really now, its been over a month since I posted. haha, sorry about that. I just havent been able to sit down and take a break from life at all since senior year started. But I wanted to post tonight because it is a huge turning point in my life. I turn 18 tomorrow! and along with all of the excitement of that, homecoming is on Saturday. There is some serious conflict in my house right now regarding many family issues (my grandparents ignoring my sister and I even though my grandpa is literally deteriorating more and more each day, and my mom and aunt are in a huge money dispute about Dans remodel work on Eileens house). The homecoming issue that I am having to deal with though, is that my mom isnt letting me stay at the hotel that we rented for that night. I have made an obligation to my friends to pay for $30 of the $300 room, and all the sudden my mom told me I cant go. And I havent even told her that I am staying out all night tomorrow for my bday. I pretty much know that the reason she is saying no is for 3 reasons:

• 1) she has some seriously deep rooted control issues. she has always tried her best to implement her authority over me and Shalia.
• 2) she is grasping desperately to me because I am the youngest child and I will be a full grown ADULT tomorrow morning. She has 4 hours to get out the last of the little maternal instincts she was born with, and has been trying to use for the last 21 years.
• 3) she wants to prove to me that just because I am 18, I can NOT do whatever I want. Which I already realize, but she isnt sure of it.

Im almost positive that after this weekend Im going to be kicked out of my house. Because even though my mom doesnt want me to go to these overnight parties, Im going anyways. I know how to take care of myself, and I dont see a reason why I should have to be home at 1AM when the dance ends at 12ish. Thats seriously not even enough time to drive to Bellevue and get back, not to mention that I am not driving that night so I will end up coming straight home before people go to the room. Fuck that!

Im psyched for tomorrow!! I have school, then right afterwards me and Cait are gonna come home and steam out the wrinkles in our dresses, and then we are going with Chantel to get manicures and pedicures, then we are going shoe shopping ( I still dont have homecoming shoes). At 7 everybody is meeting at my house (Chantel, Caitlin, me, Rhys, Michael Sordhal, Michael Elvidge, Guy, Rachael and Steve) and we are driving to Bellevue for a formal dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. Its going to be sooo bomb!! All the guys are wearing khaki pants and button up shirts, and the girls are wearing formal dresses, high heels and everything!! After dinner, we are going to Nathans house and having a party, plus Eileen and Aaron and maybe a couple other people. It is honestly going to be everything I could have wanted from an 18th birthday party, except the fact that I wont have permission to stay out all night. But whatever, my mom can deal, or I can just come home at 3 AM totally wasted! lol.
Friday I am pretty much spending the day getting ready for homecoming, and then at night I am going out to dinner with my mom, sister and Dan, and probably getting yelled at for the night before. . . and then earning browning points so I dont get evicted Sunday morning when my mom realizes I am not home.
Saturday is homecoming and I dont even know how to describe the fun I am expecting to have. Its going to be amazing!!
Sunday I work from 12-8PM at Pizza Hut, and then I will have a shit load of homework to catch up on.

I got a job at Rubys diner! I am a server there, and my first day was yesterday. I am really stoked about the job because I get to wear SUCH a cute uniform! Plus it is an awesome environment.

I need to go do laundry and get my room straightened out, pick out an outfit for my big day tomorrow, and then take a shower. So, Happy Birthday To ME!

And Happy Halloween, in case I dont get a chance to update again before then

Peace out players,
Hillary