileen, you will get payed off!! (by July 13) sorry its kinda long away, same with you Greg! yay! wow Im way to hyper for the bad mood I was in allll fucking day. Its because I got to play soccer in the rain, that always makes me happy. haha this guy on my team told me Im "amazing and hardcore!" he said I prolly play with soccer balls that have spikes on em just so I can play harder. Hahaha wow. The guys from redmond have so much more personality than the Juanita guys..no offence boys but they REALLY do. Im kinda jealous of the girls that go there :( *especially since they are all fuckin rich!*
so many things are on my mind starting from my best friend not being my best friend anymore and (a) guy(s), and ending at Redmond High drama cuz of my soccer team..man, I cant handle nemore! I just had the best dinner EVER. frozen bluberries and 2 peices of cantelope oh my god. !! but I learned something too...bluberries are white on the inside..WHAT is that?! ok Im soo gone and done talking. Zoo feild trip tomorrow with my awesome group! Oh shit I need a lunch or money for food...ByE!
*Lily*


OH MY GOD Liz YAY!!! I told you! IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!

today I took my math test, it toook me alll period! Like literally I turned my test in at the last 20 seconds of class..I skipped first period (spanish) so I could study, and Cait and Chantel did too, and Liz ended up in the library with us too cuz her class was doing research. Im kinda freaking out about if I am going to get a good grade or not :( but I think I did good. tomorrow I find out if I did, and if I did I might get my cell back and get to go to chelan, if not...then Im still grounded, no cell, no chelan and no freedom this weekend :'( Im SOOO not excited..In weight training Kristin and I did these upside down situp things with 25pound weights, OMG it was sooo hard it burned in our butts SOO bad lol. In DOP there was a condom in Lenas book...opened and stretched out but I duno if it was used. It was soo nasty. After school Kristin Liz Allison and I went and worked out and did a makeup work out thing, and Liz and I did this cool thing and cheated the system :D go us! Kristin and I did more of those 25 pound things, I did 36 more and my ass HURTS like a bitch. After that, Cait and I went to her house and went running. we went back to her house and sat in the kitchen...then went upstairs and sat..then went downstairs and sat...then I got up and walked home in the rain :( in my shorts. DAMN I thought it was gona be hot today so I go to school in shorts and a kinda tank top thing but NOO its all shitty AGAIN like every other time I dress for hotness. Lex came over for a while and we talked then she went home cuz my mom started bitching. Now I gota go and do homework for me and Jon..whoooo hoo..one other thing..I dont know what to do right now because Im in a wierd ass situation with my friends. Today I got left out of something that my best friends were doing because another one of my friends who they(we) dont really like was with me. I think that I need to say something to my friend that was with me cuz Im not even good friends with her at all and I can never get the FUCK away from her. Anyways.. homework..and talkin to Liz...Im gona figure this shit out! :(
*Hillary*
Britney Spears- *Everytime* "I guess I need you baby"

Um this weekend was pretty gayish..Saturday Lexi came over for a little bit and then got invited to go somewhere else so she left. I came home and started making my science cakes, and my mom started yelling about my D in math. I was standing there wondering how she knew and how to lie my way out (teacher sent home a letter :() but she said I cant go to Chelan and she took my cell and Im grounded now till I get a B or higher in there. We have 120 points due tomorrow so if I get all of those then I might still get to go, Im not sure. I dont really got this chapter mastered so Im going to be all depressed if I cant go. Today I went to school and it was boring. At lunch Kristin Liz Chantel Allison Herrick and I went to Kristin and Liz's to get cake, then we came to my house and they ate cake. Lol it was so funny that we all happened to have cake at the same time, herrick and I were about to leave to go get my cake when chantel and kris and liz asked me to go there and get their cake. It was so fun! when we came back on campus terri took mine herricks chantels and allisons names tho because we dont have passes, and kevin said that we get referrals for that. SHIT!! I went to 5th period and we played this family feud game about Macbeth, and Ryan was gettin all pissed of about this one question it was so funny cuz he was trying to look all thug style and be like :WHAT: but he was arguing about queen elizabeth. haha. After school, Herrick Chantel Kristin Liz and I went to the twins house and hung out, tanning and stuff. it was fun. Me and Kristin were layin on this blanket tanning, and a spider crawled on me so I screamed SPIDER and flug it and it landed on Kristin but she didnt understand so I was flailing around screaming and trying to hit it off of her. LOl Im a spaz..so Herrick and Chantel and I left at like 4 30 and I got home and went to work out with Eileen. Got home at 5 30 and at 6 I left for soccer. The coach brought grapes and I ATE SOME EILEEN. at 8 20 I got home from practice and now Im studying hardcore for my math test tomorrow, I gota pass, its like no questions asked, hands down, I HAVE to pass..oh shit. well Im off to study and make my science cake
Hillary

School was half really good half shitty yesterday. In Spanish I got my test back, and I got a B. In math I got my quiz back and I got 9/10 :D and then in Science I had a quiz and I got 31/35! I was sooooo happy! Kristin Chris and I were the only people at our table at lunch cuz everyone was on the feildtrip or had Blunch. Kristin and I shared a saNDwich meal, and we had so much trouble eating it. I dont like mayo, and she doesnt like mustard, so we had to put it on the side of the plate..and then I was going to cut it in half, but I accidentally flipped the sandwich into the sauces. K was eating a peice of orange, but she doesnt like the skin so she would chew it up and suck out the juices then spit it out. haha it was so funny. In weight training we played softball, and I 'went to the bathroom' (talked to Herrick and Adam) for like 20 minutes. I hate softball sooo much, but my team won. After school I came home and did some chores, then Kevin came over at 4. We watched baseball :( At 6 15ish Lexi came over and we went to get tariyaki. We realized that we cant watch DVDs at my house..because my mom is a retarded bitch and wont hook up the speakers to the DVD player because she thinks that the DVD sound should be able to play off of the sterio we already have hooked up, and she thinks that the speakers are 'ugly'. SO lex left and Kevin and I walked to his house and watched Gladiator. I was there till 11ish and then they brought me home. Today I dont know what Im doing, I think hanging out with Lex after I go work out with Eileen and Lauren. exciting day!!......not


Michaela and Lexi- good news.. I THINK ITS HERE!!! .
HiLLarY

I havent written since MONDAY! so um tuesday I went running with Cait. We went to her house afterwards and I was trying to take a shower, but i couldnt figure it out so I ended up standing there in the bathtub throwing cold water on myself. I felt like a monkey. My sis and I went and saw my dad and terri and gma and gpa figgins for dinner.fun times.... Wed I went to Chantels after school with Eileen and we all hung out and then went to curves and worked out. I went to soccer practice and then did homework. Today in weight training we did this circuit thing, omg it was SUUUUCH a goood work out I was so happy! but it was HARD! After school, Chantel and Caitlin and I went running. We ran past Amandas old house and I started thinking about how worried I am for her :(. We got back to Caits house and I got in the shower (after getting a lesson on how to turn on the shower cuz of my jungleish experiance tuesday) At 3 45 I walked home and met up with Kevin. We walked to his house and then went to Woodinville to see Shrek2. It was fun :D He pulled a smooth move on me and well..lol..yeah. We were in woodinville till 7 45 ish (we went to petsmart and I petted the kitties :D)and then I dropped him off at home. when I was driving him there I thought there was a 20$ bill on the road and I scared him and my mom cuz I swerved and made a gasping noise lol my mom was like WHAT IS GOING ON!? Today Eileen got her cruise pictures back! I get to see them tomorrow!!! Tomorrow night Kevin Herrick Lex and I are going to watch Gladiator. Im excited cuz Im going to do some extra credit on it for social studies :D.

Time to go do my homework with Jon lol :D MASTER plan!
oh I have to tell everyone something:
Chantel is going to be going shopping with Eileen and I on Sunday, I forgot that last time and I got bitched at LOL!

Heres to the men we love
heres to the men in love with us
heres to the men we love who dont love us
heres to the men who pass on us
**Fuck the men, lets drink to us!**

Hillary!!

Today was sooooooo much better. I have no time cuz Im sooo tired but Ill write bout the main things of today..
School-gay
Curves- Im talkin to Eileen and I meant to say "he cant handle me being hyper" and I accidentally said (really loudly) "He cant handle me being perfect" OMG it was so embarrassing. people were lookin at me laughin and shit.
Soccer-SO FUN! I love my soccer team I laugh so much!
Dinner- umm I had a lot of salad and water and forgot I was getting pizza so I only had 1 peice of pizza! (olive garden yumm!)
Im so excited for my weeks ahead!
Tomorrow- I see my dad and his side of the fam for dinner..eh...
Wed- is hawiian day! SARONG!
Thurs- Kev and I are watching a movie
Friday- SHREK 2 WITH KEVIN!
Sat- PARTY?!?!?!? with the girls
Sunday-SHOPPING (with no money) with Eileen
Thursday- ZOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday- spend the night at Lexis!
SAT-MON! LAKE CHELAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then like 2 weeks later(june 16 and 17th), No Doubt and blink 182 concert, and the next day......KENNY CHESNEY! Hell yes!
and then..Newlyweds should be starting up again soon!! and SUMMMER BEGINS!!!!!!
*~*~Hillary~*~*

my tears will burn the pillow and set this place on fire cuz Im tired of your lies
I gave u my love, my body never knew such pleasure my heart never knew such pain
you leave me so confused
now Im all cried out over you
112+Allure 'All Cried Out'

Thanks for helpin me out *u know who u are* but GOD FUCKING DAMNIT could I have more mood swings?! This is shit.
Im sorry Joe I didnt mean to be mean to u :( and anyone else Im a bitch to tonight u gota forgive cuz Im not me!

Everytime Im with him I feel a need to make him happy, then he leaves and I make myself happy. But I want both..what the hell

Oh want some bad news? Chantel might not be going to Juanita next year. shit

Hillary

tonight I actually did something! haha, Lexi Herrick Kristin and Kevin came over. we watched fear and loathing in las vegas *YEAH JASON!* and Kristin and I played cards,then we all (not Lexi) played BS. it was fun, I won :D. Im hellla tired but I am bored so I thought Id write real quick! Hope everyone had a good night! AND I HOPE LIZ GETS HOME SAFE. LOVE YOU LIZ!!!
*If everything goes right, something is wrong.*
Sorry Joe that you couldnt come over, but that movie doesnt even end till like 10 mins from now and Im about to pass out, so I dont think I would be that entertaining neways. next time! I am still thinking about if I can marry u tho ;)
**Hillary**

Yesterday after school I went to Kevins house and watched Beavis and Butthead do america..then him and I went to my house and herrick and Adam came over. We watched TV and stuff till like 7 30 and then they went to go to a skatepark. I was walkin out the door to go to Lexis and she got outa the car and screamed WHAAAAAAT?! and I go OKKKKKAY!!! and my mom ran to her window and started screaming for me to go where she could see me cuz she thought I was getting raped or something hahaha. at lexis, nick nick connor steven lexi her mom and dad and I all tried to figure out the DVD player for more than an hour, then out of nowhere Celeste goes "ohh I might have stepped on that.." haha so we rented Kill Bill and watched it. Wierdo movie! Steven Nick and I were sharing this couch, and there was a table in front of it, we all had our feet up, and it hurt hella bad on our heels. We had one pillow and we were passing it around for our feet with 2 people on it at once. wow it was funny. They left at 12ish, and Lex and I went upstairs and talked for a bit then passed out. We were so tired! This morning her mom and brother came in screaming and making noise to wake us up. Lexi started SCREAMING and throwing the biggest fit I was scared. Then she threw her remote control at the wall and it broke. The sad part about that whole thing was she was pissed cuz her mom woke us up at 11! thats not even that early! We had a crispy creme for breakfast and sat around for a long time. Then Joe came over and took us to restaurants all over the place cuz we were looking for something he wanted called sizzling rice or w.e. Then we stopped by Juanita to see if we could get in the game for free..no luck :'(. We ended up at Tariyaki madness and had food there. Yum! Joe dropped us off at Lexis, and we did MORE of nothing. Kevin called my phone when I was at Lexis and left a message saying "hey Kevin, its Hillary...wait..uhh ahh nvm" haha. now Im home and bored SHITLESS. Im talkin to Joe and we are the saddest people alive. wow. I better do something tonight!
Hellapussy :D

I went to the soccer game tonight with Lexi and everyone else it was hella fun! But I lost my voice from yellin so damn much. Um today was cool cuz I have a better grade in spanish than I thought and I went to Curves with Eileen. Im on the phone with Kevin so Im out..
Hillary

**George** Uhh you should really stop telling people shit about me and stop reading this cuz you dont even fuckin know me.;) right soo

Today fuckin SUCKS. seriously I hate today a lot. School was boring as always, I worked out at curves with Eileen, went running with Cait, and am doing homework. I applied for my job today. I am starting to remember things that I thought I could forget and I thought would change, I dont know why i thought they would change and I dont know why its getting to me. Also I am fucking sick of people at Juanita. Shit
Michaela got suspended today and that sucks
Tomorrow I have a huge report due, and Im not doing it, I havent even started and its worth 300 points in both my LA and SS class.
Today is a day I would like to erase, but keep the workouts. AHH I need a fucking punching bag!
HILLARY

well I think to sum today up, all I have to tell you is mine and Kevins conversation just now:
me: I really want to hear a story :'(
Kevin: lol im sorry i dont know any but ppl fucking
Kevin: i cant help it
me: yes u can u know a love story i know u do
Kevin: yea the fucked w/ love lol
me: what? no a love story
Kevin: lol
me: even if it ends bad its a love story
Kevin: i dont know!
me: yes u DO
Kevin: no!
me: kevin
Kevin: hillary
me: yeah put the two together
Kevin: kevin and hillary fucked?
me: oh my god
Kevin: im sorry. aight im stop talking
me: that will be a gay convo
Kevin: yea but im pissing u off
me: no
Kevin: yea i am
me: I just wana hear a story and ur being stubborn kevin
Kevin: hillary no im not
Kevin: u tell me one
me: ok and when Im done, I bet you will know the story
Kevin: ok?
me: when Im done, you have to tell me another version of the same story OK? it will be easy once u understand
Kevin: ok
me: so one day this girl met this guy, she liked him and then stopped liking him. he introduced her to his best friend. she started liking the guys best friend. Then the best friend asked her out after school one day and they were happy. the guy was so innocent it took him a whole month to kiss the girl, and she thought it meant he didnt like her. the girl started falling in love with the guy, the song "its in his kiss" was playing on the radio when he first kissed her. They went out happily for a long time, went on trips together, and once they got caught having sex in a hotel room. Then they broke up, then they started 'dating' again.......
Kevin: yea
me: recognize?
Kevin: yea us lol
me: lol goood job
Kevin: and once they got caught having sex in a hotel room.
me: told u that you know one
Kevin: that was great
me: i put in sex for u lol
Kevin: thanks
me: ok ur turn to rewrite the story
Kevin: ok umm
Kevin: this guy liked the way this girls body was banging so they talked online n shit then he asked her out then later they kissed and shit then did other great things then finally fucked so much it was great ;-) till the day they broke up then the guy is still checking out the girls banging body n kissing her n shit and thats how it went down
Kevin: OO SHIT
me: haha o my
Kevin: great storey i like mine better

well then....ahahahaha
I scored at my soccer today! go me!
*~bedtime~*
*Hilly*

TODAY

I

GOT

MY

FIRST

CAR
!

We went to anacortes for mothers day and I test drove the car, it has 40000 miles on it, and my gpa was selling it for 1000 dollars. my mom was like HOLY HELL we want it! sept in more mom like language. So my gpa was like OK ur my granddaughter u can have it for 700. SOO I only gota pay my mom 350 and Im set! yeah!!!


TODAY

I

GOT

MY

FIRST

CAR
!

we wont talk about what it looks like.. hehe..I mean its not dented or anything, it is just a 1986 model car

Hillary

um yesterday..wow. It started out GREAT like seriously everything was going our way. Herrick Chantel Kristin Liz and I went to see mean girls after school, (half day :D) then we went to Kristin and Lizs and jumped on the trampoline, went to Herricks and hung out, came to my house (just the girls) and started getting ready to go out..we shoulda known something was up when EVERYTHING was going our way...all our parents were letting us go out, the car was ready, my mom let me spend the night at Chantels, we had money...oh god disaster waiting to happen. So we got all cute-ed up and went out to Bellevue..interesting....came home...WAY MORE INTERESTING AND SCARY AND......shit. basically, me and Liz in the back hugging and shaking...lots of screaming..telling off people staring at us..crying...lots of crying. group hug and semi trucks. god I wish I coulda learned from last night without having to experiance it. I love you girls so much. Um so yeah, this morning I went with Eileen to get her hair done and that was fun, her hair looks good too damn her. Then my mom and I went shopping for light fixtures for my bedroom and a new computer desk for me. we picked out both and then went to costco. I was wearing this peach tank top and my LEI jeans...and I went outside for a minute alone, and this grandpa yelled "hey!!" at me. I just kinda smiled and kept walking, but then I turned to stand in a line, and I looked over at him and he had his grandson on his lap and was making him wave at me! I was like OMG FREAK! haha. I cleaned a lot today and planned how we are going to remodel my room, and then Lex came over for a bit. Then it turned out my mom was gona let me go somewhere, so Chantel Cait Lynn and I went and saw the new mary kate and ashley movie. It was kinda cheesy but soo funny too. Kevin called me in the middle lol and my phone blinded me cuz its a bright white light. After the movie we went shopping at target and caitlin and I stalked this woman with a nice ass body cuz we were gona ask where she got her jeans but then we didnt cuz we (CAIT) was a chicken. hehe. Now Im home and talkin to Kristin and Kevin and Brent online. Tomorrow in the morning Im going to work out with my mom at ballys! Im so excited yay!!! Then we are leaving to anacortes from the gym. I havent seen my fam for so long its gona be so fun! I miss everyone soo much. oh shit, I was supposed to make orderves...oops...Have a good mothers day!

you treat me like Im a princess
youve already won me over
inspite of me
dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are
its all your fault
youre my best friend
best friend with benefits
Ive never felt this healthy before
thanks for your patience

I love love? or I hate guys.....I duno
BTW- playing strip pool is only a good plan if u are wearing a lot of clothes :D

-Last night costed us so much-
ride-5 bucks
dinner-6 bucks all together
movies-5 bucks
tire air-1 dollar
tire inflater stuff- 5.50 (being so flustered and teary eyed that I didnt realize ur supposed to put it IN the tire..so I sprayed it all over the OUTSIDE of the tire..oh god)
.....repairing the damage...
300 dollars.
Im so sorry girls

I have straight hair right now! Today I had to do thurs+fri workouts in weight training cuz we dont have class tomorrow..and then after school caitlin chantel and I went running our 2 miles :D. We walked up to my house and cait went and got her hair cut while i worked out at curves with Eileen. We came here and right before I got in the shower I was walking into my powder room, and I walked right into the stool in there and ripped off my pinky toenail. I think I broke the toe too..cuz I cant walk right. we had a big three person party for straightening our hair..and it was so much fun we could not stop laughing! "I hit her in the face with my binder..then I threw a pen at her...then I picked up my notebook and slapped her in the face!" hahaha I LOVE CHANTEL! Chantel left at 9ish and Cait and I made corndogs for dinner. Yum..kinda.. it made me sick afterward tho. Then we finished caits hair and I drove her home at 10 30ish. Natanya told me today:
fatass maybe you should go work out
does anybody else find that fucking hillaryous!? haha I would think that anybody in their right mind could think of a better insult than that towards me..come on seriously..you dont tell someone like me that I need to work out if you dont want to get laughed at. Sorry girl but I work out three times a day and thats enough for me. hehe...aww well not important
Tomorrow Kevin gets his license if he passes! *goodluck* and Kristin Liz Chantel and I are going to see mean girls. Then Im goin to anacortes for the weekend! tight shit. I might get the inheritance!! (this red car my gparents inherited..noo its not that old) it has 40,000 miles on it, and they are sellin it for 1000!!!!!!! Im so excited maybe my mom will get it for me! I gota go in before school tomorrow and take a science quiz, then go to 2nd period (but really first for the half day) and listen to mrs lewis :( then go to science and take a huge test! ahh :'( no fun. I geta see my cousins this weekend tho and thats gona be awesome cuz I miss em a lot..I dont even know how old they are now, Michaela must be like 9 and King 7...crazy. Damn my mom for not having a relationship with my family anymore, its really gay. anyways Im off to bed so I can get up and do all that stuff..
*Hillary*

PMS is a bitch. I ate soo fucking much today and only worked out in weight training for like 35 minutes, then I went to the councilor about this internship thing at the bank. I went to kevins after school. I guess we are dating..I duno its pretty wierd.. but I hung out with him for a while..till 5 somethin..and then he drove me home. I went to my soccer game and ....yeah..nothing to say bout that..at least it was a long enough work out to actually get something outa. I came home and talked to Eileen on the phone for a while about everything, then Lexi and Kevin just called..I need to do some situps or something cuz Im in such a bad mood. Im off to bed once I get off the phone with Kevin
*byee*
*Hillary*

TODAY WAS SO FUN! I went to school, Jess was crying in 2nd period. :D hehe whatever it was, she deserves it. We got ice cream for finishing wasl today and that was cool. Kristin Chantel Liz and I went to K+Ls for lunch. We were soo sneaky style haha! we ate cheez its and then came back to school. Allison said :thanks for ditching me:..whatever. after school I went to Caitlins and we went running our 2 miles, we only slowed down 2 times too :D! it was awesome! And we made our time less..we finished in less than 20 mins I think. We came back and pigged out..it was kinda sad, I had pop tarts, an apple, and chips and salsa with water. Cait had chips n salsa, pop tarts with butter (dont even ask)and a hotdog on a peice of bread with water. I was SO fucking full then..we went out and I layed with her cat for a long time..actually we looked like big fags cuz we were just laying on her floor on our stomachs staring at a wall for literally like half an hour..then we got up and got dressed into real clothes again and met up with chantel N we walked to my house. I got an application for baskin robins on the way :D! We cleaned and looked at www.cameltoe.org and haha it was great! I got a cool new background for my computer screen thanks to that site! At 7, we left for the game, and I went and dropped off my application at BR and we all got ice creams. somehow I was the only one with any ice cream left when we got there, so I had to like shove it in my mouth before we walked in lol. The soccer players were getting announced when we showed up, and Kristin and Liz showed up and we all huddled together in 3 blankets. It was pretty damn cozy lol. Rachel and Natanya came but didnt really talk to us. haha Chantel and I were telling Kristin and Liz about how we were looking at camel toes, and I said " OMG I was telling Chantel today about moose (dont ask) and she goes 'ahh I saw a lady with the biggest camel toe EVER!'" and Liz goes "wait, camel toe...like hoof and ALL?!?!" hahahahaha me and chantel were laughing soo hard and Kristin was laughing her ass off because I had tears running down my face from laughing at Liz. Then Kristin told us this story about how Liz was trying to talk to someone thru a window today in their car and didnt realize the people couldnt hear her hahahaha :HELLOO!?!: Oh my god I seriously LOVE you girls! After the game K+L were driving out and they waved bye to us and had to SLAM on their brakes so they didnt hit the car in front of them cuz they werent paying attention lol. oh man great times. Then I was talking to cait and chantel and I dont even know what the hell I was doing but I was stomping my foot and yelling..and my hot guy walked by...yall should know who Im talkin bout..but I felt like the biggest loser ever. I guess thats the only time Ive been glad that he doesnt realize I exist (unless he wants to copy my homework..) I dropped Chantel and Cait off at home and then made my plans for tomorrow. Im goin to Kevins after school then comin home and goin to my soccer game. I need to go to curves hella bad..I didnt go today and Im not gona go tomorrow either..bad me. shit I gota pick an outfit for tomarrow, shave my legs, do my homework, take a shower ETC...NIGHT!

Hillary

I hate my mom and fucking guys. DAMN Today sucks all the sudden thank god I will be asleep in like 10 minutes. shit

Eileen thinks Im a big heartbreaking bitch. :( Today I went to school, came home,KRISTIN AND LIZ CALLED AND TOLD ME THEY GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!! YAY!I met Kevin at Kamiakin and had another interesting time with him. I would talk about it but..
Kevin: "yea dont tell anyone that acident happend"
so umm..its a secret.
I went to curves after I hung out with him and got yelled at by Eileen for being MEAN and uncaring, and blahblah...then I came home and changed for soccer and went to soccer practice. I was thinking a lot about what happened during soccer and Im so fucking confused. whatever. Soccer was fun, we got a new guy and he was wearing the exact same outfit as another guy on the team lol. I came home and talked online and now I gota do homework for Ryan John Michaela and I...makin money to pay off my tickets!
ohh and I started my blog the other day talking about how I wont get used. HA. I think I was wrong...so I gota put a stop to that..I gota put some song lyrics in here...maybe they mean something maybe not..Im just in a really fucked up mood right now. I need sleep maybe? too much working out today? I duno..shit
*~Hillary~*


I cant stop thinking about yesterday
we were long lasting for such a short short time
thinking about yesterday
seeing our fear of the future
how we knew then it wouldnt last
thinking about yesterday
we tried to ignore the awesome truth
that tore us worlds apart
thinking about yesterday
there is so much more I wanted to say
nothing more I can tell him live
words spoken now are blank
insignificant and hollow
so thinking about yesterday
I forgive and forget

every night its the same
I hear you calling my name
youre lyin next to me
I give in to your trust
you dissappear in my arms
I realize its just a dream
desperately I long to feel your touch
you left me all alone in love
shake the sleep from my head try to crawl out of bed
today is just another day
I make the coffee for one
turn the radio on
pretend that everything is ok
theres no reason to smile its gona take me a while
cuz I still love you desperately
I still love you
I still want you
I still love you desperately

GOD DAMN PEOPLE IM IN SUCH A BAD MOOD STOP asking me to do your damn homework SHIT

amanda came over yesterday for a bit and then we were supposed to meet her and rita at the beach but..it didnt work out so Chantel Cait and I just went to houghton and laid on the beach by the volleyball court. so many people were there! Lexi Kelsey and Bryn came by to say hey for a bit, then after a couple hours Chantel Cait and I walked to emerald city smoothies. I got a guava sunrise...and got a fuckin seed stuck in my throat halfway through. That was at 3 PM and I still had it stuck when I went to bed at 1 in the morning, it hurt so bad to swallow. we came home from the beach on the bus, and when I was walkin home, these 3 guys were standing on the road. I walked by and one of them goes "Hey honey" and I just looked at him like umm ok? and he goes "how are you? you are doin good huh, cuz you look good!" and I just smiled and turned the other way. then his friend was like "she doesnt like us" and the last guy goes, "yeah but we like HER!" I was like OMG wierdos! I came home and took a nap!! it was so great! when I got up, I walked over to Subway and met up with Eileen. Daniel Flores was there so I talked to him for a while, I miss him, it sucks so bad that I love Jessica's whole family so much but I never get to see them because she is so retarded now. I went to Eileens house and we found something out about her brother. holy shit, I didnt think it was possible! but then I came home at 11 45, and talked to Kevin online for a while then went to bed. I slept till 11 45 today when Lex called. she wants to hang out but I duno if we are gona cuz Im supposed to hang out with Kristin Liz and Chantel..so yeah. Im doin Ryans homework right now so I should go :D
*~Skrillary~*

Friday was so much fun! Im writing in this now so that I can put everything from yesterday in here and then later do stuff from today..so yesterday I wore MY brown skirt that Chantel had borrowed for a long time. I had my cell on normal loudness when I got to school so that Caitlin could call me when she got there and I could borrow her white flip flops. She called and I hung up and forgot to turn my phone to silent before WASL testing. SO my mom thinks she should call me at 8 30 in the morning to tell me about a barbeque in anacortes for mothers day. My phone started ringing soo loud and I had the keys locked, so I couldnt make it stop. God that was embarrassing! In math, Jessica looked at my skirt, (she used to have one the same as mine) and looked at Bryn, then texted bryn, and she looked too. They both started making faces about how I had stollen it from her or something, and Jess got up to go to the bathroom and bryn looked at me and goes "so where can I get a brown skirt? I really want one" I lost so much respect for her right there. I mean I already hate Jessica with a passion, and I knew Bryn is kinda like that, but neither of them had respect enough for me to ask me if it was mine or not. And bryn was trying to be all sneaky about it, when I knew all along what she was doing. So then I went to lunch. Me and Eileen Natanya and Rachel were playin kimps and Jessica walks in with Ellsa. they go to the pop machine, and ellsa is just standing there staring at my skirt. I was so pisssed off by then so I was like OMG KRISTIN THEY ARE STILL LOOKING AT MY SKIRT! and Liz turned around and was like "YEAH SHE IS WEARING A BROWN SKIRT! HERRR BROWN SKIRT, GET OVER IT!" haha it was great. In PE, I asked bryn if jess thought my skirt was hers and she said she just 'asked' bryn about it after bryn asked me about where I got it. Which is a total lie because jess wasnt even in the room when I was talking to bryn bout where I got it. after school, Kristin Liz Chantel and I went to Kristin and Liz's house. on the way off campus, it was sooo hot and we were all tryin to get less clothes on, and Liz was sick of her bra, so she took it off haha. We walked for like half an hour before we got to their house, I didnt realize it was that far from school but we had soo much funny conversations on the way. vibrators lol. when we got to their house we all changed into less clothes cuz it was seriously SO HOT! we sat inside and talked for a long time eating then went on the trampoline to play kimps and tan. Me and Kristin beat some ass at first, then Liz started CHEATING and her and Chantel caught up. lol. after like 2 hours of that me and Kristin went inside and put on tanning oil. Liz said I was soo tan and I looked down at my feet, and they were BLACK from the trampoline. haha I was like OMG EWWW so I went in and washed my feet off and they turned white again so I wasnt so tan nemore. lol. I had kristins tank top on, but my bra was showing out the top and we were going to tan, so I ended up just taking off the shirt and laying with them on the tramp in my skirt and bra. haha. we jumped on the trampoline for a while then at 5 45 Chantel and I had to go home. I felt soo slutty walking around with just my bra and a skirt on, so Kristin gave me a blanket and I ran into the house and past their mom into Kristin's room to change haha. their mom rode in the car while they drove us home. I did chores and told my mom about the WASL phone call and stuff, then I walked over and met Chantel at safeway. Her dad and her were there pickin up a pizza. we went to her house and played on her new computer downloading stuff. Kristin and Liz came over and we all sat in the kitchen talkin and stuff all night. Chantels dad drove us to cold stone and we got 2 and shared em. Eileen was working and her uncle was there, and the guy makin our ice cream was askin her bout us and stuff like how old we are and where we are from lol. he gave us whip cream on top of our ice cream!! it was so good! then this nastynasty couple came in and oh god..this guy that looked like a disfunctional scrawny 17 year old red headed guy walked it..then a women who was 300+ pounds came in she had a face sooo fat Liz said "omg her eyes look sunken in cuz the fat rolls are swallowing them!" she was wearing a skirt with a slit up to her ass crack and had the BIGGEST ass ever! they were a couple. OH GOD~so we are just sitting there minding our business..we look over at them (Eileen was serving them) and they kept bumping asses and he spanked her.it was soo sick.she looked at him and goes 'I love you' but without sound and he did it back and then did the eating-out sign to her! OH MY GOD we were DYING laughing. I thought I was seriously going to choke to death! we went back to Chantels and talked more. lol then kristin liz and I left and I came home and watched the crazy last church show. then it was bed time.
Today Im goin to the beach with Caitlin and Chantel (and amanda if she ever calls me back) and we are going to tan!!! yay!*H-fizzle*